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2010-02-21T03:06:00.001+08:00

this is probably really overdue. valentine's day was like a week ago. but went to catch valentine's day with 6d classmates today as a super last min outing after house visiting. went with wensi yushan puayhian dunjie zhiyong ruiyuan.

hmm i'm not going to elaborate anything abt the movie. the plot is so complicated (there are 5 storylines intertwined in the movie), so i shan't bother with that. though wensi is right to say that this is all just fictional, and probably presents all the ideal relationships, and real-life relationships never go that way anyway, but somehow i just can't help but feel a twitch in the heart.

hmm mebbe i'm starting to really grow up liao lol. i probably hardly ever given relationships any thought at all. i guess it's probably due to my self-esteem (low obviously), which comes from quite a number of reasons la, mostly physical appearances i should think. haha it's something no one can run away from, no matter how good it may sound that "looks don't matter, what matters comes from within the heart". so that, coupled with the fact that no one has ever expressed anything at all, it's kinda no wonder i'm still what i am today. single. haha.

er im not despo hor, seriously. and im not trying to be emo here. it's just... something that came to mind after various events that happened to friends around me, and the movie was kinda the final straw. of cos, not every relationship is all lovey-dovey, but from the steady relationships, to the occasional quarrels, louis vuitton handbags to the huge break-up rows, to even the pure simple crushes on ppl, some of these around me have kinda reminded me time and again, shouldn't i be giving this some thought?

i guess different people just have different ways of life. some ppl just get attached to one after another, and break-ups never daunt them. some ppl get quite badly hurt after one bad relationship, then takes a very ong time to heal before they are willing to accept anyone else again. some ppl have high expectations, and therefore it's hard for them to find anyone they deem fit. some ppl try and try to no avail, and it's somehow just hard to find anyone at all. and some ppl, just live their life as though relationships aren't existent, and live happily just having friends and family. they are the ones who think they got everything under control and finding the other half is of no significant importance to them. or so they pretend.

and of cos, some ppl get attached and they know that they have found their partner for life.

somehow i just seem to blind myself from that possible outcome lol. always falling into the category of pretending not to care and never really bother to go look for one, cos i think deep down i'm truly afraid i'll end up being the group who try and try and nothing will ever work out. i guess it's a way of shielding myself from possible damage, by just not involving myself in any relationships at all. it's kind of similar to a porcupine, or a tortoise, when i just hide under my spikes and in my shell, not willing to reach out to anyone that i may like at all.

lol this is getting mushy. i prob never wrote anything like this before. cos i've been trying to avoid. and i also dunno where i'm going with this post. it's prob just to serve as a reminder that, relationships do play a big part in my life, and is something that cannot be neglected. unless i decide to stay single for my whole life and die a lonely man lol. ok la it's kinda way too early to start saying all this rubbish.

but still. perhaps it's time to shed off that layer of spikes and come out from my shell already.

2010-02-17T19:13:00.001+08:00

there are tons of events that happen that are probably a lot more significant and important than this, but i feel i just had to blog it. sorry for letting that previous emo post hang there as the current post for so long, i've grown out of that shortly after ever since i attended a course my bro and sis both went for and asked me to go. due to time constraints i probably cant continue, due to meet joel tong (yay fellow TIP intern) in an hour plus...

i just discovered that running in the rain can be so therapeutic.

ok i know it's probably damn random, but i just had to say it. went for a jog just now, after feeling super guilty for the cny goodies intake, and good positive motivation from weekian and weechern (amazingly both wee! lol). was quite pissed off by the current roadworks on the bukit timah mrt line which will not exactly really benefit me since i'm like stuck in the middle of 2 mrt stations, which are both not that within walking distance (talk about bad luck and bad location of residence), as it had disrupted my running route more than once. so decided to chiong and do a u-turn after coming to the roadblock, resulting in a longer distance than usual. (ok la, i've done two full rounds before when i was still fitter, so it's "supposed" to be do-able.)

so during the u-turn, well no prizes for this, it started to drizzle. and the weather is still damn hot. now plus humid. even worse. then run some more. then rain more heavily. then run some more. then DOWNPOURRRRR. like seriously. i dont think i was ever caught in a downpour, cos i usually always have an umbrella with me. so this kinda like a first. and i'm like super tired already,louis vuitton handbags having ran more than what i intended to, and it's after a longgggg hiatus (i had a really packed schedule, so havent run for damn long). so i was mega dulan. like frigging angry. and frustrated. and thinking, for crying out loud, how suay can i get. there were totally no signs it was going to rain la can.

then came the sense of helplessness, fatigue and despair. (okok im exaggerating this lol.) i was like, "omg there's still so long more to go before i reach back to my estate..." and there's a omg-ly steep slope right at the entrance of my estate >.< well i dunno what came over me after that, but after seeing how other ppl also chiong to their destinations despite the rain, and not like hiding at the nearest bus stops or wad, my mindset changed. i began to feel a weird sense of empowerment. like suddenly i tell myself i can do it. so i just chionged. and i can tell u, distance doesnt matter loh seriously. the distance i ran may not be very far, but when one chiongs ah, it's seriously damn tiring. LIKE SERIOUSLY. my legs feel like jelly now. esp cos most of the last part of the route was downslope. (i was counting on that to give myself an excuse to walk the last stretch la. in the end... >.<)

but even though my legs are damn chui now, there's this sense of satisfaction i cant describe within me. ok la, it's really quite stupid come to think of it haha. but somehow i just felt happy i managed to finish wad i set out to do. you know, like with this fighting spirit and determination within u, u will just get to ur destination. this is actually very similar to what i learnt during the basic course, where intention is all you need to achive the results that you want, and mechanisms are really really minor when compared to intention. obstacles become an excuse and justification for you not to work for your goals, and in the end one will just forever stay in his comfort zone, not willing to step out and take a risk to do something different. i dunno if i will fall sick after this (wasn't really too well already, since i got quite heaty after all the cny goodies), but for now, i'll have no regrets loh. and this is what is important. the sense of fulfillment and achieving one's aims.

that voice in you to break through all obstacles, knowing your destination is just right ahead within reach.

uh this may sound totally retarded to certain ppl, well mainly cos i dunno how exactly to express how i felt in words. but i don't really care what ppl think anymore. as long as for me, i think that the lessons i've gained from this seemingly trivial matter feels invaluable to me. that's all that matters. just wanted to share la, if anyone who reads this can roughly understand wad i mean, great, if not, just ignore the post bah...

ok im like running late. need to get stuck in the peak hour traffic too. hope to find some time to properly sit down and blog abt the numerous things that happened in the past month. it's been a really crazy month. new friends, new discoveries about myself, new attitudes towards life, new determination to achieve the results i want, new closer forged friendships, new enlightenment about many many things in life. i think my basic course friends and ppl like hanzong, bernard and ruiyuan will probably understand what i mean...

lastly, just wanted to say to everyone, albeit quite belated haha. happy chinese NEW year!

it's a brand new beginning.

2010-01-17T03:10:00.001+08:00

hmm typing this on a cooling night, after a gd chat with ruiyuan on various issues here and there. cup of water on the desk next to me. earphones on, playing the current blog song (because i'm stupid by kim hyun joong, from BoF. yes im very outdated i know, but better later than never right). everyone else at home is asleep. i guess it's a gd time to take a while to write this post, sort of to reflect abt the past 2 wks, and the future and all, after being inspired by the chat.

yes. emo-time lol. though actually i also dunno why i'm emo-ing. just feeling... that doing some reflection is timely now?

these 2 weeks, i'll say, have been eventful and routine at the same time. well i can probably list a lot of things i've done over the past 2 wks, like going back to hwachong for the induction programme as well as the annual staff meeting and having the mega awkward moment of saying hi to your ex-teachers who are going to be your temporary colleagues >.< as well as the 3 day teaching internship workshop which i got to make quite a few friends, fellow jc interns. which is probably one of the very important and good things that i took away from the 3 days at NUS. i can also talk about the ice cream making session i went with junzhi over at tom's palette, and how i attempted to try it out with hanzong and bok on monday at hz's house (horlicks icecream), alongside justin's painstakingly typed out pasta + meatballs recipe on his website, without him being around to help. or about catching up with yongbiao, kevin, ber and jinhui on wed night at amk over dinner and they're probably going hound me for not uploading the photos yet lol. (yup gd point, i better upload them soon.) or even abt going for lu guang zhong's concert with ruiyuan just now and enjoying his very good live vocals and stage presence over at dragonfly, st. james. (btw he was really good. and he quite successfully drawn the audience's attention and memories of the gig i think.)

hmm seems quite happening right. actually i had a pretty good time being part of all these myself. but i guess i'm just not really in the mood to go into too much details abt them la. mind's more preoccupied with stuff that i don't even know wad it is. weird feeling, but i think everyone has their moments too. like u just feel serious and reflective all of a sudden, and all the things that u've been a part of or happened to u (the tangible stuff) now seems less important than the feelings and thoughts u've gained from them (the intangible stuff). but, being the intangible things they are, sometimes u can't really grasp them all.

the 3 day workshop was quite fun, and im really glad i made quite a few friends from it. i hope when my own internship begins end of the mth, we all can find some time to come together and have a good time sharing our experiences. and im really glad to have met my old neighbour back at my old amk house, whom i havent been in contact since pri 5. that's like... 9 years? wow. and what a small world. but i'm really glad this internship has gotten us back in contact, and hope it can stay that way, yee wee haha. another pleasant surprise was to see bokai, my pri sch schoolmate and we had quite a lot of fun being on the same school bus. louis vuitton handbags although we've met a couple of times over the years, but being in different schools and all, it was really quite hard to keep in contact. but i'm glad this internship helped to allow us to stay in touch too. so i would say those 3 days have been a good time, making new friends and reminiscing with the old lol.

going back to hwachong, as i said, is a really weird experience. mon's induction was still ok as it was more of meeting the key personnel (principals and deputy principals and deans and directors), who of cos dunno me, being the average joe i was in school. fri was a lot more awkward lol. esp during breakfast and lunch, when the interns had to queue with all the teachers, high school and jc side alike, for the food. so it's really kinda weird when u meet your ex-teachers, and the idea that they are going to be your colleagues for the next 3 months creeps in. sort of gets you to mutter "omg" in your mind. but i guess it just needs some time to get used to and hopefully a couple of weeks into the internship i'll be comfortable with it. (but firstly, it must start! been waiting and waiting la. not that i'm SUPER eager to teach, but it's more of like, it's really damn long. thankfully now i got stuff to pass time with.)

going for the icecream making session with junzhi was, i think, quite a significant thing for me. cos of our busy schedules, haven't been meeting him for quite some time, so this was a good time for us to catch up. i hope both of us won't be too caught up in our work and can arrange a meeting with kenny as well sometime in the future. haha my good bmt buddies. will never forget those times... also, it was quite interesting in itself, since i belong to the category of only know how to eat but dunno how to make/cook/bake/wadeva. i shan't go into details, though i feel it was a good time for me to do some hands-on ever since my baking attempt, which was quite long ago le. i should think of something else to make and not let this wish to learn to bake become some passing fad, some short phase in my life. it's a useful skill and i hope i can persevere to the end loh. monday's cookout at hz's house was a good chance to test our results, and i must say i'm pretty pleased with wad we came out, despite the divine intervention by justin the chef. but really hor, i cant imagine 1 person cooking. we had already enough on our hands when we had 3 ppl (hz me bok). if i were to cook alone, i prob take like 5 hours to come out with a meal mebbe >.<

talking abt learning stuff, i feel like i'm always interested in certain stuff but it doesn't last. which is really bad. i dont want to have just passing fads, but want to develop them as useful skills i can apply in future. ok la, dj teaching me piano is really just casual learning of a few songs here and there, plus he got such a busy schedule anyway, so i also wont be able to have constant progress to be sufficiently good in it. but stuff like languages (like jap), though they are seemingly useless, but can be quite good-to-knows loh. haven't really considered abt taking it properly as a course and have weekly lessons, but i'm quite determined to not let wadeva i learnt over the past few mths in army go to waste. being able to speak one more language, no matter how irrelevant or seemingly unimportant, will definitely have its uses at some point of time de la. that's wad i believe in anyway. and lastly, being able to prepare simple dishes or bake simple cookies. that'll be something i'll never want to let go of. i think what i need is some encouragement? and motivation to really do it. cos after the not so good experience with my family members regarding the previous random urge baking session, i dunno exactly how supportive they are. i feel all i need is just some encouragement from them for me to be able to pick it up so much faster loh. it's like how jandi's family work together to prepare kimchi in ep 9 of BoF. i feel it's like a very nice warm family feeling, if a family can come together to bake something simple, like cookies or brownies, or prepare a meal. but of cos, i know, that's all rather idealistic thinking la. i do hope something of even the slightest degree of that can happen though. haven't really felt the nice fuzzy family feeling ever since we got back from vietnam. i guess during then, we were like "stuck together", so we tended to interact and bond more. but now, back in sg, we are all back to leading our own individual, independent lives. there just isn't that nice come-together feel anymore. i wonder when i can have that back again?

i agree with ruiyuan that vivo rooftop is really quite a nice place to have a gd chat for 2, fun interactions between a large group, with games and loads of laughter etc, and a really gd spot for one to be alone for a while and run things thru his mind. more simply put, to emo lol. it's tested and proven by me. been there, done it. so for anyone who wanna find a gd place to emo, it's quite a nice place. the whole dim lighting, cool night breeze, random screenshots of different ppl, from families to couples to friends to probably just a bunch of acquaintances there for some icebreakers, looking at different sights can get u to think about a lot of things. and when u are tired of looking around, can just gaze upon sentosa, or the port, and the numerous lights there portraying a stark contrast to the dimmer surroundings u have around you somehow will have a soothing effect on you. and u can think thru a lot of things. he suggested marina barrage too, but that's a whole load more inaccessible. mebbe when i become more confident abt my driving to do it alone, then i prob take an evening or night drive there bah.

took up some volunteer work for northwest cdc, where my mum works, at various ccs spread across the nw region of singapore. got bok to go along with me, so i wont feel so alone haha. i guess it's a good way for me to pass the time prior to my internship, and volunteer work is always good. i haven't really helped out in community events for quite a long time, ever since my service-learning days in sec 4, and a short stint of ocip back in j1. been meaning to do something ever since, but i kept gaving myself the excuse of army, and stay-in, so wkends not sufficient to do anything. now that excuse is no longer valid, so i guess it's time i should do something abt what i promised myself back then. anyway only been at it for 2 days, and will only work for 1 wk more till my internship starts, so it's very short actually. haven't really gotten to talk to many of the volunteers, but hope as well can make some friends, since our ages aren't that far apart. there are slightly older volunteers as well, so i would say we got ppl from various walks of life ba.

the reason why i mentioned this is cos somehow looking at some of the ppl i met, regardless of coordinators, volunteers, or the actual ppl we are assisting, it got me thinking quite a bit. more of how i envy certain ppl for their ability to connect with the general public and community, and reflecting on how i react or portray myself when involving myself in the job. i think it's inevitable, many if not most of us do carry different personas within us. i don't mean like split personality disorder or something, but more of different behaviours and manners one will adopt in different situations. all these different behaviours are in full control by the person de. at least i feel i have a need to, putting on "different masks" quoting miss peck, my facilitator during the 3 day moe course. i'm sure wensi agrees with me too, cos we've briefly discussed this before. but anyway, seeing how good some of the volunteers are when dealing with strangers, as well as remembering the various styles ppl adopted during the course when they had to go to the front of the class to present or teach something, kinda made me think if there's a need to think over what kind of me i wanna portray when i start my internship.

i know many ppl will probably just say, "just be yourself! why must act like someone else!" but this is a very idealistic way of thinking loh. even if i wanted to just "be myself", i think some change in my personality is in order here. the 20 year-old me has offended quite a lot of ppl in the past, when i was someone who didnt dare to criticise ppl for any flaws they might have, was over-sensitive abt how ppl looked at me and felt upset and very hurt whenever anything negative was being said abt me. someone who was always eager to please ppl, like some lackey, in the end not more than once being labelled a hypocrite. yes hyprocrite. how i hated that word when i first heard it, but i guess i grew numb after hearing it more than once. or twice. or... nvm. basically i was just this coward who liked to hide in my own shell, always trying to round any sharp edges that might hurt others, with the shell getting broken very easily and taking quite some time to mend.

damn i'm being really brutally honest with myself here.

this kind of personality will probably not be able to withstand any hard blows at all, be it in the upcoming internship, or future in uni, or even in society in future loh. how can i not wear a mask to hide all this ugliness. yeah, i should change. but how long does one take before he can transform into someone new? old habits die hard. similarly, old personas are really hard to change. so this whole circumstance has really really got me thinking. well i can't gurantee success, i'll probably be as cowardly and hypocritical as i used to be, but i'm determined to change. and not going to let myself be bullied into reverting back to my old self, my comfortable self. it's time to step out of the comfort zone and embrace new challenges. so i'm hoping that this internship will let me take away not just a whole load of experiences, but a new me as well. i won't want my students to think what a weak and nice to bully teacher they had.

ppl who really like me for who i am, thank you very much, i'm really grateful, and i hope with your support i can steadily head towards my goal. ppl who give up on me cos of the flaws i used to have and refuse to give me a second chance, well, all i have to say is sorry i've wasted your time for the past years being ur friend, and regrettably i'm just that unacceptable in ur eyes loh. mebbe our personalities just don't match and we are prob not meant to be gd friends to begin with, but just keep trying to force ourselves upon this friendship. there's a lot of interesting contrast when you have friends whom u havent met for years and when u all meet again, u all still can have that link and chat abt mostly everything u all got in common. and when some friends you can feel the drifting apart because of new environment, new friends, well even if u force upon urself to meet every few months or even every few weeks, the nice cosy friendship feeling is just not there. this thing abt friendships, should be a very close and mutual thing, but things are just not right when u all get together just because everyone happens to be free. or only on special occasions. if two ppl are friends, there shouldnt be anything forced. and they shouldnt take like last priority. i've been on both ends of the stick before, so i understand how sad one is on the giving end, always trying to make things work, not being appreciated or regarded, and how lousy and bastard one feels, knowing that he hasn't been keeping in contact with a friend and didn't make a point to arrange another a meetup when something cropped up.

i think i'm horrible at staying on point. digressing until liddat. i guess writing posts on emo-moods makes the post very different. maybe i'm drunk from the gin tonic i had at st. james just now, so i'm typing all this rubbish. i'll prob take this off once i come to my senses, mebbe tml morning after i wake up.

argh i hate myself. emoooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

2009-12-27T01:30:00.001+08:00

haha it's been more than a week since i came back to this "hot sunny island of singapore". weather has been mega sian man! keep raining raining raining everyday.. anyway, here's wishing everyone a belated merry christmas! hope everyone had fun during this festive season.

this week since i came back had been, activity-packed i would say (which is good). that also means that it is a very costly week (which is badddddd. like really really baddddd). i'm getting horribly poor, with high expenditure and no income. omg lahhh. furthermore ill have to live with this for another month more before my internship starts. seriously need to watch my spending.

sat met up with ber nicholas justin foo bok jeremy to catch avatar at plaza sing. the graphics are really cool, the scenery is really nice, which more than make up for the storyline which seems slightly plain in comparison. overall i like it. sun, cos promised kevin le, so went to catch bodyguards and assassins with kevin ber grant yongbiao satan. hmm, the meaning behind the story is strong, i feel like i learnt something new abt the rise of democracy in china and stuff. the action also quite good la i should think, one of the better hk action films set in the early 1900s. the behind half did keep my attention centred on the show, so i guess i was captivated by the action once the main part of the story began. overall nt bad too! well i guess it was a gd time to catch up with some platoonmates and specs after ord =)

mon went out with samuel to celebrate my bdae. oh regarding that, would like to thank everyone who wished me happy bdae thru any means, from face-to-face to over-the-phone to sms to msn to facebook wall post. really appreciate it! feel blessed to have friends around haha. anyway, went to try out this place at mandarin gallery, wild honey. nice decor and friendly service, just that food is slightly on the ex side, louis vuitton handbags and no menus are available, have to order at the counter. got this cool itouch which has the photos for u to scroll thru though, which is quite a nice hi-tech touch to the otherwise rather quaint looking cafe/restaurant. btw, it's famous for its tagline: serving breakfasts from all over the world, all-day! which was why samuel chose to bring me there in the first place. sam had scandinavian, which consisted of grilled salmon (nice smokey taste), asparagus (i quite like this veg haha), on a bed of rosti (wad can ever go wrong with pan-fried potato =D). i picked the new york one, with tomatoes, scrambled eggs and sturgeon (yum!), as well as bagel with cream cheese (the bagel is SERIOUSLY fresh and good. i love it haha). oh yea, shared a fruit blend of raspberries, banana and mandarin orange juice with honey. guess i dont need to describe the taste, u prob can imagine how good it is lol.

played bishibashi and photohunt and jubeat and mariokart etcetc at plaza sing before deciding to stop by somewhere to have a chat. went to max brenner's over at esplanade. havent been there for a really long time! i had the whipped granite dark choc, which was wad we ordered b4, while sam took an italian hot choc, which turned out to be surprisingly good! seriously the choc is so rich that u can just finish the drink by dipping ur spoon it, taking it out and then just licking the spoon! lol. ok that sounded a bit gross >.< but basically it's just damn good yeah. went shopping for some clothes at marina square before i chose timbre for our dinner spot. cos kinda missed the roast duck pizza which i last had at timbre arts house with mortar guys. sam ordered some drink with graprefuit juice and 7-up, while i had something with orange and mint leaves. he didnt really like mint, but for someone who does (like me), i seriously like it! haha. i prob dont need to describe the pizza, tons of ppl have eaten it b4 to know how good it is lol. ok this is seriously turning out to be some food blog post, which i dont intend to make it sound liddat. but basically we just ate and drank the whole day through la (gained dunno how many kg rofl). had a chat on the bus ride back home and cut the cake my mum bought for me haha. yup that concludes my bdae le. by eating and drinking non-stop >.< lol. tue went top one ktv (2nd time this mth lol) with foo and his 2 friends. omg lahs. foo seriously has some imba friends. i wont say much, but basically it was an EYE-OPENER. kinda makes me think again whether i actually sound decent >.< really cool experience. hoping that foo will invite them again haha. learnt a lot too! so shall try out some changes next few times i go ktv... xmas eve went justin's house for yet another baking session! haha i always enjoy all the baking sessions, cos i find them really meaningful, u get to spend the day fruitfully, and have end products to bring home! also another great time to catch up with platoon guys =) anyway had justin (duh of cos lol), junhong, samuel, ber, bok, kevin, hanzong around. made pizzas for lunch and baked apple pies and chocolate cookies! had quite a bit of trouble with the seafood pizza, cos we happened to get live prawns, thinking that they'll probably be really fresh, before realising that we gotta be the ones who make them appear beheaded and de-shelled on the pizza dough >.< so it was a tough decision before we went ahead with the deed. urgh, still gimme the shivers thinking abt it. thankfully i was chopping up the capsicums, so i didnt get to handle the prawns. but the comments from ber and justin were bad enough, saying how the body continues to twitch after it has been beheaded and while they were trying to deshell it. euurrghh. but well, it was a fun day nevertheless! at night went over to qiquan's grandma's house for CO xmas bbq. though the turnout rate wasnt too good, but still got to see quite a no. of hcco peeps! havent seen them for really really long lahhhh. so it was a great time to catch up with them all haha. hoping will see them again next yr if there's any tuan yuan fan bah.. cos missed out on the chance to see a lot others who couldnt make it. had some fun smoking up the whole area with the sparklers hahaha. that seriously had to be the most air polluting box of sparklers i've ever seen lol. it was like PSI 1000 hahaha. xmas day itself, surprisingly, was quite stay-at-home-y. went out with the morning with kevin and bok to samuel's church over at admiralty to attend xmas service. cos samuel was like asking us when we were at justin's house. i had a horrible experience before, so i was quite apprehensive. but it turned out to be quite alright lah. the play they put up was really pretty good. good cast, decent props, thus there's not much need for a lot of lighting and sound effects, also can put up a really good play. i enjoyed watching it haha. after that went for lunch at northpoint b4 getting ingredients for my first baking experience at home, while they went to catch sherlock holmes. hmm decided to try out the cookies using the recipe justin followed on xmas eve at his place, cos choco cookies always taste good haha. uh the end results was >.< though. i dunno is cos the cookie too big, or never bake enough, but they turned out quite crumbly... to me they taste ok though, however thats prob just me trying to console myself =.= sadded. but still, shall not give up, im determined to incorporate more of these baking sessions to improve on it and pick it up as a hobby! cos i really enjoy the times i baked at justin's house, but the higher level stuff (like the blackforest cake omg), is really tough sia.. nvm shall aim to improve with prac. my family doesnt really support me though, i got a little pissed off when i was getting ingredients, cos i called home to ask if there's stuff i might not need to get, then they got irritated with me somehow. so in the end i got so pissed i went to buy something which i dont even think is a sift. waste my 9bucks. nvm at least later my dad did help me with the cookie baking, which was good, cos i prob wont know how to start the oven in the first place (yes i'm that noob!). so well, alls well ended well i guess. wait till i decide to bake again to get another earful from my parents ("you think this very fun is it? make a mess of the dining table and the kitchen, then still got so much stuff to clear up? why bother with all the trouble! why want to make ur own! just buy if u really want to give cookies to ur friends lah!"). seems like i dont have the most encouraging parents in the world eh? but nvm, ill persevere! (so pls say my cookies are nice if u all get to eat it! lol. just kidding la, be honest abt it.) hmm so today overslept for tuition >.< my alarm clock is dying on me la. dunno why never ring de loh zzz. anyway met dj and ruiyuan at somerset for gift shopping. bought some quite nice stuff that im hoping ill get it myself! lol. though the chances are like... low? lol. wah seriously shopped damn long lahhhh. took mrt from 313 somerset to orchard, then went ion to taka to paragon to john little to robinsons to plaza sing g2000. my feet took a serious toll man. lol. was so glad when i finally sat down for dinner la! anyway had my first meal at xing wang after becoming a member lolol. hmm the baked rice nt bad, wont mind ordering again lol. so in the end, on top of my gift, got another business shirt to add to my collection for next yr's use. sian lah, now need to like free up this space for all these kinda formal stuff liao, unless i wanna repeat the same few shirts and pants for the next 7 weeks.. urgh sian. that means more money flying awayyyyyyy. i think i dont really have to explain why im broke now yeah? seriously need to watch my expenditure liao. as in SERIOUSLYYYYYYYY. oh did i mention im going to spend a bomb on the new non-army phone im getting? so much for watching my expenditure >.<

argh lemme strike a windfall or something. $$ ka-ching issues suck.

2009-12-17T22:15:00.001+08:00

heyo back again from sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam. omg im like so busy now on the computer, trying to constantly chat with 4 ppl on msn, while helping my sis out with some booking of her flight ticket due to some problems. omg im on a typing frenzy! there better not be any blackouts tonight!!

anyway gonna be a short post la, considering nth much happened today lol. a really perfect day to nuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. since the weather's so horrible >.< keep so cloudy and gloomy, then rainy. zzz. well anyway did absolutely NOTHING productive in the morning, went back to bungalow after breakfast and just slack in there, reading my book. finished 5 ppl u meet in heaven. it's a really really awsome read. made me think abt quite a few things... now i know why yongbiao say he read it like 5 times haha. seriously it's something u can't get tired of, and the lessons u learn in it is invaluable, in any part of ur life. somehow i just felt like i should treasure everything and everyone around me more, and this is probably one of the most important messages the book is trying to convey bah. on to for one more day now, another amazing read... shall comment more after i'm done with it haha (which most probably will be on the plane back to sg tml...) hmm went to the beach with dad and mum for a bit around noon, was just there to enjoy the waves lapping at ur feet, and sand under it. mom made some words from the seashells lying around, then i dunno why i suddenly had the urge to run all the way back to our bungalow and get my bro's camera, then run all the way back to take it haha. just a spur of the moment kinda urge. now i also don't really know why... i guess it's partially the magical effect the book had on me bah >.< anyway had quite a good time, though we didnt do much haha, mum picking seashells, dad walking around, me just staying near the seaside and enjoying the cool water hitting my feet. it's probably one of the few times i didnt mind the gloomy weather that much, as it was rather cooling and i didnt have to shun from the sun or smth. afternoon went back to hoi an to collect our tailormade clothes. whee have new formal pants for internship next yr lo! not half bad either, nice designs picked, good tailor quality = gd comfortable pants! lol. ok im so advertising for them. but sis had some problems though, cos she ordered a vietnamese traditional costume and there were some problems with the sleeves, then the collar. we had to keep the whole busload of ppl going back to sandy beach resort waiting! >.< haha hope they weren't too pissed off with us lol. then again, we were only 5 min late. but, alls well ended well. the tailor ppl sent over the final altered set, and my sis was satisfied with it, so yep, we got all our goods with a smiley *cue for loads of smiley faces* ok clothes aside, went to have lunch/dinner at hoi an again, at a different restaurant this time. bro tried the cao lau i had the other time, as it was a hoi an specialty. hmm differently done, but still as good. mum had chicken pho (lol we are all becoming pho- addicts i think, cos it's rather healthy and tasty too). dad had fried rice, while sis and i had fried rice + sweet and sour chicken. thankfully the sweet and sour chicken this time wasnt like ytd's fish, though done in a more tom yum manner, louis vuitton handbags with pineapples and tomatoes and chillis. again, not exactly what we were thinking, but still better than ytd's fish lol. and YESSSS, i ordered vietnamese coffee!! whee, finally go to drink it haha. really not bad sia, esp with the fresh milk. very, freshly brewed kinda taste lol. but too bad didnt get to brew it myself, it already came in the brewed coffee form with a small plate of sugar and a small pitcher of milk. still, yumyum. and another huge YESSSS to finally getting to eat banh mi! as in the real proper roadside one, with the subway style veggies/meats/sauces combo. and true to its word, it was really nice too! though quite spicy lol, i had to drink plenty of water after that lol. but i did feel quite happy after eating it, cos was really looking forward to it. cos saw quite a no. of stalls u know, but didnt get the chance to really go buy it due to circumstances. so now, even if im going to get a tummyache or wad after that, i dont care liao lol. im in bliss~~ (omg look at what food can turn me into. gg this is a bad bad sign.) so yup, pretty happy i got my vietnamese sub + vietnamese coffee wishes granted (seriously i can get so contented over just food >.<). now i can rest in peace. ok lol im kidding, that sounded so inauspicious. but, on a more serious note, the trip is coming to an end liao, it's my last night over here. flying back to sg tml morning... sigh, end of a fairytale dream. but ok la, did feel the closer family bonds that i used to constantly complain i didnt have, so for that i'm very very satisfied =) and did feel a lot more refreshed and ready to take on new challenges that await me after my return! all recharged and energisedd! shall spend some more quiet time tonight, and tml on the plane to think over some stuff, then i'll really be ready for the rest of the month, and a long year ahead of me in 2010. well, so i would say this trip ended on a pretty good note, with no regrets! guess i do have my fairytale ending :D well then, for the very last time, saying ciaoz from second-left most computer (i didnt get my favourite left most comp again >.<), lobby of sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam! cya peeps back in the hot sunny island of singapore! (though im pretty sure it's not exactly the case over there now =.=)

2009-12-16T21:52:00.003+08:00

back live from sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam! lol, weather here's pretty bad today. raining whole day sia. if not of my undying determination to blog a post, i prob will be snuggling in the bungalow under my blanket, reading yongbiao's 5 people you meet in heaven. up till now, all i can say, it's a greaaaaaaaaaaaat read. shall rush back to finish it up after blogging, if my siblings haven't all go zzz yet lol.

wah i damn hip sia, now typing this in the resort lobby while listening to my mp3 lol. hope later i dont accidentally sing out some lyrics or start shaking my head to the music. lol im kidding im kidding. anyway as i'm typing this, i'm filled with dread, cos like abt less than 15 min ago, there was a massive blackout siaaa. in the main building at least, i dunno abt the bungalow area where my family is haha. scarrrrry. later everything i typed gone or the draft not saved i can go jump building liao lol. actually im not exactly really surprised at the blackout lol, considering how much stuff they leave on 24hr! these computers for instance. i mean ya la, it's ok to leave the comp overnight, i do that real often. but imagine leaving it on say, for 1 mth? omg la. haha. dont forget tons of other lights in the lobby, as well as the bling bling decoration lights they have outside the resort on all the trees. i dunno is for xmas and new year, or whole yr round one lol.

ok enough abt the lights lol. on to today's itinery. well today was quite ok la, but the rain was quite a spoiler. left the resort with quite a lot of anticipation, cos we had this car all to ourselves, with a driver who can speak minimal english. so it's like a mini one-day roadtrip kinda thing. quite cool. then the tour was expected to last abt 11 hrs, so i was like, "wow, must be a lot of things to see!" only to find out the reason behind the tour taking 11hrs is cos the first destination is a 2.5 hrs drive away. omg. >.< but ok la, along the way, just zzz loh, since had to wake up early for this trip anyway. the driver not bad haha, actually stopped by some mountainside road for us to take rather nice pictures of the mountains and the seashores. quite a magnificent sight, albeit quite cloudy, thus blocking quite a bit of everything =(. then continued the loooooooooooong trip to this pagoda. ok sorry abt not being able to name anything haha, cos vietnamese is sooooo hard to remember how to pronounce. but in any case, today's trip is more of sightseeing and taking random pictures with nice ancient ruins and scenery, while totally not knowing anything abt it lol. cos my bro, when ordering for the tour, forgot abt the tour guide! haha. might as well la, considering we'll probably not understand half of what the tour guide will be saying anyway, and we're not exactly that keen on finding out everything behind those places we went. it's just, a little weird la, going for a whole day to these 3 different places, but ending up not knowing anything abt them haha. the only things we can remember from them are probably where are the nice places to take photos rofl. ok that sounded slightly bimbotic. after the pagoda, with this giant bell (nice photo spot), and this giant tortoise carrying some tablet (also not bad photo spot), i roughly gathered it's some spot for praying to deities one la, since got quite a few sculptures and stuff. anyway, went to the citadel of hue after that (ah i know the name for this, cos it's like the highlight of the trip. it looked quite magnificent from outside too, with a loooooooooooooooooooooooooong talllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll wall, and a big vietnamese flag high up waving in the wind. it's really quite impressive. from the outside that is. after going in, hmm, kinda disappointing loh. ok la, partly also cos we were kinda lazy to walk everything (it was so frigging big), we only went abt 40% of it before we got bored of it. well mainly, it's the ruins of some ancient castle, so got like all the imperial style architecture and artifacts. prob is, most of them are so destroyed there's only stone ruins with overgrowing weeds (which isnt too bad for photos, but totally has no link to the main aim which is to understand the history of the civillisation loh), or they are under massive reconstruction (like repainting, even probably rebuilding the walls and furniture) so much so that they now look so fake. then wad's the point loh, louis vuitton handbags if they are oh-so-nice-and-pristine, but totally cannot exemplify the actual history of the citidel. ok la, overall got the effect of its majestic feel, from its sheer size (it's really damn biggggg), the moat that surrounded the WHOLE castle wall (that's seriously damn long i can tell u), all the castle doors (there's this wu3 men2, which supposedly is the place being portrayed in all those ancient chinese drama serials the place where people get executed - wu3 men2 zhan3 shou3), and all the backyard gardens (lol i'm so directly translating - hou4 hua1 yuan2), which are probably the only places worth taking, cos the plants still look rather overgrown, and not so bad that the photo will turn out bad. so u get ur photogenic yet authentic moments with them lol. but if u're going for the details, then really nth much loh. cos either authentic ruins that have eroded and corroded until nth left, or super nice and pristine artifacts and palace rooms that have obviously been tampered with to get, which then totally loses its purpose. as what my bro said, liddat might as well go take photos in the chinese garden, why bother going all the way there to take photos like those. omg it just blackouted again. thank god for draft saving functions. if not i really need to go jump building liao >.< whewwww. ok i better type faster being it happens again =.= ok moving on, went for lunch at some restaurant which didnt really suit my appetite, mebbe i'm not that used to vietnamese dishes with rice. those noodle dishes and fried rice and appetitisers taste good, but their dishes with rice, like sweet and sour fish, is totally nth like what we were expecting lol. so was the salty braised pork and chicken with mushroom (in fact i hardly saw any chicken in it. nor mushrooms for that matter lol.) anyway after lunch it began to pour again (wad a suay suay day zzz). stopped at the last stop, some tomb of some vietnamese king or prince or smth (sorry la, no tour guide is liddat one, totally dunno what's going on haha). all i know is the crypt/tomb part was super nice la, first time i see not all golden and shiny, but in actual fact made from ceramic shards, which gives it an actually really good jewel feel, from the colourful and shiny reflections from the ceramic shards. the artist/sculptor was really zai too, knowing how to combine the different coloured ceramic shards to form different shapes, like bonsais, animals, and chinese characters. OMG it blackouted AGAIN. this is proving to be one of the hardest blog posts i ever typed. i better hurry hurry. yup too bad photos not out yet, if not i'm really quite impressed, cos from far it looks really really good, the up close u notice actually there are like pieces from those broken plates and bowls u have at home. ceramic and porcelain-y. oh yeah, had a taste of french bread here finally. but mebbe cos of the vague meaning of the vietnamese word for the subway sub-like thing i was looking for (banh mi), the driver brought us to some bakery to get french pastries. hmm they weren't too bad la, and cheap somemore. just that i was more looking forward to what i was looking for >.< hope i get to eat it tml! as for vietnamese coffee... hmm, i probably wont get the chance to taste in here in danang le i think. probably more common in hanoi or ho chi minh. still, i'm hoping! haha.

tml's gonna be a quite relaxed day i think. still dunno what to do in the morning yet, but afternoon definitely heading over to hoi an to collect our new tailor made clothes (pants for me), and im waiting for my banh mi! lol omg i just realised that the only vietnamese words i know are all food, like pho, com, com ga, com chien, and banh mi lol. that's not a good sign lol. but i can't avoid it anyway, i know it liao. i'm so getting fatterrrrrrr on this trip. ggfied man lol. keep eating non-stop sia.

whew finally come to the end of today. better send this before it blackout again lol. signing off from the 2nd computer from the left, lobby of sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam (didnt get my leftmost one cos some guy was using, but he left after the first blackout. hah, looks like i got the most determination here man! lol)!

2009-12-15T20:45:00.001+08:00

lol random post from sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam! ok la, im just randomly having the urge to blog cos of my forced-cut-short post before i left sg on mon due to oversleeping >.< hope that i wont get too fed up trying to type on this keyboard which i'm not exactly very familiar with.. now that i'm more free, i think it should be good that i do more updating of my blog. it seriously needs a new face le, just that i'm ultra lazy to go find a new blogskin lol. anyway, the first 2 days here at danang have been not too bad. the resort's pretty cosy, we got upgraded to adjoining bungalows close to the sea, so have nice cooling sea breezes, food's quite alright, and having a 11hr long full day tour awaiting tml haha. went to danang city han market today, quite typical of any market, with first floor fresh and dried produce, and the second floor with shoes bags clothes and all the whatnot. interesting slice of life in vietnam la, i would say. too bad i didnt bring my camera, but hope my siblings and my dad did capture some images of the place though. seldom get to see the rows and rows of flower and fruit stalls. bought some jambu and dragonfruits. big and really sweet! haha. apart from the freakout incident when the first jambu my bro bit into, he inspected a worm slowly climbing out of the fruit. what's worse, he showed it to me, which caused me a phobia of every bite of jambu i ate after that >.< afternoon went to hoi an ancient town, didnt really get to see much la haha, went to tailor make formal pants to prep for work next year though. not cheap leh here, but probably because we went to a rather renowned shop. it had like 2 storeys and loads of sales assistants and stuff. the variety of cloth just for men (which are all in shades of black, navy, grey, brown) is astounding enough le, wait till u head over to the women's side where they offer cloth to make vietnamese traditional dresses. it's o-m-g. lol. after that took SUPER long before we found some decent restaurant to have our late lunch cum early dinner. mum, bro and sis had pho (not too bad haha), i had cao lau (some dried noodle thingy), dad had some chinese rice. louis vuitton handbags shared vietnamese fried spring rolls (those transparent rice paper wrapping kind) and shrimp on sugarcane. quite an interesting variety of rather authentic vietnamese food la haha, i would say. now im just waiting to try the vietnamese style sub! saw a couple of stalls, but when i really wanted to go buy and try out after the meal, all just suddenly vanish into thin air >.< what a disappointment. i hope i get to try it before we leave loh! and vietnamese coffee, loads of ppl telling me it's gd. well, see fate lol, see if i get to try these 2 things out over here.. looking forward to tml's day tour. though i think it'll be rather tiring loh, leaving here at 8am and coming back abt 11 hrs later. omigosh. prob need to turn in early tonight lol. hmm that's all i have for today i think, shall go fb a bit then better get off liao. im advised to use the comp for a max of 30min but im prob going to hog it like for 2 hrs lol. but aiya, no one using anyway, all making use of the free wi-fi here, which i'm like soooooo envious of ppl with laptops or PHONES THAT CAN ACCESS INTERNET right now. this is so motivating me to get my 7-11 bought 98 buck non-camera ns army phone out of the way and introduce something iphoney or blackberry-y. but sigh, the fact is i dont have it, so i'll have to make do with hogging the lobby computers for 2 hrs at one go lol. no privacy lehhhh. while my bro and sis can so totally lie on their beds in the aircon bungalow >.< enjoying eh. okok no use getting envious. my time will come =D

k la, signing off now, back again on leftmost computer (closest to alamanda restaurant), lobby of sandy beach resort, danang, vietnam tml!

2009-12-14T11:45:00.001+08:00

hmm, haven't blogged for a while. a month flew by, dec 12 flew by, and yes, i'm now a civillian once more. missed my pink ic sia. looks in such pristine condition compared to my 11b lol. to think that 2 sundays ago, i was still standing at the sentry box, doing guard duty >.< ahh, let's not go into that. well actually thanks to all the offs i've chalked up, i've been leading a rather civillian-y life, so to be truthful, i don't really find ord such a big deal. ok ppl who haven't ord are probably going to kill me for this, but ppl who have already ord-ed will probably agree with me. it's just moving on into the next phase of life, civillian-wise into the workforce and facing all the stress and workloads, or into uni life with lots of academic stuff to catch up and stress from exams and projects. oh let's try to put it in the military sense, i've finally finished with my two years, only to await 10 more years of reservist, ippts and RTs (omigosh), mobs etcetc. and the obligation to inform someone whenever i go overseas isn't exactly something that exudes freedom and release from ns right? okok i shan't go into that lol. chanel handbags still a fact is a fact, i'll prob never, or not going to step into keat hong camp for a long long time.. KUDOS to all mortar plt buddies who have gone thru the 1 yr 8-9mths with me. i had a great time having u all around =) thanks a lot for everything, that made my ns life less miserable. thinking abt this, i feel better already lol. though it's probably momentary bliss. life after ns is rather mapped out now, though with loads of uncertainties along the way. uh i'll probably stay in sg for uni le, considering that no scholarship providers want to offer me anything (so sad), so overseas is out of the question. going ahead with a ddp, hoping the workload wont kill me or something. will strive to work hard la i guess, but i really dont wish to have a no-life kind of uni life. that'll be damn sad, considering this is probably the last time i'm studying full-time before stepping into the workforce and leading an ultra mundane life from then onwards. at least lemme enjoy my last 4-5 years having some sort of fun and enjoyment before all the seriousness and maturity steps in yeah? work-wise, managed to get an internship with moe, and better still, going back to hwachong to intern haha. i think it's really nice of them to accept me as an intern, and back to my alma mater, so for that i'm really glad. although it's not exactly well-paying, considering i'll only get 7 wks worth of pay, subject to cpf contributions, and me being assigned to teach j1 chem (they are going to be like 3 yrs younger only >.<), i'm thinking it'll be a gd experience la, and i'll probably learn quite a lot from it, so i don't mind the little amt of pay that much. as long as there's a stable income, and my bank acc doesn't start decreasing at an alarming rate, or i end up seeing a big fat 0.00, i should be fine. =) going to be quite free till end jan, thinking of any last min or mega short term jobs to do in the 1+ mth i have. hopefully everything works out! if not, i'll just nuaaaaaa and do stuff which i've always wanted to ba, before the busy jc school term engulfs me lol. shall hope for more cookouts/baking sessions with justin, or basic piano lessons from dunjie (i wanna learn dango dango dango!) =) not forgetting the poor jap book that i've neglected for probably a month or so >.< (guilty guilty). ok la, i have to cut this short cos i meant to wake up early to blog but i overslept >.< in a while's time, heading to the airport liao. flying to vietnam! the land of pho (lol i feel so noob cos i dunno anything significant abt vietnam) back on fri, shall blog again and update abt it! =) my first holiday with ALL my family members since i dunno when liao. so quite looking forward to it. it's been a long time since it's all 5 of us haha. shall ask my bro and sis to take loads of photos to upload when i come back! lol.

hmm im such a weird person, wonder if i'm optimistic or pessimistic. sometimes i confuse myself. seriously.

ok till then!

2009-11-09T15:49:00.003+08:00

hmm haven't blogged in a while. well i've been meaning to, seeing at i'm at home for the past few days cos i'm on att c due to my swollen-ankle-worsened-to-foot-to-almost-leg-then-recovered-back-to-ankle-and-not-seeming-to-improve condition. ok i practically just summarised my condition in one line.

sigh just when i was starting to feel a bit happier at the fact that life seems getting a bit better. then have to be struck by this problem. docs also cant really determine the cause, just dismissing it as a skin infection. so stayed in alexandra hospital for 3 days under drip+antibiotics before being able to go home, on att c.

yeah yeah, i know i should be happy that i'm on att c, can no need go back camp and siam stuff etc, like guard duties. well, though in one way that is true, but i feel quite bad for activating the reserves and stuff. and who knows how many duties i'll have to make up after i come back? and i dont get to bid farewell to those ppl nov ord, and for some, what if we hardly meet again. it's kinda sad u know. i already feel it when ppl like foo tell me how he and the rest felt when the leopard ppl orded last fri. well though i wasn't there, but i can feel something still loh.

and i hate this condition now. ok la, im DEFINITELY not some health freak or what, as anyone can tell from my diet and my size, but i experienced the long period of building back up my fitness after my major illness with my blood platelets back in feb 08, so i understand how tough it is to catch up. plus my fitness isn't good at all to start with, and i absolutely detest exercises that strain my arms (mainly sparking from the fact i'm not a strong guy to start with, and my size la). knowing of future ippts coming up though my chances of passing them are slim and close to none, as well as wanting to tire myself out once in a while, i actually do like light jogging and swimming. i feel it gives me time to think abt stuff and listen to music and even relax in that sense (although the irony is there whereby i'm panting and sweating like crap).

but when u are down with a condition like this, there's nth of this sort u can do. just when i was beginning to gear up for some running around my house area on days off now that im taking more days off away from camp. so i'm like chanel handbags stuck with a swollen ankle and having difficulties walking, not to even mention jogging or running or doing anything strenuous, and seriously that sucks. feeling discomfort and even pain when just standing in front of the sink brushing ur teeth and washing ur face, sometimes i even resort to standing on my good foot.

so i'm desperately praying for it to go away soon. im not someone who wants to try every opportunity to chao keng, so though it seems good for me to take a break from camp and all the shit i gotta do in there, in some sense i wished i never had this, so i dont have to feel the guilt for other ppl doing my guard duty (like larence who had to do my wkend one, and hz who now needs to do the day before his ord),

the frustration that i cannot walk properly and having my fitness deteriorating by the day, just getting fat and useless,

the regret that i cannot see fellow platoonmates ord and say some last encouraging words to those who i might just not see again for a long long time, it's like i never got the chance to say goodbye properly,

the anxiety in what's lying in store for me after i go back, whether i can cope with the pt and if ill have to make up guard duties like siao, or will i not have a smoothsailing ord cos of various reasons,

the sense of dread that i havent got the chance to go for my driving lessons for like close to 3 wks, and how on earth am i going to get all my practising and confidence in time for my TP. and how badly i'm going to fare when i go back for my first lesson after such a loooong hiatus. it's seriously very worrisome now, and i'm oh so prepared to fail liao. it's probably a miracle if i pass now,

and the emo feeling that i always get when things like this happen. i don't like it when all ur plans just shatter like this. i seriously seriously hate it. now everything has to be replanned, and there are just some things that are different once changes are made. a broken vase can be mended again using superglue, but the cracks will forever be there. it is just like that. i dont like feeling useless. i want to do the things i want to do again, not be restricted by this stupid swollen ankle which just refuses to subside and hinder even my basic movement. that sucks totally you know.

argh, i guess i'm just feeling angsty. i dunno what i'm ranting anymore. life just likes to play tricks on you. i dunno how to get around it anymore.

as i'm typing, the heavy downpour outside my window is slowly subsiding into a drizzle. when will my ankle do the same? and will i ever get to see the clear sky again. even if i do, how soon?

2009-10-26T21:36:00.002+08:00

wow how time flies. i didn't even expect my blog to be kept in cold storage for close to a month. but though it may seem fast to me this way, the month itself didn't exactly pass by THAT slowly. nevertheless, i'm one month closer to end of the year, and that of cos means... o. r. d. lol.

the ord package has been quite depressing lol. totally took the ord mood out of me. having to hear abt the tons of things u need to do after u ord, makes ord seem so small in ur ns life after all. i still rmb those days in bmt, when all i did was to look forward to pop, and when the day finally arrived, u realised that 3 months has passed and there are 21 more to go. now is really similar, probably just worse. 2 years are going to pass, and there are 10 more to go. TEN CYCLES. ahhh sinking into depression liao.

life's getting a bit more low-key now during weekdays, albeit daily pt, vehicle maintainence, and ippt (urgh another one coming up this week). that's good, so i can spend more time on things that are important to me, and i've interest in, like learning jap and reading, even catching up with the rest of the platoon before the nov ppl all ord.

during weekends, other than the usual routine of driving lessons, it's quite a lot of going out, and spending hordes of money in the process. ok i may be exaggarating when i say i'm broke, until like penniless. but really, spending too much money, especially on food, which like goes into ur tummy then serve no other purpose liao. but even those stuff i buy like new berms, belt, bag, possibly shoes someday, also cost quite a bit. so all i need to do is probably to cut down on other expenses and try to console myself that this is all for a fresh start after ord. lol. even wensi agrees that it's a good excuse haha.

so being the spendthrift me, managed to get a weekend available at home, though quite boring, but at least i wasn't spending much. managed to get some stuff done, so thats good. but lots of stuff on-going, and some i haven't got to doing yet, so that'll prob take place next weekend ba. all these includes signing up for tutor-student matching sites, louis vuitton handbags as well as sending emails back to hwachong and asking if they require relief teachers. dunno where else to approach le... seeing how hc is doing well in his job, and how hz has been going to scheduled interviews one after another from thu to sat, it really serves as a good source of motivation. i feel quite determined not to just rot at home after being inspired by them haha.

dunno what came over me, mebbe it's the fear from the prospect of RT if i don't pass ippt after i ord. suddenly went to dig out my old running gear. ok it sounds like pro or wad, but it's just old school t-shirts and bball shorts (uh nope i dont play, it's just for sports usage), as well as running socks and my mega old sports shoes which i prob last wore back in j2. went to workout a bit this weekend, seeing that i haven't many appointments and was rotting at home anyways. hopefully this short-term burst of motivation will last and i can keep it sustained so i wont balloon back to some obese guy after i ord. if not 6 mths after i ord i'll prob fail 2.4km running lol.

next month's going to be a sad month, with all the nov guys ord-ing and the platoon will literally be halved. also, that means a crazy load of guard duty befalling upon the ptp and bp guys. and i seriously mean crazy. got 4 duties coming up waiting for me, 2 of which wkends, and 3 of them are consecutive, simply just alternating every other day. i dunno how big an impact that's going to weigh on me loh. confirm damn shagged for the whole 2 weeks de loh. hopefully can get to apply some off so that at least i can relax a bit after that crazy period. hmm, really hope that the platoon can still stay in touch after all the nov ppl ord, and i can still see them often enough. quite glad to meet up with hongchuan rather frequently, though i know that it's mostly due to hz's credit. with hz gone too by mid nov, i wonder if i'll still get to see them much... but then again, people always say army buddies you make during ns time will remain as ur buddies even after ord. i hope that'll come true =)

with hopefully more tuition assignments coming up, trying to keep up with my slight pt routine, maintaining communication with my school regarding the relief teaching, having to look for jobs in case my relief teaching hopes fall through, and perhaps, if i regain my confidence after this year's utter failure, to reapply for overseas unis and scholarships, on top of catching up with friends and getting new stuff (while deluding myself that this is all for a fresh start after ord lol), and more driving (oh how can i ever forget that >.<), i am going to have quite a fulfilling 2 months prior to my ord. which is a promising start to my civilian life i hope. i'm all ready for it! so please let me ord soon lol. *prays fervently for that day to arrive*

was quite glad to see sam and ryan last sun. went to have hi-tea buffet at thomson plaza, courtesy of remi to celebrate auntie ivy's bdae. haha quite happy to meet up with all his family members again, though uncle stanley wasn't around as he was sick. though we didn't meet for that long, going to play arcade and watch a movie after that (hurt locker), which wasn't much conversation and communication, still i could feel how comfortable we were with each other, and that assured me that our friendship was still strong after all, just overly long hiatus in between meetups. the last time we met, i still remember, was in aug on the day of ahm! that's like 2 months ago liao. well anyway, we were talking abt going for a trip sometime soon, and i sincerely hope it will realise.

talking abt trips, my family trip has shrunk to a 4 day trip instead of the originally planned 7-8 days since dad had insufficient leave left. initially felt a little disappointed, but then got over it le. so what if we are not going to travel very far or very long, as long as the whole family goes together, i'm sure it'll be fun. and yeah, got over the fact that i can't go for the 6d trip. ok it's not REALLY 100% confirmed yet, since the trip now is only 4 days and if the timings are just, i may just be able to make it for both! lol that will be the best case scenario la, though i won't dare to think so optimistically. now all i can do is to wait for my bro, who is helping to decide and book the family trip, to finalise all the details so i know if it clashes still with the 6d trip. and of cos i have to factor in if i do want to go for a trip so soon after coming back from one la. well all these hopefully gets decided by this wkend or something, or my chances of going to the 6d thailand trip will just diminish by the day, considering that there's so limited time left and i can't even decide to book air tickets.

i just hope everything will work out!! ord smoothly with minimal ippts and guard duties, find relief teaching job smoothly, if not some other stable desk job, get tuition assignments smoothly, having driving lessons and pass tp smoothly, get to go for both trips smoothly, and get to go on holiday with ryan and sam smoothly. so many things to handle, so little time. and incredible amounts of luck and opportunities and cooperation before everything can go on nicely. life's not all smooth-sailing i know, and i'm of cos just idealising when i wish for everything to go on perfectly.

but one can dream, can't he? =)

strangely feeling this ray of hope. i seldom get so optimistic lol.

must be finally having the ord-mood.

2009-09-27T21:30:00.003+08:00

hmm was having a pretty good wkend till things changed suddenly. so now feeling damn sian.

went shopping on fri and finally got the first pair of shorts/berms thats not elastic or oversized. gone are the obiang days le! ok la thats a bit kua zhang, not like i revamped my wardrobe or wad, it's only one pair. still, that's a good start lol. shall aim to get more if i don't look weird in them. my friend was shopping for shoes as well, and that let me to think of the shoe craze some platoon mates had just last week, imagine buying up to 2 pairs of shoes in 2 days! lol. but they look really good la, from pedro, aldo, everbest, beetlebug. all really chio. so that got me thinking if i should get a pair soon haha. i almost got tempted to buy on the spot already loh! but i stopped myself in time, and thus now though not 100 bucks poorer, am one chio pair of shoes lacking.

actually all these buying kinda made me think that, hmm the growing up phase has really arrived. the big two-zero is slowly catching up with me le (okok, i know of all the others who are already looking forward to their 21st bash, but hey, cant blame me for being born later ok? lol), and can see the ord-mood in all the nov batch ppl in my platoon. so all these new clothes, shoes, bags, belts, etcetc, kinda spells a lot abt how ppl are starting to prepare for post-ord life. as well as adult lifestyle, as gone are the days with tshirts and sneakers and cargo pants etc. and therefore i can't exactly fall behind, can i? so yup, planning to do a tiny makeover kinda thing after ord. but dunno if i got wad it takes lol. yes, namely speaking, a lot a lot of moolah.

will prob carry out this plan alone, or mebbe with just a few others keen on operation post-ord.

met with hanzong, bok and hongchuan (mr. koh for 2 wks lo!) arnd thomson area at night. haha havent met hc in quite a well, so had quite a good talk. bok and hz also quite my frequency de lol, so we wont be worried of running of things to say. covered quite a bit i would say, from life now, to life in the future and all. glad to see hc being happy in his new job, and admire him for his time management, planning to take up uni part-time and having to juggle with his now-permanent job, relationship issues, friends, personal upgrading and personal time etcetc. it's quite a remarkable feat i will say. thus shall aspire to work out a good plan and make gd use of my time like him! haha. ok the recent 2 posts making me sound like his fan. so had pretty good chicken rice at longhouse (shall go again), and choco drinks at cheeky chocolate. and sat in hz's van for the first time lol, not bad driving skills eh! haha. oh no, that makes me think of my own lousy driving... and my hopes of taking TP by end nov... okok shant think abt that now >.< sat was pre-ord bbq at yr's house! haha he's a good host man, kudos to him, satan, and all those who helped to get the food from imm and prepared them so that we can have a gd time. really hiong ah, i seriously never expected EVERYONE who stayed till the end to end up dripping wet lol. louis vuitton handbags all either kenna pulled in, pushed in, hug and jump in(kamikaze style), voluntarily enter etc. aiya all ways basically. so it was quite a crazy bbq i should think lol. but really fun! =) after the pool closed, some stayed back to do a bit of drinking. i was waiting for wing kevin they all, so i stayed back too. and i shall conclude, i cannot hold my liquor lol. after prob a couple of shots and sips + 1 cupful of the chivas-mixer, i kinda died. so grant had to bring me to walk around to sober up, and when it didnt work, bok had to follow me to the toilet so i could throw up lol. so paiseh la. but anyway thanks a lot to bok for helping me haha. and to the rest for asking if i was ok lol. hope i didnt make a fool of myself. thankfully i sobered up b4 leaving, so they didnt have to like drag me to my house or smth lol. but anyway, after reading hz's blog post on the bbq, cant help but agree with him, things have changed so much as compared to the last bbq we had last may, when the drivers first entered mortar platoon. we all didnt really know each other, so it was a super awkward bbq. looking back, so much has happened in the past 16 months. and im really glad for the company i have in this platoon. though i prob wont miss army life after i ord (like duh!), but close friends i've made in the platoon, it's something that i will never want to lose and will always miss. so shall continue to treasure the last 2 months, or for most of them, last month, with these awsome guys bah. must keep in contact after ord!! so was having a gd wkend until today, my mum suddenly say she not free on the 6th dec. so the family holiday we were planning cannot go on, cos my bro only free from the 3rd, and i ord on the 11th. so the very jsut nice timing from 3rd to abt 9th right b4 i ord holiday cannot go on as planned le. thus we prob have to push it to the following wk after i ord, which will clash with the 6d thailand trip!! ahh i feel so sad la, when everything is going so well, then something have to come and disturb the whole balance. argh i dont like have my plans changed. and if family and class clash, ill prob go for the family one, since it's been so long since our whole family went on holiday together. in fact, so long that i cannot rmb when was it le. when i was pri 3? >.< then ill prob miss out a lot of 6d fun. haizzzz. hope things will work out soon? ok damn late liao. im totally running late for book in. urgh, a whole 5day wk in camp. and non-stop acct throwing torture. later throw in some last min ippt again >.<

suddenly can't help but think of the song: SOMEBODY SAVEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEE!

life sucks.

2009-09-19T01:20:00.003+08:00

hmm, haven't been back here for abt 2 months. been meaning to update this blog with happy notes from my recent perth trip. it was really quite enjoyable, considering the fact that it's my first trip not with family or school, and done in a roadtrip style. meaning renting a car and travelling on our own, free and easy. and to add to the firsts, going with ruiyuan and his 2 camp mates, meaning 2 others that i only met for the first time at the airport before leaving for the trip. lol.

but shall leave that for another time bah. oh yeah, i will upload my photos to facebook soon. hopefully lol.

well, one big news in our platoon. hongchuan ord le. haha definitely happy for him, couldnt help but share in his joy in the last week he was around, all the way till he flashed his pink ic at us. and then he's prob not stepping into keat hong camp again le. now mr koh is prob enjoying his civilian life out there, while the rest of us continue to slog it out in camp and lead the normal mundane life we have been leading.

that's where the problem comes in. with someone in the platoon ord-ing, one will tend to wonder about his future plans and prospects. and that's when thoughts abt your own future start to flood your head. although my ord isn't exactly in sight, considering i'm ptp batch, but cross-referring to hongchuan's plans, as well as various others in the platoon, esp the nov ord personnel, i can't help but start worrying about my future. school isn't for another 8 months after ord, and i dont even know i still have any more shots at going overseas. but i'll still try la.

meanwhile, i'm not going to rot at home, am i? i'll prob have to find something. probably everyone else thinks like this. but do what? hah, i'll be surprised if no one ponders abt that. for me, i know myself, i'm more suited for desk bound jobs cos i'm the more passive kind. but should i stick to my comfort zone, or should i take this opportunity to broaden my experiences and try out something more challenging? confused and clueless about this. been wanting to do relief teaching for these few months prob since i enlisted bah. but now that the time has come to realise this "wish" of sorts, i suddenly come to think that i'm lost. seeing ppl like foo and hz, having established good ties with teachers in the past schools they have studied, now facing much less of a problem than me, louis vuitton handbags who cannot do anything like approaching past school teachers and hoping they can help to get me a spot. for years, i was just the average student, existing under the radar, not outstanding at all to make teachers notice me, yet not getting into too much trouble to make teachers remember me as well. i'm just this forgettable student that all my teachers probably forgot they had the year after they taught me. so seriously, how high are my chances of clinching a teaching job for the bulk of this post-ord period? i seriously dunno.

then sometime this week, happened to chance upon a convo foo was making with wing abt another possible job offer at de coder's cafe. it struck me as a really good opportunity as i felt i could develop a passion in it, and it's a job that not only focuses on work, but some play too. most importantly, i thought it was the ideal job for me to explore out of my comfort zone, while not being overly challenging as some commission-based salesperson job at some gigantic electronic store or something. i'll prob just shrivel up and die in such jobs. after tonight's "interview" of sorts, felt more convicted it was quite a good job in terms of job experience, but started to worry abt whether i could cope with a full time job (really hopefully teaching), and this as a part time. ok la, this may sound like i'm super desperate for income (which i wont deny i'm not, just not THAT desperate), but what i probably have in mind is to fully utilise my time and gain as much experience i can get, in a couple of different working environments. it's also a test of my time management i guess.

ahh then there comes this problem of having probably no life lol. ok theoretically speaking, there is a way after precise calculation to have quite some time to hang out with friends and all. but im not sure by then, mentally, after taking up hopefully both jobs, ill still be able to have the energy to go out or anything. so this is one thing's thats been a little troubling, cos i wont want to give up either job opportunity.

so it's like there are still 3 months more to ord (damn long!), and there's so much to worry abt the future already. actually like wad bok said, sometimes leading a very mundane routine life in ns, albeit full of last minute stunts due to extreme inefficiency, may not be that bad after all, cos ultimately i guess u still can push all the blame and complain all u want abt the routine. however, when ur post-ord life screws up, there's nothing else to blame le. u now take full control of ur life, after being bossed around and under command for the past 2 years. it's a really strange feeling, u know, having to take back ur life and take charge of it solely upon the collection of ur pink ic. that's what hongchuan did and i'm really glad to see that he's done really ample preparation, with instant job offers upon ord, and uni all worked out for him le.

i wish i was half as well planned as him and a couple of others in the platoon. but well, at least it works as some motivation, and i feel inspired to try and clear the influx of thoughts and worries clouding my head, and hoping to arrive at a feasible and most beneficial solution to my life after ord.

argh i hate this feeling. lost and clueless, aimlessly wandering about. i just hope this only occurs in my head and not come to reality next year.

driving is another major headache. on top of my mega slow progress leading to lots more lessons (aka more money), it means that i have to spend even more money to renew my pdl and membership, and even even more if i have take a break of sorts in dec if i were to go on holiday with my family, and possible 6d also. it's also not helping that slots i want are never available, or they are only available at the very inappropriate timings. it seriously sucks to face this dilemma. and i havent even begun to worry abt whether im proficient enough or my skills are good enough to pass the test YET.

social circle wise, also not doing fantastically either. though it's good that through the trip, got to know sihan and kheng ming, 2 new friends, and having relatively frequent class and platoon outings for the past couple of wkends, and a nice touch to meet some tanbo peeps for a movie last sun, haven't really seen ryan and samuel for some time. guess it's always this clash of schedules that makes it real hard for meetups, and medicine is forever busy i suppose. felt quite bad that couldnt celebrate sam's bdae on the actual day, and finding it hard to find a day to actually do so. also havent met junzhi for some time cos of the trip, wonder if the studying's going ok. i also dunno if this sun can end up meeting, cos got some last minute family stuff. thinking about all these makes me can't help but ponder abt the previous thought, how much am i missing out on catching up with my friends if i take up jobs to fully occupy my time? it's this balance thats important and at the same hard so hard to grasp, and i'm scratching my head till it's bleeding over this issue.

ok la, i'm probably trying to squeeze too much into the 24 hours i have each day. call me ambitious or what, but all i'm trying to do is just to ensure i dont waste my life away loh. i really dont like the feeling of stoning at home the whole day from day to night, only to realise at night that nothing's been accomplished the whole day, except mebbe a few more episodes of drama watched, a few more quizzes done on facebook, a few more blog entries read, and tv or gaming galore the whole day. it's just not my kind of life i guess.

argh dunno why im feeling so stressed up over this lah. it's just a bit overwhelming and im having a little difficulty coping with all the possible prospects when there's still 3 months more to go (super long lahhhhh urgh). i think it's just the mentality that i only got this 8 months once, and i should not just let it go to waste, cos many things can be done in this period of time.

at a loss now. hope it will all clear up soon.

anyway, here's a song i heard recently. been on a eng song spree ever since the perth trip cos most of the songs during the trip were played from kheng ming's ipod plugged into the car. which are mainly quite nice songs from daughtry, jason mraz, lady gaga etcetc.

Green Day - 21 Guns

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

2009-07-15T19:59:00.003+08:00

ok i'm feeling guilty here. cos i'm totally blogging in the spur of the moment, or wad one will call random urge, and i probably ignored this blog for like say, more than 3 months? but well in any case, gotta say hey again blog. i guess everyone else probably forgotten abt you, me included. say, the last time i came to my on blog was a couple of weeks ago i would say?

*guilt written all over my face*

hmm dunno why, just suddenly felt like coming to my blog right in the middle of my show watching session (that's been going on like for the whole day lol. and im not even taking a break, i just paused ep12 at 11:24 to type all this). all in all, i wouldnt say i'm exactly having an extremely terrible time with my life (which is usually the reason why i blog here anyway), with stuff occupying my wkends, from ndp (oh wow how fun >.<), to study sessions with junzhi (actually more of him studying, im more of there to uh, learn extra stuff and kill time haha), to outings with platoonmates (looks like we've got 2 more buffets to go to, chanel handbags this is so killing my diet plan - ok im kidding i dont even have one, which is terrible), to class gatherings (how can i ever forget these guys =D), and hopefully another meeting with sam and ryan despite their busy schedules. but well, somehow just suddenly i feel this sense of emptiness in me, and i'm not really sure why. ok mebbe im not like the worst-off man on earth now or something, and if you want me to pin-point anything in particular that's bothering me, i can't really put a finger to it. it's just this... overall feeling. nah nvm, i think it'll probably blow over soon? haven't listened to any new songs for a really long time ever since my mp3 spoilt and my radio went along with it. got a new mp3 now, but still no radio (yes i know im just too damn lazy to make an effort to >.<), but recently went to listen abit and this song just got me looping it over and over. i have no idea why though haha, like the lyrics but they do not apply to me. at all. funny huh.

曹格 - 寂寞先生

你的笑容是恩惠　世界难得那麽美
於是追要你陪　
可惜本能终会将美丽汗水化成泪水

黑夜之所以会黑　叫醒人心里的鬼
在游说在萦回　
在体内是什麽在把我摧毁在伤痕累累

我可以无所谓　寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废　
做什麽都不对　Oh … I'm not okay

我假装无所谓　才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废　
就会越多安慰　无论多虚伪

空虚并非是词汇　能够形容的魔鬼
它支配着行为　
能摆脱寂寞我什麽都肯给　就像个傀儡

我可以无所谓　寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废　
做什麽都不对　Oh … I'm not okay

我假装无所谓　才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废　
就会越多安慰~~

我要无所谓　无所谓
我要无所谓~~
人在爱情里越残废　
就会越多安慰 (就会越多安慰)
无论多虚伪

perhaps the title does apply, just a little bit?

aiya i dunno wad's coming over me today. i dont even know who comes this blog anymore. i doubt many, since even i seldom come here anymore. but oh wells, it's mainly for my eyes only. people dont really have to know what i'm feeling. not that i'm doing a particular good job of describing it at all, seeing that i don't even understand it myself.

feeling empty and lonely huh.
i think i'm just being an emokid for tonight.

2009-04-06T19:57:00.003+08:00

ok i am totally freaking out.

although atec is over (oh gosh that feels like quite long ago), things following that seem to be stressing me out non-stop. in particular non-army related stuff.

done my applications for scholarships and universities very last min. now i suppose is just to wait for their reply, but for applications like nus, i kinda submitted too late. so now my document status is NOT RECEIVED. i dunno is till now still haven't receive or they just rejected the document cos it's probably overdue (i only submitted the document last min, so i dunno if it reached them by 1 april). so now, omg! do i have to wait till next yr or smth? omgomgomg. freakking out.

next, driving. it's been eonsssss and yet the online booking facility still appears to me, all slots have been taken. oh pls, for april + may + june? that makes it a totally of like 91 days. and 8 sessions per day. ok even if u take away some for public hols and sundays. that still leaves u with plenty of slots k! but the slots are not available. nope. none. na-da. NIL. at this rate, what if by the end of the year still no chance? means my membership will expire and ill prob have to apply again to renew, add that cost to a renewal of a PDL... it can amount up to 3 digits la. wth.

as if practical sessions aren't freaking me out with their non-availability, now im freaking out with the FTT being too early. booking it at the end of mth now seems way way too early (considering i can't book a single lesson for uh.. 91 days?). then with the stupid evaluation requirement, somemore must at least 14 days b4. which means i gotta pass it by this wkend. OH GOSH. and i haven't even read finish the book once yet. like seriously. do i have any reason NOT to freak out??

regarding scholarships and unis. i've already been shot down by one, and prob nus too, seeing that my status does not look optimistic (not received). now what if i get one without the other... the most stressful one would prob have to be overseas uni without a scholarship.louis vuitton handbags cos ill prob not be able to afford, and im going to give it up just like that? also local uni with single degree. i mean thats pretty fine with me, just that will i still get the chance and choice to take up the 2nd one if i dont get it this time? what if somehow my uni life doesnt allow me to do so? or horrible results? so im going to be condemned never to try out that curriculum again? aiya i dunno la >.<

with driving so screwed up, i can't concentrate on learning any other things also. been meaning to pick up a skill for ages, decided to go ahead with driving since i guess it's more practical than other stuff like, languages and music and such. so now im neither here or there. it's kinda back to the all along dilemma of not achieving anything in these 2 yrs. arghhhh. ill really hate myself if i end up not doing anything. 9 mths to go... should i be happy cos it's going to be over (ok this is like quite duh, who wouldnt be?), or do i only have 9 mths left to put up this facade, this excuse, this lie, this front to hide that actually i can't do anything proper with my life meaningfully. that after that ill probably move on to waste my 8 mths prior to uni as well, just like that.

you know what? i think i might really be right.

dammit.

2009-03-01T21:45:00.001+08:00

guess my posts run on a rather monthly basis haha. prob guess to the emo mood prior to every major outfield that make me want to blog. some kind of wanting to leave my last word before i head for hell i guess. >.< well this month has been crazy as usual, with one weekend of not being able to book out due to certain reasons. and guess wad, next week it's going to happen again, being stuck in camp right after horrible outfield. i keep trying to assure myself it's going to be the last leg le, just survive thru it and life will get better. but that doesn't stop me from thinking how horrible it will be, especially with the danger that i'll be attached to other coys to be their drivers if ps doesnt manage to save me... dreading it. even if i get to stay with the platoon, also dunno what i'll be doing. this is seriously one of the worst things i hate abt army, the uncertainty and just throwing you around like some taiji ball just cos you're a spare. oh please loh, i do have a platoon to belong to, so i should think i have the right to stay with them, where i belong ok? so stop pushing me around until im like this homeless soul can? if like that, might as well recreate the drivers to be isolated from any platoon and only draw drivers when exercises call for it. ok im just ranting on, of cos i wont want to leave the platoon to be isolated into some driver coy. the next week looms ahead with all forms of uncertainty... talking abt uncertainty, it's definitely the case for non-army stuff as well. namely my civilian life. or more aptly, my actual life. i have been dawdling for too long, and now the time has come for me to pick up myself (as in really pulling myself away from all the things i'm finding just to avoid all the impt stuff, like playing reflexive arcade games, watching movies, going out, reading twilight saga (and shopaholic series after that), listening to songs on youtube, and even using ber's psp to play pokemon emerald in camp). argh i feel horrible, like i'm seriously addicted into this slack mood when in camp. what happened to insisting on not buying psp cos i want to make time more productive? so feel kinda guilty =(. better get work done on EduGrain and EduDelta soon, if not will kenna killed by kg. and i would want to kill myself too. scholarship and uni applications are already around for god knows how long but i was just too indulgent into all the useless stuff that i couldnt bring myself to take a good look at them and understand how tight schedules are running. when i heard ry is already in the process of midway thru all those essays, my heart just twinged with guilt, and loads of fear for the fact that i may just miss it this year. with no thanks to my own procrastination. damn im starting to freak out. louis vuitton handbags hope this confession-realisation will spur me to really get it started the next opportunity i get, which is so far away! (with no thanks to ns, which really know how to choose the perfect timing to confine me for the weekend. oh. my. god.) and driving! have been trying for ages to book a slot for FTT, but sat slots just refuse to come. i'm getting so irritated. but heck abt it first bah, once all these outfields are over i'm going to get started with practical lessons liao. i have dragged it for long enough, trying to find a sat slot. ppl like han zong and kevin who applied after me are all chionging and here i am taking my time la. sorry i seriously dunno what i have been doing all this while. all i know is if i don't get moving soon, i'm going to be in so deep trouble. so many things, so little time. and all i do is just to idle my time away. argh i hate myself =(. someone gimme a whack on the head or something to wake up to my senses. i'm just kidding abt the last part. so this weekend shall be my last enjoyable weekend before next week when all hell breaks loose. had quite a lot of fun on fri at justin's house with most of the other specs. munched on good food (justin's really a super good cook. mega talented sia. had beef burgers (which i didnt eat of cos), roast chix, mashed potato, coleslaw, bacon, stir-fried shitake mushrooms etcetc), baked fun stuff (chocolate caramel almond shortcake! and yong biao's chocalate coated lemon cookies, didnt get to try it though haha) and admired great art pieces (all the art works hung around the house are all damn cool! mostly made by him). after that met platoon guys at amk hub to catch he's just not that into you. i quite liked the movie for the comedy elements and yeah, i guess some can pick some funny lessons from the show =) but some may find it lacking in substance i would think. so i would say it's a... if u like it u like, and if u dont u dont, kind of movie. arcade was not bad, they got jubeat there =) and haven't played the new bishi bashi for quite some time. so yeah fun =) dinner was at chomp chomp where we turned into gourmets by testing out different stall hokkien mee and chicken wings lol, and then lastly followed by kt's house for mahjong and wii adventures! haha attendance rate was kinda good, hanzong wing kevin ber weihong joshua bok jeremy larence satan foo. was planning to go home after that, but foo asked if anyone wants to stayover, so i was thinking why not hang out around some more since it's the last weekend to have fun prior to next wk's hell. haha ended up me foo and bok went. didnt do really much, cos i was kinda tired from going out the whole day. bok and foo too i guess. so most of the activities happened on sat morning when he brought us to eat good vegetarian food at hougang. wah really very nice sia, must ask him to bring us there again soon. ate roti prata, bee hoon with dishes, and we even shared a mega mock big pao. it's really damn big sia haha. went causeway point after that to hang around (cos foo had some stuff to do there), so money flowed out of my pocket again to arcade gaming, following by a little book shopping at the harris book sale at the atrium. bought the sequel to he's just not that into you, it's called a breakup because it's broken lol. shall try to find the first book when i next book out bah. at night went airport to send yushan off. peishan wensi pengsing kg kevin puayhian yida ruiyuan dj yongxian me went haha. haven't been to airport for sometime since we last sent cheejia off (which she came back during new year and left again le. so it's been pretty long lol.) it's still quite a nice and quiet place i guess haha, quite cool to chill out, if only it wasnt so farrrrrr. (all the way at changi omg.) ate at popeyes (the queue is imba la, but the food is quite good, esp the sides, fries and mashed potato, dunno abt the coleslaw) at T1, before moving to T3 to send yushan. haven't seen the class for some time, close to a month i guess. wont be seeing them next wk either, so prob a fortnight later i suppose.. ok i can't wait for that day to come, mainly cos it means next wk's hell will be over!! urgh, im still seriously affected by next wk's uncertainty. prob the only thing im certain abt next week is that im going to be miserable. oh sooooo miserable >.< sighs... ok i've typed quite a long post and my parents have been bugging me to go bathe since like an hour ago. ok i better go, hope for the best next week and i must promise myself i will do something abt all the stuff i've neglected the next time i book out!!! ARGH I HATE MYSELF FOR PROCRASTINATING AND SLACKING.

2009-02-01T15:43:00.008+08:00

actually, i'm totally running out of time, so i also dunno why i'm blogging >.< but i guess insanity gets the better of you sometimes. took quite some time to work on the EduGrain thingy for EduDelta project, so with what little time left i gotta pack my bag, bathe, scruff down some dinner and chiong to supermarket to get some food before book in at about 6. oh wow how much time i have. ok a brief post then. CNY was rather normal for mon and tue, just like any other year. but got 2 new red packets this year! one from sam's sis rach and another from my uncle roger haha, who only got married in early jan (which is before ftx 1. omg i dont wanna get reminded of ftx 2. but it's inevitable =.=) wed went top one ktv under foo's recommendation with dinghong weiduo wing jeremy foo hanzong. wow really not bad for the price, just that there's no remote and the drinks taste weird. but that price for 7 hours, who care abt all these stuff lol. so had a rather good time. everyone else being as imba as usual, esp weiduo whom i heard for the first time lol. as good as listening to the A/D turned on lahhhh. seriously. fri after bookout went ph's house for 6d steamboat dinner! haven't seen them in a while i should think, abt 3 wks, so it's kinda nice to see everyone again haha. not to mention good food kindly by ph, and also great hospitality lol. as usual, pix kindly by ruiyuan on facebook haha. sat was the long-planned mortar drivers tuan bai! went wing's house and saw loads of wing's toddler photos haha. didnt know he got so many medals one loh! then on to my house, which is as usual nth, then joshua. wah the laksa his maid good is damn good la. and the interesting cookies which i hardly ever eaten, from durian to rose to champagne grape. kinda cool. lastly went kt's house which is well, louis vuitton handbags full of entertainment i must say haha. we got the mahjong party of jeremy foo kahjoon weihong who like played for the whole duration we were there except the yong tau foo steamboat dinner lol. then there's the wii gang, aka me wing hanzong joshua who played on the wii for pretty long too lol. guitar hero followed by ddr. wah really damn fun haha. lastly for the wow team which is pretty much kt and... kt. lol. but it looks like quite a cool game haha. though i prob wont ever have so much time to put in the effort to go play. not any mmorpgs when im still in ns at least. no time ma. so well, had quite a good week/weekend la. but next week. ftx2. uber duper sian. 4days 3nights somemore. dunno how to survive sia. just hoping for the best loh >.< zzz. wish me luck, seriously. this totally sucks.

ok gotta chiong liao. hope to be back in one piece next wkend.. ciaos.

2009-01-24T11:55:00.003+08:00

hey guys. haven't updated for a long time haha. well mainly cos army life has been crazy, with exercises, route march, combat shoot and blahs. really a crazy month.

but im glad i survived all of that and yes, it's the first day of the (rather) long CNY break! and wad worse to start that off by falling sick! urgh. that totally sucks la. yes, i found myself feeling light-headed on thu night and after popping 2 panadol cold relief and sleeping, by fri mid-morning i was feeling sick again. ate another 2 and resting didnt help that much, cos i was compelled to at another 2 abt 4 (just prior to book out wad the hell). thankfully im feeling much better and hopefully i can enjoy the rest of CNY properly! cant bear the thought of falling sick right DURING cny. better before than during.

even all the radio stations are saying it. i think the recent weirdo weather of being very sunny and hot in the day and super cold at night and especially for ns ppl (i dont mean those good life ones that get to role call at 7.30 or something), waking up at 5+ 6+ is totally freezing la. even my bunk fans are now mostly tuned to run at a lower speed, abt 3 instead of the usual 5. this is the main cause of all the flu, cough, fever and sore throat thats spreading the platoon right now. and i suppose it's the case elsewhere. hope this bad bout of weather will pass by soon and everyone will return to healthy states.

CNY usually comes with shopping for new year clothes haha. ok la, i got myself a few new pieces of clothes (esp like the fact that im buying smaller size jeans lolx), and the process is kinda fun too. chanel handbags albeit ending up with sore and tired feet (i think guys are seriously not cut out for shopping), window shopping and looking at all the nice clothes that is out of ur budget is also not bad, cos trying them on is free wad haha.

ok im rattling on and on. here's wishing everyone a very happy chinese 'niu' year in advance! and have a good year ahead ppl. =D

2008-12-22T21:03:00.003+08:00

haha, first things first, wanna thank EVERYONE who wished me happy birthday in one way or another! regardless whether in person, over phone, over msn, over sms, or on facebook! haha really happy that so many ppl remembered =D

had a really great weekend haha. on sat went 06s6d class xmas party at yushan's house. haven't seen some ppl for really long! so was quite glad that i went, managed to meet up with them haha. food was great (im going to miss the pasta) and the gift exchange was good too! special thx to wensi and peishan for the xmas cards, and yongxian for the cupcakes! =D

and of cos, loads of thanks to the class for my bdae present! i really like the reason wenjie gave me for buying it haha =) made me have the rofl expression lol. i shall use it soon! (once i get to settle down at home and spend time doing the necessary wiring haha) and im serious when the present first appeared, i thought it was for yushan's family haha, so it came as quite a pleasant surprise at midnight lols.

and sun, loads of thanks to sam and ryan for that. i hinted for something different to do outside eating out and movie and very urban activities, and they seriously brought me away from all that, to a day spent at pulau ubin!! haha that's seriously something out of the ordinary. felt refreshing haha. and haven't cycled for real long (though i still can't do it, it's so freaking hard), chanel handbags feeling a pain in my ass now lol. maybe can ask the class to go in future, it's really a nice place to spend the day haha (as long as the weather is clear, that is. it was getting dark and drizzled a little when we first got there, but thankfully the weather turned out okay in the end! whew).

liked the picnicing at the shore too haha. munching on kuehs and bread, with self-brought drinks, cold due to the ice bought at the stalls there lol. it's a pretty nice feeling =) hope i can go there again sometime soon!

dinner at east coast was great too haha. haven't eaten till so bloated for quite a long time. and the food was really good! i would say, worth the money, though a little high-priced. but then again, birthdays come once a year, so i would say it's a worthy investment :D got to eat my chilli crab with fried buns! shiokkk.

last but not least, it's really a nice present u all got for me. very interesting! like it a lot haha. thanks so much for that too. hope u all didnt spend too much time on getting it. it's a great present though!

THANKS A MILLION ONCE MORE TO EVERYONE WHO MADE MY DAY! i think i really had a happy 19th. well, 363 days more to go till i'm 20! i know for some it's less than 30 wahaha. old liao :P

2008-12-07T11:44:00.001+08:00

sometimes, when you suddenly run out of people to go out with, where everyone's not free in one way or another, that's when you realise perhaps you may not have many friends after all.

perhaps it's time to go reflecting about life. probably haven't got the chance to do that in ages.

ah life.

2008-11-30T17:15:00.003+08:00

wah this blog is almost dead lol. but relax, i do come every weekend to check out the tagboard, though my tagboard is as good as dead as well haha. probably no one comes visiting anymore hehe. ah wells, my fault for having too little posts bah..

atec stage 1 is finally over, and personally i'm really happy with my platoon's results =). good job guys, you all did great. life after atec has been a lot of vehicle fault inspection and fault repairing. looks like break track season is here again, since the new tracks have arrived. argh, say goodbye to my quiet nights after dinner and RO bah. prepare to chiong till 11pm le >.<

and of course, how can i forget the weekly RT. really glad for most of the platoon actually, a lot of people clear already. now it's down to just a couple of us. me included la of cos. but nvm la, i'm already used to it, just treat it as keeping fit during weekends loh. so can gimme an excuse to go splurging for the rest of the weekend lol. esp spend super lot on food.. each meal is like always 10+ to 20 bucks. argh, heart pain.

these 2 weeks especially, been spending money like crazy. need to starve myself or something next week le, and pray for my dec allowance to come as soon as possible. last sat went out with sam and ryan and ate at serenity in vivo. pretty nice quiet place i think, and ryan says he'll probably come again. i also thought the food and view was worth the money haha. followed by my first ever movie in cinema europa. rabbit without ears. chanel handbags it's fully german with english subs! haha an interesting experience for me cos i never watch such "exotic" movies before loh. at most the foreign films i catch are probably jap and korean? or at most thai. but this is definitely a first haha. and i must say it's not bad, cos it's nice to see some different uniqueness in different acting styles of actors and actresses across the globe, and for this case, germans. realised they love to point middle fingers haha. oh well maybe because it's an m18 show lol..

lots of new shows coming up~! personally one that i wont want to miss is cape no. 7, which caught my attention ever since i heard abt the good reviews that it's one of the best taiwan movies to have expanded overseas, and it's creating a box office phenomena in taiwan. looking forward to it =)

been trying to find new clothes recently, inspired by jeremy from my platoon. cos the large clothes im used to wearing are apparently now too big for me to wear, and still makes me look big-sized and fat (ok i know im still fat, still, one can hope, can't he?), so it's time to downsize to something more fitting. yes you heard right ruiyuan haha, i dunno why u sounded so excited last night when i told you abt it at central manhattan haha. got a couple of t-shirts which i've so bu-yao-lian and spent so long in the fitting room to decide whether it looks too tight (which is totally bad, cos i've got no figure for that lol). now i think what will be ideal would be to get a pair of new jeans that i like and is fitting, and hopefully a button shirt (short of long sleeve i don't mind) so that i can vary my clothes haha. ok all these descriptions are getting a little over, i shall stop it at that. guess i can't mask my excitement yeah? but shopping is really damn painful on the wallet...

looking forward to the end of next month, cos class christmas party will be coming up on the 20th, where can meet up with 6d again, esp those back from overseas like yushan and cheejia! and our long awaited ndp off will be during the christmas week, which will make it a long break! woohoo looking forward to it haha. and of cos another special occasion, which i shan't mention here. though i got nothing planned for that lah. it's just, inevitable i'll feel happy that it's a good indication that one year is over! i'm halfway through.. =) though ord is still AGESSSSS away..

now ive done enough digressing, it's probably time to go back to my personal statement, which i've dragged and dragged for close to 2 months le. sigh, talk abt procrastination..

2008-10-12T20:15:00.004+08:00

heyo, haven't updated for ages. have been having really short weekends due to introduction of RT (remedial training) on sat mornings. so end up only being able to book out on sat late morning. but ah wells, since i can't pass soc, i have no one to blame other than myself lol. will just have to keep trying and improving bah.

the past month was well, alright i guess. cheejia is now in uk, and deren's come and gone after staying one week herein the midst of his holidays. but ah wells, will get to see all of them again come dec =) looking forward to a good 6d reunion gathering for either christmas/new year party haha.

next mth will be quite xiong with rt every sat as usual, and soc test every fri to clear as many ppl as possible. furthermore, lots of outfield and (i pray very hard not) field camps to prep for stage 1 in nov. very xiong 2 months to come indeed.

btw, got to see my leave remaining cos they printed out for the platoon. i only left 0.5 days! omg la, my bmt coy really swiped away the entire block leave as leave. not even a single day of off. or even half =.= 7.5 days gone just like that. with one march block leave. while the max i saw, some ppl in other coys have up to 4 days more than me. FOUR days leh. talk abt fairness..

been trying to sort out my life recently. seeing how other ppl are making gd use of their time, with driving lessons, learning instruments, learning other languages, tutoring others, preparing for overseas applications and scholarship applications, i cant help but feel im wasting my time. but since stage 1 is coming up, i also don't have ample time for all of these.

after discussing with my friends, i guess the best solution currently is to have no choice but to continue leading such a life first, and when there is more time after the busy period, then start thinking of some constructive things to do. and they are quite right to say that i already have such a short weekend now with staying in and rt, so just enjoy the weekend loh. louis vuitton handbags well true la, but sometimes i just can't help but feel envious of those who are doing stuff that will have a positive impact on their lives after ns, with proficiency in other languages and skills in instruments, driving license, pocket money from tution, places in overseas universities, and holders of scholarships.

ah wells. ill just try to do what i can la. meanwhile, have been really tempted to purchase a psp cos of some really fun games (like dj max!! and puzzle quest looks good too. currently the 2 hottest games in the platoon lol). but im just afraid that my 2 years will just pass with the possession of psp and games, and i will have nothing of any constructive use to my life after ns. yet every other week, ill be so tempted that i actually got to the stage of asking around for prices and where to purchase psp at value rates. then come some weeks, i will think once i buy it my 2 years will be gone for good, cos im really rather addicted to dj max (keep borrowing jeremy's psp to play, really sorry to him abt that lol. cos it's so addictive la. and fun =D), and i will dissuade myself from actually buying it. facing a dilemma.. argh.

what should i do with my life now? one year is going to pass soon (fast in this aspect, but still so freaking long to ord >.<), and for the past 10 months, haven't done anything of much use to my future life at all. so should i just let my 2 years pass by like that, gaming and enjoying and just not care abt civilian life afterwards? or is it time to do something abt any free time i can get, and go pick up some skills?

confused. someone enlighten me?

2008-09-07T20:47:00.003+08:00

good times fly. im serious. this long anticipated block leave that i've been yearning for ever since i returned to keat hong from AI in khatib. been to hong kong, and back. and now it's time to book in again. sigh how depressing.

alright lemme try to throw this SUPER UNHAPPY thought out of my mind for a while.

hmm let's begin with maf. maf was really fun last night.

got to see many teachers, and of cos, my beloved 6d =) seniors, classmates, juniors alike. it's really like this super cool school reunion thing from across batches. i actually saw a couple pushing along a baby tram! talk abt the ties ppl have for their school. also getting to hear the school songs and seeing everyone again was really great haha. it makes me really miss school lol. and i mean really really miss it.

ytd was sam's bdae. haha my best friend of all time. funny to think of it, it's been 6 years we've known each other, which is not altogether an extremely long time, compared to those who have friends they've known since like childhood. yet there's this something that got us to get to know each other better, and build up the friendship to what it is today. fated. it's really amazing haha. i dunno how else to describe it.

so although this year's celebration was kinda simple, cos there wasn't any elaborate planning to anything fanciful or wad, just a simple impromptu dinner on fri night, chanel handbags and a simple gift, but somehow i felt that this yr's celebration, without all the big gifts and big parties, felt extra emotional. i mean it's not like it's 18 or 21, usually some numbers that people find more special, but it just feels exceptional this year haha.

was kinda sad that i didnt manage to prepare a cake for him, but haha ryan saved the day by baking sam one himself. now i think that's a really great present haha. so anyway, here's wishing sam a very happy belated bdae =)

haha realised i havent updated abt hk yet. well all in all it was a gd trip, albeit too short. and i mean really short haha. still i enjoyed myself =) got to meet up with wing! haha, so that's pretty cool. hmm alright once i get the photos organised, and i got the time next wkend, then ill update abt hk =).

2008-08-31T21:33:00.002+08:00

ok i know this blog is as good as dead haha. really sorry, been lazy to update la. and busy with stuff like ndp, attachment to AI, and now back in keat hong, having just survived an infantry fieldcamp (or not so much as a fieldcamp, since ultimately we were able to return back to camp).

but the key thing is, block leave is here! yup. clearing leave till next sun. so, ive planned a trip with my parents to hk for 4 days haha. leaving tml and back on thu. first time to hk despite it being so near haha. hopefully it'll be loads of fun! =) han zong's going along as well haha. hope can get to meet wing chung there, since he's there to visit relatives lol.

yup, so will be back from hk in 4 days time, hopefully with pictures and loads of good memories to share! ill try to revive my blog with that haha. but for now, ciaoz!

2008-07-06T20:22:00.003+08:00

haven't been updating for some time, cos been quite busy with army stuff... then this month is going to be super xiong, bracing myself for it..

ytd went with sam to watch a concert by his dad's church, and missed the class outing to celebrate yushan's return from aussie. haha so i was thinking i wont be able to meet her this time round that she's back from sg, cos my saturdays are almost 100% gone le. (double sighs...) but so qiao, actually met her and yongxian on the mrt from orchard to city hall! talk abt coincidence lol. i mean, it's not like we passed by each other, but the carriage i was on stopped right in front of the gate they were waiting at. haha, maybe i was fated to see her return from australia despite not being able to go for the outing =) so ok la, dont have so many regrets.

anyway abt the concert, i thought it was really nice despite it having a christian theme. the main performer was andre de villiers from south africa who came to share his music as well as his new found life due to his relationship with god. and the songs he sang were really good, louis vuitton handbags so good that i actually went to buy his album available for sale at the exit after the concert =) the faith revival band that performed also sang pretty nice christian songs haha. concert entitled "encounter with love", hmm i think it was a really enjoyable evening..

this month's gonna be really tough, i dunno how i am going to handle it.. furthermore, with ndp coming up, my sats are all going to be lost, so i really have no idea how much of a weekend i have now. book out on sat night and back in on sun night? really really short. argh. i have to hope for the best that i can enjoy my weekends properly ba. if not ill probably go crazy staying in camp for so long =.=

yup july awaits. month of horror. im afraid of it, yet i wish for it to go by as soon as possible. so to hope that it doesn't come so soon or it comes asap so it can be over asap too? i also have no idea. just gotta take a step at a time i guess.

really hope that i can go back for the awards presentation ceremony in school next sat, and that it's not eaten up by ndp bah.. cos i really do want to meet up with my schoolmates and hopefully even juniors. see what they say next week bah.

just wish me all the best for the month of july bah. argh... T.T

2008-06-15T21:08:00.003+08:00

hmm, just thought of blogging before book in in just less than an hour. sighs. well let's not go to that.

anyway, april batch guys POP le! haha, so all enjoying their block leave now. lucky guys. hope they get decent postings and nice commanders wherever they go.. for now, just go all out and have fun this next week. a well deserved break from BMT. =)

went to celebrate ryan's bdae today with him and sam in city hall area. walked like all over the place, just to find somewhere decent to eat haha. even stepped into oriental hotel to take a look. it's rather intimidating lol, with the endless levels. wanted to try out this cherry garden, but it looked really ex, and apparently so good that there were ppl who made reservations and had to wait. so we went down one level to melt world cafe, wanting to check out the int'l buffet. but the price totally scared us off haha. 118++ per pax. >.< omg la. so ended up in kenny rogers for his bdae lunch back in marina square. i must say, the sides are really good haha. i liked the macaroni and cheese, and the potato salad especially. =) really quite nice haha. the chicken and ribs are also rather good. after that headed to esplanade for dessert at max brenner's. woot. really nth to say haha, just except for the price, i really enjoyed the choco dishes there =) had a whipped granite (dark choc cold drink), truffle made from 70% cocoa (with vanilla ice-cream, raspberry sauce and fruits), and a belgian waffle (with vanilla ice-cream and cherries to go with it). i must go there sometime again soon lol. though it's really really really sinful. muahaha. lastly went to take a look at the pc fair over at suntec. OMG. it's incredibly crowded. siao one loh. can die of suffocation there i think haha. but anyway, sam got his laptop for his new uni term coming up in august. louis vuitton handbags it's pretty cool i think haha. and the specifications are really not bad loh. so i think quite worth the price. as for me, nowadays thinking of getting a psp leh... since our platoon now allows to play during non-office hours. however, im quite scared ill like get addicted to it, and my 2 yrs in ns will be just gone like the wind. like wasted on doing nth productive loh... but then again, nowadays i also hardly get to read the book i bring in (hey, although it's fiction, but i think it's at least a bit more um... constructive than games lol), so i also dunno how im spending my time nowdays... >.<

will do some more consideration bah. but talking abt this, i really want to find something useful/constructive to do while im in ns for these 2 yrs. i see samuel actually brings his med books into camp to read during his guard rest. so it kinds of inspires me as well. though of course, it'll be kinda pointless to bring in chem eng stuff in la, since im not even confirmed if im going to take that for real, and i'll prob forget by the time i start uni. but im thinking of something useful loh, like some skill... hmm. will have to think abt it as well.

sigh, anyway, heard from pc that the rest of this month will be just focusing on drills drills and drills. omg ultimate sian-ness. well as usual, looking forward to the upcoming weekend bah... hopefully chunkang will plan out smth for the class. so that'll be something to look forward to i suppose.

otherwise, just booking in to another sian-ed week ahead bah.. =.=

2008-06-01T20:53:00.003+08:00

sigh, turning into an emo-kid these days, what with all the shit im going thru recently. but yea, trying to inject something more light-hearted here. cos i do enjoy my weekends tremendously, and those are actually times i feel happy.

well for one, got to eat durian on fri! haha. was at sam's house, which had a pasar malam nearby. it's been dunno how long since i've gone to a pasar malam to take a walk. all the food lol. ramli burger! but i didnt eat that haha. couldnt resist the craving for durian though, so went to buy a box haha. (and no la, never so crazy until buy the actual fruit and squat down in the kitchen with all the newspapers laid out to eat the durian haha. followed by making salt water and drinking from the durian shells. those were the days =D)

my sis borrowed from her friend the CSI series! woot lol. seasons one to four. so got to catch a couple of episodes despite having an extremely short bookout time. chanel handbags will slowly watch finish i guess haha. really quite cool, being with criminalistics. the things they do with the evidence is really interesting. from blood spatter to ballistics to dna sampling to psyche, the possible evidence is endless haha.

well, spent most of my wkend with samuel, and i must say though didnt go catch movies or eat good food or go town, i had a pretty good weekend =). a very homely and cosy one haha. hopefully next week can wire up something for me to look forward to again while living my weekday miserable life.

alright, i better go get ready to bathe and book in before my parents continue to scream at me. don't they realise im trying to do all i can to delay the horrible fact that im really going to enter that living hell for another week? but then again, only our platoon can understand truly how we feel...

damn. im back to being an emo-kid.

2008-05-25T17:46:00.003+08:00

i always used to think bmt will be the most hiong period u will ever go thru in 2 years of ns life. cos being a recruit, you are still a trainee and there's lots to learn which will not be possible if your commanders do not treat you with a certain level of strictness. i was blessed to have had a nice platoon and gd buddies, topped with reasonable and fair commanders who give us the basic respect.

on to unit life, when i was on course as a trainee for the m113 driving course, i felt respected as despite being on course, the instructors were reasonable and when the day can start later, they will allow us to fall in slightly later. in the actual duration of the course, although they were strict with our driving and our knowledge abt the vehicle, they seldom mistreated us unless we were too slow or didnt obey instructions passed down.

now that my course is over, and i am no longer a trainee, anyone would have thought that we should have better treatment as we are now trained and officially part of the battalion. but why is it so that my life now is worse that my recruit days? i am so not exaggerating. i dont wish to provide details, cos there are probably 101 reasons why i say im having a life worse than recruit days. probably more that that even.

i really agree with the fact that whether ur life in ns is good, ok or hell is not only based on vocation, but probably 80% based on ur commanders. even when you have a xiong vocation, but if ur platoon is good and ur commanders are reasonable, chanel handbags will actually be able to go thru ns life quite peacefully. however, if ur vocation may not seem very xiong, and despite ur platoon being rather nice, if your commanders are fucked up, you will be looking at a very miserable ns life instead. and i mean really miserable.

that much said, i suppose i shan't go on any further. i so not want to go back into a life of hell. you know i mean it when even nice ppl like bernard swears at the life we are suffering now.

2008-05-19T19:56:00.002+08:00

gahhh. time really flies. somehow it's the end of the nice long weekend le. omgomgomg. going to book in in like no time at all. now im just living for the weekends. pathetic isnt it? but that's the way life goes in NS i think.

need to plan up a good weekend after another tiring week. sigh, i can't bear to think of it even. worst thing, is i dont even know wad im going to do.

starting to like english songs more and more recently. i guess this is some transition everyone has? lol. from liking chn songs to eng songs. since now in ns, tend to listen to mp3 to sleep, therefore somehow i find eng songs nicer to listen to sleep... haha as compared to chn songs, like more for kboxing.

so hopefully can come back on a happier note this weekend bah. the only consolation is probably the fact that it's 1 less day... >.<

2008-05-11T20:47:00.003+08:00

haven't updated for ages.. well i also dunno wad came over me today, but just felt like updating before going back into camp for the first week under mortar platoon. you know, something like writing a will before ur death, that kind of feeling. felt that i have to write something b4 hell befalls upon us.

time flies i have to say, and we said our goodbyes to our course mates last wed, signifying the end of our driving + om course. now i don't really know what to expect. but from the looks of it, it isn't pretty. >.< and the comments given by the bunk guys who went outfield last wed-fri didnt help. i dunno what would happen to me if i went instead. prob like die very horribly.

now im just trying to plan up a gd long weekend ahead, so at least i have something to look forward to. if i get confined or wad *touch wood*, ill probably just kill myself. =.= so i shall just pray very hard for everything to go smoothly, and get a well-deserved break at the end of the week. the next public holiday is like... WHAT?! august. omg i just sian diaoed myself. shouldnt have looked at the calendar. ah wells, take one step at a time bah.

step. step. step. plunges to my death.

abit abt the course. im quite glad to have made some friends in the course of the course (pun intended), and having exchanged contacts with some of them on msn haha. hopefully can get to talk to them again someday, regardless from archer, cougar, or armour hq. i must say i really enjoyed my time on trades course, cos the ppl are really nice, and esp for the om course, the instructors are very friendly haha. though the things we are supposed to know is still cheemology to me.

went to watch what happens in vegas with peishan cheejia puayhian kwangguan wensheu pengsing weichung last night at marina square. haha a funny show i would say, and despite the fact that the plot might be a tad cliche and typical hollywood romance comedy, louis vuitton handbags brought laughter to everyone, and i must say i enjoyed the show very much haha. u know, very funny and yet not the crude kind of humour. haha. recently back to watching movie mood liao, after a hiatus ever since pre a levels. aka havent been watching much shows during bmt period. but now, im actually wanting to catch 2 shows next week haha. hope i get to see at least one =).

oh well well. try to keep optimistic bah. it's just 5 days to go! i can do it.

wad self-delusion.

p.s. btw online-movie-watching-wise, managed to catch RENT. i think it's a pretty good show, whereby the ppl not belonging to the "mainstream" can be portrayed here as main characters, and provides a meaningful watch. what with gays, lesbians, drug addiction, HIV-positive. lol. but if u keep an open mind while watching this show, i think it's pretty good. especially the fact it's a musical and lots of songs come with it. (oh yes, im somehow addicted to musicals recently, after hsm2, hairspray, rent, the producers. mebbe try chicago next?)

2008-04-05T11:55:00.003+08:00

after reading wensi's blog, now i feel like blogging as well.. actually i dunno who i've mentioned to, but it's pretty clear as well la, that the class is inevitably drifting apart, with everyone having their own commitments, mainly work (for the girls) and NS (for the guys). but im appreciative to all who have made an effort to plan something, esp wj and ps, so that the class can at least have a chance to meet up once every 2 weeks or so. which is quite endearing, cos everyone can share their experiences in the past fortnight, and everyone will have an enjoyable time over a meal.

now that april has come, the april batch of NS guys will soon be gone to tekong ("another country!" that's what my pioneer pc makes us echo whenever he says tekong), and we probably will have less initiative to meet up haha. i really hope the class won't drift too far apart, cos i can seriously say, my best times of school life were during JC. really fabulous haha. all the fun i enjoyed =D =D and i dont want them to be gone in a hurry.. maybe things will get better after the gals begin school once again in uni (it's year 1 after all, no need to chiong and mug right =P), and the guys finish the packed BMT and go on to slightly slower paced unit life (though it's still freaking xiong now for me under trades course). i really hope for that to happen.

ok it's a bit far to think abt it now, but i really hope for the day where everyone grows up and have a successful career ahead of them or something, and we can all still meet up, perhaps at least 2-3 times a year, and relieve the jc days. you know, that kind of feeling la... well i hope at the very least, our class still can stay together till the end of uni life, before work overwhelms us all haha.

well for now, looking forward to meeting the class late tonight at ph's house haha. it's been.. 2 wks since breek's at taka?

k abt trades course. well, it's physically alright, seeing that i havent done much pt or anything like that. but mentally torturing, cos you have to memorise and remember SO SO SO many things abt the vehicle. and if you screw it up u're SO SO SO dead. emotionally as well, cos the instructors will screw up upside down if you make too jialat mistakes during the drive. SO FREAKING STRESSFUL. and it doesn't help when you suck at driving. chanel handbags seriously sibei suck. maintenance is another xiong thing altogether besides the driving part. damn shagged after whole day outfield still have to come back and do the necessary maintenance. i think can doze off while cleaning the vehicle, on days if we come back super late...

and to wj, don't ever get pessimistic abt class outing turnout, cos if everyone starts giving up faith, it will really fail and one day the gap will be too great to bridge.. so continue to initiate class gatherings! (cos it's one of the few links still bringing the class together now)

2008-03-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for some time haha. i wont say it's cos i was enjoying my block leave away haha, but well been rather "busy" during block leave. esp with all the uni applications and nus open house and stuff.

to summarise my block leave, it's been A LOT of deciding wad i wanna do in future, cos it after all constitutes my future right? been hearing opposing views abt the choice of study, alternating between chemical engineering/chemistry/applied chemistry/environmental engineering and business administration/accountancy/economics (omg ill probably die if i take this). rather contrasting i would say. so can imagine my agony at decide wad to study. i got a feeling if i wasnt in NS, and took up a corporate job instead, i may end up taking up business. but well, being in NS, and still reliving the jc days of a science student and always screwing up econs, it's no wonder that i am going for chem engineering instead. i sincerely and seriously hope it wont be a bad choice. REALLY.

but at least the whole hassle of applying and all has come to a standstill. applications still continue la, but at least i've got them settled. feel a tinge of regret not applying for smu.. but hey, they don't exactly offer chem engineering do they? still, i might consider just applying for the sake of it (rofl), for a business or accountancy course. im actually relatively interested in that as well. but oh wells. choices choices choices. TOUGH ones to make.

im not sure if im doing enough abt my future (aka applying enough). but i seriously hope i wont live to regret wadeva i've NOT done in future bah.. hope my choice is right to pursue my passion for chem, though i gotta leave with my most hated science physics (and it pretty much occupies a HUMONGOUS portion of engineering). ok why am i dissuading myself when i already done the necessary applications.

anyway, block leave also included meeting up with frens, like sam, ryan (yep managed to get him on his first bookout on gd fri!), kenny and junzhi, 6d ppl etc. so fri got my posting, and going to report tml le. though it is NOWHERE as gd as some ppl, such as the seriously gd ones like OCS and SISPEC, and the slackily good ones like RP and MP, i hope i can get an authentic NS experience and not risk my life or something. like trip and fall over a rock while chiong-suaing? lol. or dislocate ankle while SOC-ing numerous times (i sincerely hope this will not apply to my vocation. im a tankee for goodness sake.)

anyway here goes,

Comd SAF BMTC wishes you all the best in your future posting.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.	You are posted to	40 SAR.
2.	Your vocation is	AFV OPR - M113 (ULTRA).

yes imma tankee. gr8. now as long as i dont stuff tissue paper in the barrel and fire a shell to cause internal explosion, or let my tank overturn, or be unable to open the flap/door/opening while during dunno wad drills, im probably slightly safer outfield than a rifleman. save for the anti tank weapons. ok la, in true fact i know nuts abt my vocation. shall have a clearer picture next wkend when i book out. probably. I BETTER GET TO BOOK OUT AND NOT GET CONFINED >.<

so well, im "excited" of some sorts, since it'll be somewhere ill stay for the rest of my 2 years and happily ord with a CPL rank. so gd luck to me, and im praying wad i read that 40 SAR has been getting the best armour and combat unit for the past dunno how many years is NOT true, cos ill probably have to uphold that (which is way beyond my means, thanks a lot), and that'll probably mean im expected to pass IPPT and SOC and wadeva shit. (thats so NOT going to happen.) ahh. praying for gd commanders and platoon/section mates as well, since they will be who ill work with till ROD. which is 10 yrs down the road? omg. alright more details abt that... in time to come i guess.

as for pop... haha ok it's a bit way overdue to talk abt it. can see the photos on facebook kenny, mingkwang etc posted haha. but i thought the post pop platoon outing was quite cool. kudos to brandon for that. quite nice (but slightly hard to find, for a lu4 chi1 like me), with the very middle eastern feel and super lot of cushions and mats. quite a lot of ppl made it too, despite it properly starting like 11+ haha. (thanks to the mega jam.) then doing something random like going to 24 hr macs in bugis and talking/sleeping till the next morning's first bus/train was also one of my firsts lol. i reached home at abt 6.45am then my parents were already up, then they amazingly never say anything much haha. i thought i kenna for sure liao rofl.

but i must say, im really quite glad to be in this platoon, this company, and with this bunch of ppl. although we definitely got our differences, coming from all walks of life, these 13 wks have made us a lot bonded together and we end of BMT phase feeling glad that we have all pulled thru and made frens with this grp of buddies =D. thankful to brandon who compiled the list of contacts haha, so now we can all continue to keep in touch despite all the various postings we get. hopefully that platoon outing after pop will not be the first and last kind of scenario. ulysses platoon 2 01/08 batch! rawks haha.

U-LE-HEI! U-LE-HEI!

k back to emo-ing abt block leave ending lol. havent had the time to do so lmao. CHIONG-SUA for the remaining of 2 years. TWO WHOLE YEARS. omg. it's like enlistment date and POP date. difference 3 months. still acceptable and smth to look forward to. posting date and ORD date. difference 21 months. omg lahhh.

i dont want to go think abt ROD date pls. (10 years? *faints*)

2008-03-02T14:29:00.005+08:00

well, going back in camp in less 3 hrs time. but just wanted to take sometime off to talk abt this movie i watched recently during my att c period at home. yes yes i know, it's quite long ago le, but i chanced upon watching it recently, and it really made my day haha. practically all the songs are super nice la lol. though my favourite still has to be Without Love.

i love the way how they can do the stark contrast between the white and black way of enjoying themselves, be it the way they dance and sing. especially the way in "the new girl in town", where u hear the 2 distinct versions, which are equally nice lah.

and the singers are just great! nth to say loh, just a very enjoyable movie to watch and u can just loop and loop the soundtracks over and over again (thats what ive been doing lol). just damn nice =)

2008-02-25T13:47:00.003+08:00

haven't been updating for sometime. in case anyone still haven't got a clue, i've been spending the past week in NUH ward 57 bed 6, down with ITP (idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura) and tested positive for one of the dengue tests. 7 full days in bed, having to be wheelchaired wherever u go, and that includes the toilet. so i hardly walked more than 30 steps in those 7 days i think.

basically it's just this problem with extremely low platelet count (i was admitted with platelet count of 12k, compared to a normal range of abt 150k), resulting in unnatural bruising and even some superficial bleeding in my right eye. but thankfully they hurt a lot less than they look.

now that im discharged (with a grand total of 40k on sat), have been on att c and staying at home. well, i dunno if it's the drugs acting as some sort of depressant or wadnot, but seriously i havent been feeling myself ever since i came back. in fact, i think i was a whole lot happier during the time i was in hospital. partially, it's probably due to the side effects from the medication, making me feel extremely useless =.= i feel slight discomfort at my joints when walking (probably due to the long time made to spend in bed in case of internal bleeding), having this water retention problem that isnt helping me feel better, as bloatedness sets in and im pretty reluctant to take in fluids. and kinda to top it all, i got all this tiny sharp headaches and migraine after being up for a little too long. prob i could add in that my spine feels kinda weird, though i hope it's just probably due to the bone marrow extraction test done on me last wk.

actually i also dunno what im ranting abt. it's probably the drugs making me go bonkers or wad. but on a psychological mode, im feeling equally bad as well. now under att c, im being requested to stay at home and rest, and that pretty much cuts me off from the world. at least during my stay in hospital, my spirits really lifted when ppl came to pay me a visit, and for that im really thankful. you guys made my stay in hospital a lot more comfy. uh thanks to ryan, sam's mum, wenjie, peishan, yushan, pengsing, ruiyuan, kwangguan, huijie, jieyee, peizhi, clarence, jianting, limyuan, and esp esp my family. louis vuitton handbags so sorry if i missed anyone out. but really thanks a lot all the same. now, feeling like a zombie at home, cos there's pretty much nth to do, and no one ever thinks of paying home visits once the guy's out of hospital ma. it's just no longer that... obligated. haha.

ok la, i admit, feeling kinda lonely. being in bmt, they forever flood u with activity after activity, and after u bookout, you want to make use of ur precious bookout time so much u find all sorts of stuff to occupy urself and end up hustling from one place to another. but stricken with something like this, you cant help but have to slow down and take things easy. i dunno how long is the next time ill probably feel well again to go do some jogging or exercising. and with so many guys in NS, and the rest all working, dunno when will i probably have the chance to meet up and have a good chat with them. so now the slow moving time is like... it's practically crawling.

now all i hope is to not let this affect my NS life too much la. it's pretty big of a worry for me, cos if i miss so many major events that ill have to make up, then it'll probably eat into my already super duper short block leave (which i totally dont want to), and im as good as never having any block leave at all. but more crucially, hopefully i wont be stuck in this sickly condition forever. i really want to get better. seriously. you have no idea how you feel like this zombie where you waddle from place to place cos u cant exactly hurry if not you'll feel pain at the calves, and the bloatedness in the stomach is worsening the effect. and at night you probably cant rest well cos of the tiny pins and needles in your head, and on top of that a nudging pain in ur backbone not allowing you to lie flat. (and these are all already out of the context, considering that the main problem elapsing from my illness is the numerous bruises all over my body).

2008-02-10T18:16:00.001+08:00

shall write a short post before i go bathe and get ready for book in.

this year's cny was quite fun i guess, with the usual house visiting for the 1st 2 days. sam and ryan came over for a short while on friday, before ryan went to his stayover at junwei's house. went with sam to west mall without having anything in mind, so we just ended up in coffee bean, getting a hot drink (actually we didnt expect it to be hot lol) and eating some cake. ahh i seriously think times with company are the best.

take today for example, went out and met up with yushan wenjie peishan kwangguan and yongxian who came later. went all the way to sembawang to play some arcade bball/photo hunt before coming to JEC to meet yongxian and playing some shooting and bishi bashi. although all in all i didnt really do anything practical (lol), but i felt quite willing to travel here and there to meet up with some classmates loh. if not i wont have much company at home. also, it might probably be the last time im seeing yushan if i dont book out next wk, as she's going overseas for further studies. haha hopefully i can come out next wk, then mebbe can join in any form of farewell the class is giving her.

oh yea, ytd after sdc went home change and went J8 to meet sam and ryan and went sam's house. watched high school musical 2 there online haha. thought the songs were pretty nice. and the show's not bad also lah haha. hanged around till evening when sam's dad fetched me to puay hian's house where the class was. louis vuitton handbags had a good chat with the army guys, esp dj and sam tan. got to know abt the terrifying mohawk haha, and what we chatted abt gave me quite a bit of motivation la. hopefully this motivation in me can continue to last, and ill push myself more.

going to book in soon. im seriously having pre-book in depression. withdrawal symptoms. but aiya, this long wkend was fun while it lasted. now i just really pray i can get thru next wk and book out after sit test. i hope...

2008-02-03T09:58:00.001+08:00

oh yay i kinda survived thru fieldcamp. which is like a gr8 feeling haha. cos 1 less big thing to worry abt for bmt. as usual, cant elaborate much due to certain restrictions.

anyway, being bruised all over and having to apply zam-buk like no tomorrow lol. pain sia! but yeah as wad they say la, these wounds will recover but the memories of the experience will last forever. some of the things u will never get to do out of fieldcamp... =)

observed one thing that i suppose is kinda natural for human nature. as u tend to get shagged and in discomfort, patience falls a thousandfold and tension rises proportionately. but thankfully no major conflicts broke out or wad la, so still ok. chanel handbags but it's clear that everyone tends to get a little snappy and impatient, not excluding yours truly. so yeah, should give some sort of apology to whoever i snapped at during the field camp, when everyone's too shagged to even raise their lips for a smile, but just makes it so simple to give a frown instead.

but in any case, it's all over. so let's hope everyone can obtain back their morale and spirits, and continue to chiong for the rest of bmt! haha.

seeing so many class ppl going for driving lessons, makes me real tempted to take it up too. but i think shall wait till pop ba, if not staying at tekong for 5-6 days a wk makes it kinda hard to make time for lessons. wanna take it up alongside others too. like junzhi who is thinking of going for jap classes. thats pretty cool la, got this temptation to join him in the beginner class. shall take a serious consideration abt these 2 after pop. which is still a while away! sighs.

and still got the major barrier to break, coming in the form of 4 letters - I-P-P-T. double sighs.

shall be back for cny i hope (prays fervently for no guard duty, if not they are really inhumane). super looking forward to it haha. then shall get to meet up with sam ever since he got enlisted. im seriously amazed how he made me out a distance away with my camo and helmet on haha. but nevertheless, it's super interesting how i thought i wont get to meet him all the way till cny, since i never got to see him in bmtc at all, and yet meeting him where i least expected it - outfield. lol.

seriously, how coincidences occur just like that. haha.

2008-01-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

hai. in a state of depression now. almost everyone's giving me the confirmation that i wont be able to bookout next wkend. which means 2 wks in camp. and wait, thats not the worst. what's worse is that the 2nd wk is going to be field camp. which means outfield. and doing lots of i dunno what.

somemore this wkend bookout is so so so so short. have to go beach road and get stuff also. but thankfully had a nice dinner at cafe cartel with classmates and went with section mates to beach road today to get stuff. followed by hanging out a bit with mark from section 2. so i guess i tried to make the best out of my bookout le la.

when i next come back quite a no. of things would have been completed. for that im happy =) sorry cant exactly elaborate due to certain restrictions passed down. but in any case, let's just pray hard ill be able to survive these 2 wks. SERIOUSLY. then i can get down and enjoy my CNY long wkend.

i really really hope i can survive thru this. =.=

so please wish me luck or something.

*sighs and continues to sink into depression*

2007-12-24T08:46:00.000+08:00

hey ppl, wishing everyone a merry christmas eve! since ill be booking in tml evening. like a super early 1830. =.= ahh sian. but ok la nvm, shall go out today =)

im sorry abt not replying the tagboard, but i did and somehow it doesnt register my messages. i also have no idea why.

yeah, just blogging to say that im still surviving and hopefully continue to do so in the coming weeks. my saddest birthday this year though lol. but really, thanks a lot for those who sent me messages when i was in camp. i hope i managed to reply everyone. sry if i missed anyone out, but ur well-wishes are well received =)

thanks sam and ryan for coming over to stay over on hari raya eve. glad i could meet up with u all. hope to see u guys soon!

yep thats abt it, enjoy ur christmas ppl! esp those in army! haha. treasure these 2 days lol.

2007-12-13T01:34:00.001+08:00

alright, after this mega long hiatus, im finally back. but not for long haha, since in less than 9 hrs time ill have reached pasir ris bus interchange and on my way to pulau tekong. yep u got it, im going NS tml. oh wow great.

i dont suppose ill have the time to update abt what i've done over these 2 wks or so (nth much actually, with a few exceptions like my chiangmai trip, prom, class outing, stayover at aaron's house). perhaps i may post some pix if i can ever get back to my blog again soon. meanwhile dont leave my tagboard to die! (though it has such symptoms already, all thanks to my laziness to blog haha)

alright so ns. ive got everything packed (i hope), and im ready physically (nono 100% N-O NO), mentally (yeah if u mean the woodbridge kind), emotionally (oh yes im emo-ing abt going ns), and spiritually (so i should do some praying huh? actually i already did lol. dad brought me to bai bai on tue). so yep, here i am, all set (not) and ready (not) to go!

ok la jokes aside. well im feeling alright i guess, trying to be optimistic and hopeful abt the fact ill be out in a wk due to hari raya (it better be so!) and can celebrate my bdae OUTSIDE TEKONG. uh yeah. seeing how big a bag of junk im bringing over, chanel handbags SHOULD not be missing anything essential i hope. so regarding that i should be fine. now what's left is the one im most scared abt loh. TRAINING. oh well. i have only myself to blame for eating so much during As and doing so little training now after that (i mean i gotta play as much as i can ma, so u cant fault me for that). so as long as i survive that, i SHOULD be fine...

ok enough of ranting lol. u all shall know the truth when i get back. hopefully in one piece. for now i better get to bed. if not im so freaking screwed for the days ahead. well cya again soon, civillisation!

signing off, soon-to-be Recruit J.H. ONG. (argh! freaks out.)

2007-11-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

ok my blog is like kinda dead lol. but cos of a levels, hardly had anytime for it. so paiseh abt that haha.

well finally, and i mean FINALLY. A LEVELS ARE OVER. (i still can't believe it rofl)

but that also means NS is approaching. oh what the heck. MEGA wet blanket.

nvm, i shall think and worry abt it after im back.

going thailand for 5 days with family! decided to go immediately after As (really immediately hor :P), so that i can come back early and uh... "prepare" for NS. that is, to have as much fun i can b4 i get in yeah.

shall come back with a new song on blog haha. and hopefully some pix of my trip. if not possibly just an account of it. if it's not THAT boring there's nth to say la, that is.

so well, be back on 25th nov!

P.S. don't spam my tagboard while i'm gone!!! =D

2007-10-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

perhaps i should stop lamenting.
perhaps i should stop thinking abt wad happened.
in fact im past that phase already. heading towards "why it happened?"
gd for me i guess, sometimes u need to do some reflection to improve on ur character.
and hopefully not commit the same mistakes again.
but the problem is, i dont even know wad ive done wrong.
things just happen dont they?
and u dont even get a chance to react.
so by the time it strikes you. it's kind of too late.
yup, so i have to suffer under my own slow reaction..

do not do unto others as you would have others do unto you.
i think i'm getting the meaning of this, slowly.
but if i dont do it, who knows how far we'll drift apart.
and yet as i have others doing unto me, i feel what i expect others will too.
i know how it feels.
contradictory isn't it? but that's how life goes.
hmm i think i may be getting it.
but then again, i don't think so.
cos i totally dunno how to go on from here.
if i don't attempt, we'll might as well have been strangers.
but if i do, all i may bring is just irritation.
so can anyone tell me what i should do?

another thing.
i don't have a clue what happened.
but just somehow, we don't talk anymore.
though i seriously suspect is due to his excessive mugging.
but still, there's no reason for this friendship to fade away like that right?
haha perhaps he's adopting my policy.
if nothing clicks anymore between two friends,
then it could just mean it's time to move on.
so i guess he finds no point in making a friend like me anymore?
in that case, i do send him my best wishes.
i'm sure he is enjoying very well the company he's with.
there's no need for a friend like me i guess =)

last thing.
you know how sometimes put in so much effort and time,
and really try so hard,
but it amounts to nothing in the end?
nah im not referring to studies.
it's like, this situation cant help but make you think,
then isnt this so superficial?
i always thought i was pretty close,
only to find out now that im nowhere near after all.
so has it been a wrong approach ive been trying to adopt since jc began?
should i really go back to wad i did in sec sch?
cos apparently, that can bring me friends.
true friends that really care for me and know me well.
i'm not saying i dont treat my friends now as friends.
but it's just that feeling of being this outlier, u know?
someone that tries ever so hard but
never will get remembered or noticed.
it's not like im some attention seeker u know,
always wanting to be noticed.
but chanel handbags can't help but feel super left out sometimes.
im not some prince who has to be waited on or wad,
but i dont think it's too much to ask for,
to simply not get left behind?
im not saying this to appeal to anyone.
in fact if anyone asked deliberately and not based on our true friendship,
i'll rather he/she not ask at all.
i just dunno wad is it abt me
that has to be treated this way.

haha it just all amounts to my own fault i guess.
nvm a lesson learnt is an experience earned.

i just hate myself for having such a screwed up social life.

2007-09-30T11:57:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDZm1N4zKLI

heard of this song this morning and fell in love with it haha. dunno why somehow it just puts u in a good mood haha. lifts ur spirits! lol.

杨丞琳 - 任意门

好闷
结冰的苹果用力看不懂
怎么才刚觉得热突然有台风
好的占为己有坏的已在出没
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
让我走
谁把任意门借给我(带我走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(太多)
谁把任意门借给我

突然没借口什么都不想躲
身边向前的人向前奔跑都没用
刚觉得太庸你还变的太重
我看我否则我去去去做噩梦

怎么了烦的常常头痛
做梦做梦可以脱离这宇宙
关上门没有人找得到我
跑到非洲跑到月球躲一躲

好闷
结冰的苹果用力看不懂
怎么才刚觉得热突然有台风
好的占为己有坏的已在出没
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
让我走
谁把任意门借给我(带我走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(太多)
谁把任意门借给我

人长得厚什么都要撮破
明明长得好瘦偏偏还想长瘦
恋爱像是堕落害怕分手牵着手
瞳孔越来越多越来越重才成功
明明冬天水果夏天自然有
自然不自然不要太多
一个窝一个洞
向上不断成功
花越开越红越活越久心轻松

好闷
结冰的苹果用力看不懂
怎么才刚觉得热突然有台风
好的占为己有坏的已在出没
哪一扇门可以让我躲一躲
让我走
谁把任意门借给我(带我走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(太多)
谁把任意门借给我

让我走
谁把任意门借给我(带我走)
谁把任意门借给我(不要上锁)
谁把任意门借给我(太多)
谁把任意门借给我

谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我
谁把任意门借给我

anyway, prelims has come and gone. how i wish that was the case for a levels as well, but seems that it wont happen for another 2 months at least. results are well, really average, but i've tried my best le i guess. and the subject i hardly touched until the day before, physics, is not back yet. and im the most screwed for that.

this wk has been, well really crazy, cos of the imba homework load. esp math >.< that yellow booklet is seriously imba. and i havent really touched my other hmk. the school's really coming hard down on us this time round. well i guess if they dont do it this time, there wont be any more chances for that eh? well ill just to survive past these few wks ba. but dunno how much longer i can last.

fri went to relax after school at venezia with class ppl. ate rum n' raisin and yoggi haha. nice as usual lol. bought pomegranate tea at cold storage and went with yx wj ps to limyuan's house to chill out haha. and chill out we did =D. just sat around in her basement and chatted abt quite a lot of stuff. from ppl in school to uni options to career choices. ahhh, until now im still quite a loss >.< but i think it's even more worrying for the girls. cos at least i so-called got 2 yrs to think abt it still.

crap. that reminds me of NS. change topic.

we also played some ping-pong. im damn noob lol. but it was quite fun la haha. i wonder how many more chances we have to just sit around doing nth and chat. no pool no movie no kbox no arcade no bowling no cycling no sports no mugging. seriously just nth haha. well hopefully a couple more times before the end of this yr i hope. but of cos, this can only happen within a grp of friends who are willing to talk abt anything under the sun. if not it'll just be awkward silence.

sat morning went to MOE to attend the tea session with wensi. haha seriously quite motivating. esp when u get the chance to chat with scholars and moe personnel. i might really want to go down this path if i get the chance haha. but the only pity is that i wont get the chance to do any relief teaching i guess. hearing from the scholars' experiences during the programme really brought out quite a lot of impt factors to determine whether one has wad it takes to become a teacher. it's really not an easy job haha. and i like the fact that they look out for ppl who are proactive, meaning as long as u request something, they will consider ur preference and most probably give u the go ahead. not like wad i imagined to be, scholarships being something whereby u listen to everything they say and take wad they give. so im quite happy to hear that.

got to know some friends also haha. cos we were all seated in the same table. ok la, not really considered since we met for the first time, but we could chat and all while on the train. i was with the 2 dylans in fact haha, one from cjc and one from rjc. friendly ppl lol. hopefully somehow we can keep in contact after that. =)

after that went to bishan for my first tuition lesson. i must say the teacher's quite good. and some of the things they link to in an ans, ill never have thot of it. damn ingenious =.= saw quite a no. of hc ppl there, but dont really know all of them haha. mebbe except matthias pamela yuxiang and lek chia. and it's quite a friendly environment, where there's food and drinks always available for u, and u can like eat and listen to the tchr at the same time. haha so quite informal in a sense. yet u learn quite a bit out of it.

now im left with sunday to pia the crazy hmk load. jy to me i guess. and next wk... dreading it >.<>.<

2007-09-09T02:09:00.001+08:00

havent blogged for sometime. well life's been pretty boring lately, cos of (rather, attempts of) studying and trying to prepare for prelims. facing notes day after day only to realise at the end of the day that u've barely read a couple of pages cos either u went to slack off at the comp, or tv, or just plain chatting with ppl when studying at the reading room. wow, wad a productive wk >.< so basically im kinda screwed for this prelims and i dunno how im going to face my dad my mum my bro my sis my uncles my aunties my teachers my friends my pets etc when i get back my prelims results. ok im getting a bit carried away there. and i dont even own a pet. ok i dont need someone to give me a knock on my head that prelims arent exactly over yet so i wont know how dead i am, but the fact is i do really really know. argh no one will know exactly how screwed i am de lah. and im telling u, it's not paranoia. so yup, ppl will read this and go, "so do something abt it, for goodness sake! so mug 24/7 now!" but my attention span gets so horribly short that my productivity drops to an all time low by dusk. it falls to a further zero once i reach home and when my comp embraces me after ignoring it for the past few hours when i go school and chitchat or just plain listen music on my mp3. oh did i mention i chiong home everyday to watch the 9pm chn 8 show? tv's another killer to mugging as well... so yeah, by now u probably can guess how bored i am this wk, resorting to like monologuing here. =.= seriously torturous wk. and i dont expect next 2 wks to get any better, especially when the guilt factor starts creeping in. coupled with the fear factor of the thot of my parents seeing my prelim results. i actually lol-ed at the fear factor in my mind. fear factor, fear factor. geddit? im seriously going insane here. OKOKOK. i gotta snap back to reality. back to my actual agenda of actually blogging. if u just thought that u have wasted 5 min of ur life reading all those crap above, congrats u are right for once! alright main point main point. went to celebrate sam's bdae with ryan on thur at suntec. ate at kuishinbo. it's really chao ex, and we already took the lunch hour 60 min special liao, still amt to 20+ per pax. but the 60 min was shiok haha. i eat until i cannot eat anymore. damn funny haha. cos of the time limit, so kept having to time check. so it was like "12.01 lets begin!" "start eating by 12.15" "lets chiong the dessert by 12.45" and wah we seriously took loads of food. i personally gobbled abt um. 10+ sushi, a lot of sashimi, 1/3 plate laden with grilled food, 1/3 plate of tempura and fried food, shared some of the seafood soup, some clams and mussels, a couple of chocolate mousses, some cream puffs, some eclairs, some mochi, some fruit tarts, and half a cup of green tea icecream. yeah i think it was not bad a deal for the 3 of us hahaha. after that went to buy tix for ratatouille (heh heh i know how to spell liao). it's a gd show i think haha. animation and graphics were pretty good. and the storyline's not bad for a cartoon haha. just thot they could make the main characters a bit better looking haha. (ok my own preference) and i was telling ryan not to think too much haha, cos he raised 2 flaws to me during the movie abt illogical stuff. but then again, it's a cartoon for children, so i dont think they'll think that much lol. oh went to arcade and watched this IMBA guy playing the machine there. louis vuitton handbags how should i describe it, im sure a lot of u watched b4. it's this one when u scoop sweets and put it on some moving platform which will push stuff into ur "collecting pocket". ring a bell somehow? anyway this imba guy we saw after the movie had like bags and bags of sweets and soft toys surrounding him. i think got abt 10 bags. seriously stun diao haha. either he's really really good or he's really really rich (i prefer to think it's a combination of both). but in any case, in the short time we spent looking at him play, he hit the jackpot again (for the umpteenth time i suppose). he didnt LOOK particularly imba, but from the looks of all the bags surrounding him, i think the key to this machine is "slow and steady wins the race". oh and it was seriously hilarious to have 3 noobs trying to take neoprint lol. okok dont go on and on abt wad gay and all. i seriously dont think there's a prob with 3 gd friends doing that. so pls shuddup to whoever u are. but the big problem comes when 3 noobs do it. cos there comes the lack of poses, and the total inability to decorate the photo at all. i was like uh... how to go to the next page of decorations, while ryan was desperately trying to find the eraser lol. is there going to be an english version sometime soon? lol. we were practically tikum-ing. same with inside the booth also, cos all the instructions are like incomprehensible. but at least we got something ok-ly reasonable la. though ryan blocked my face in one of the photos with a decor >.< and we didnt manage to select 6 out of 6 pics cos the freaking machine was so impatient. everything got time limit one la. judging how impatient the machine is, u'll presume in japan it's 24/7 long queue outside or something la. =.= lol.

after that sam had to go back to prepare for his bdae dinner with family, while ryan brought me to his recently found hideout. it's this quite nice cafe which has quite nice ambience and food. haha there's this special set when u order a hot beverage and 2 slices of mini cake (such as new york cheese cake, brownie, double choco, marble cheese cake etc). the shopkeeper was so nice he gave us another 2 mini slices on the house! haha thats really nice service. though i empahasise mini hehe.

that's abt the only happening thing i had this wk bah. every other day's spent staring at the notes only to realise that at the end of the day... oh wait i've repeated that before. ah well, u get my emphasis on the point.

hallelujah. prelims creeping up on us in... 30 hours? holyyyyy. and im so damn unprepared.

2007-09-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

陈奕迅 - Last Order

没关系真的没关系
我也许早就该回去
再一杯我告诉自己
到此为止干了不再续
麻烦你加冰威士忌
对不起来个double的
喝到这里终于够勇气说一个经历

那晚下雨在这店里
也放著这首曲
有个男子搭上一个女子
反正失恋
他当然不介意有段艳遇
只是回到他的家里
十几坪家徒四壁
一声不响那女的掉头离去
就像三个小时前
未婚妻初次到来嫌弃的样子

没关系真的没关系
一晚上就失恋两次
那男子还不懂怀疑
到底自己是否没出息
不客气别给我 ice tea
客人们不是我吓跑的
别看著我这个不过是我朋友的经历

那晚下雨在这店里
也放著这首曲
有个男子搭上一个女子
反正失恋
他当然不介意有段艳遇
只是回到他的家里
十几坪家徒四壁
一声不响那女的掉头离去
就像我的未婚妻
对不起好像说成是我的样子

我是没关系

haha do i love this song or love this song. dunno why somehow that day when samuel sent me wo ai de ren by lin you jia (我爱的人, typing the chinese characters, in case the same misunderstanding happens again lol), fell in love with this song after watching the youtube clip of the finals of chao ji xing guang da dao when lin you jia performed it. i guess it's the relaxed kind of feel haha. and the lyrics are lame =D in a nice sense. the behind part also imba, with all the techniques and stuff. been trying to learn it since this morning lol.

i actually like a song by eason chan! amazing. cos i didnt use to like his songs that much haha.

anyway, went to watch singaPOPera! with my mum and bro ytd night at UCC. haha really nice! it's like this combination of the songs from all the famous songs in singapore theatre history, so u get a very local feel haha. like songs from musicals like beauty world, sing to the dawn, a twist of fate, man of letters, hot pants, kampong amber, chang & eng, forbidden city, snow.wolf.lake and fried rice paradise.

it's kinda cool, cos there this pop orchestra with instruments of all sorts, the chinese orchestra, string ensemble, malay and indian instruments, concert band, as well as electric guitars and drums. then the performers also really imba in singing haha. very shiok to hear them, cos all got powerful vocals. so it was really enjoyable. lighting and background images also enhance the whole performance. although it's like this collection of musicals, so it's all excerpts and single songs per musical featured, but u get to enjoy everything i guess haha. from the funny 60s 70s cha-cha feel in beauty world, to cheena majestic feel in forbidden city, and also the simple melody that touches the heart in sing to the dawn and chang & eng. now i miss listening to the songs liao haha.

the finale song fried rice paradise damn funny haha. cos the lyrics damn amusing. though i cant remember them exactly, but got lots of food and singapore places de la haha. and the chorus especially begins like this: "fried rice paradise, nasi goreng very nice!" the bridge also haha, with the slow chanting of "chao fan".

beauty world, cha-cha-cha!

ok haha i should get started on making today a little more productive than kosong. been slacking the WHOLE day. ggfied.

2007-08-26T10:55:00.001+08:00

haha woah. i realised i abandoned my blog for like... ages haha. shall finally get down to do this quiz that wj tagged me to do long long time ago >.< 1. (The person who tagged you is...) wenjie aka mosquito aka mushroom man aka nggy aka muggerng 2. (Your relationship with him/her is...) good friends and classmates haha. 3. (5 impressions you have of him/her.) - hmm. not very tall =P (and i frequently niao him abt it hahaha) - a very loving guy (and i refer to ppl other than his most beloved =D, like weechern dunjie etc =P) - very good to his friends and always willing to lend a listening ear - typical soccerholic (ok i take that back. ABSOLUTE soccerholic.) - weird dislike for mushrooms (they aren't that bad lol. you are a fun guy (fungi) yourself rofl.) 4. (The most memorable thing he/she has done for you.) hmm quite a lot of things... but the only one i can remember off hand is to mispronounce my nick jeyishor as jay-is-whore >.< (off all things to rmb) 5. (The most memorable words he/she has said to you.) you'll never walk alone... (not that it's that memorable, it's just cos he repeats it continuously. haha ok i'm just kidding!) 6. (If he/she becomes your lover, you will...) *cough* hmm... that's a tough question. lmao. 7. (If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be...) become a girl or turn me into a gay. he can take his pick. 8. (If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...) be quite sad i guess, cos he's a gd friend! =) 9. (If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...) uh. haven't really got a clue. but i guess it'll have to be cos he realised we cant be together. you know, the love turned hatred kinda thing. 10. (The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is...) enrol him in some singing school so he can sing ju hua tai to his heart's content without killing the ppl around him, or sing love songs to his =D 11. (Your overall impression of him/her is...) an ultra good friend to have. seriously does abide his slogan of "you'll never walk alone" i mean it. 12. (How you think people around you will feel about you.) some will like me and some will hate me i guess. no one can satisfy everyone else. 13. (The characteristic you love about yourself is...) i think im quite sociable haha. and i love to help ppl (that needs it. i emphasise this pt.) 14. (On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is...) my inability to not take small things to heart. 15. (The most ideal person you want to be is...) oo. another tough qn. i guess i would want to be another slimmer, smarter, more-musically inclined, more sports-inclined, better looking, richer, stronger, more friendly, (insert all positive traits here) ME! yeah told u it was quite a tough qn. 16. (For people that care and like you, louis vuitton handbags say something to them...) Thanks for putting up with all my nonsense. and i wanna say that i seriously love you all even when sometimes i let the bad emotions get the better of me. sorry for all those emo and harsh words and anger. 17. (Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you - TRY NOT TO PEEP AT THE QUESTION BELOW BEFORE WRITING DOWN THE NAMES.) 01) Chun Kang 02) Wee Chern 03) Lim Yuan 04) De Ren 05) Pei Shan 06) Chee Jia 07) Pei Zhi 08) Kwang Guan 09) Yong Xian 10) Dun Jie (Who is no. 6 - Chee Jia - having a relationship with?) haha who else other than da cupcake with the biggest eyes? lol. (Is no. 9 - Yong Xian - a male or female?) Female. I think. Lol. <- notice this answer is kouped from wenjie. i didnt think i had to change it. esp the "i think" part. =D (yx dont kill me hahaha. but then again she never visits my blog. so im safe haha.) (If no. 7 - Pei Zhi - and 10 - Dun Jie - are together, will it be a good thing?) um... um... i dunno lol. (How about no. 8 - Kwang Guan - and 5 - Pei Shan?) haha i don't think so? unless (What is no. 2 - Wee Chern - studying about?) well. i think i'll rather not even ATTEMPT to list down wad he has studied. it could easily make this post the longest post in blogger history. and mind you, that's only the amount he had revealed. who knows if in actual fact... :P (When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 - Lim Yuan?) last night at the class bbq i guess. was having some chit-chat haha. (What kind of music band does no. 8 - Kwang Guan - like?) haha english music, that's for sure. and i just found out last night! his fav band is simple plan haha =) (Does no. 1 - Chun Kang - have any siblings?) yeah, 2 elder brothers. (Will you woo no. 3 - Lim Yuan?) lol. wad a coincidence. >.< don't think so. i'm not a christian to start with. and i'm like her little bro to him. only that im much taller muahaha.

(How about no. 7 - Pei Zhi?)
wth. would u believe in coincidences =.= omggggg. i swear i didnt read the qns beforehand. now u ppl got rubbish to tok abt again. but in any case, don't think so la. when i master the skills to zi-high then mebbe i can consider lol.

(Is no. 4 - De Ren - single?)
um for now i guess yes. but girls got an absolute attraction to him that's for sure. why, just ytd i saw him sharing a stingray with 3 gals lol. shi xing fu de. LOL. =D

(What's the surname of no. 5 - Pei Shan?)
Lim (is this to clarify any confusion between the 2 peishans i know? -.-)

(What's the name of no. 10 - Dun Jie?)
Ang Dun Jie? another weird qn lol.

(What's the hobby of no. 4 - De Ren?)
well if u asked me a wk ago i wont really have an answer. but in this week it's kinda obvious to everyone. ULTIMATE CAM-WHORING haha. the photo montage specially made for deren on the class blog speaks for itself haha.

(Do no. 5 - Pei Shan - and 9 - Yong Xian - get along well?)
haha very well indeed.

(Where is no. 2 - Wee Chern - studying at?)
hci loh haha. thankfully i saw the word "at". if not i might just plunge into another list of stuff he's studied. (k la k la haha dont niao u liao wee chern =D juz kidding)

(Say something casual about no. 1 - Chun Kang)
the guy who dots me every single day without fail.

(Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8 - Kwang Guan?)
LOL. i think wee chern will be a more suitable candidate. i gladly give kg up to wee chern =)

(Where does no. 9 - Yong Xian - live?)
haha jurong.

(What color does no. 4 - Deren - like?)
ehh. im not too sure haha. but he's got a pink pen. so i'm going to say... i dunno! (lol ultra random)

(Are no. 5 - Pei Shan - and 1 - Chun Kang - best friends?)
hmm they are classmates, so that could be a possibility i guess. mebbe give them a couple more years haha.

(Does no. 7 - Pei Zhi - like no. 2 - Wee Chern?)
hmm... i'm not sure lol. after all they are angel and mortal... and u heard of those chinese fantasy stories where the fairy/angel (in this case weechern) falls for a mortal. ok la i dont think so. lolx.

(How did you get to know no. 2 - Wee Chern?)
haha same class in JC! another of my gd frens (so can afford to niao lol). but the first time ever i got to know him was on the plane back from NZ during sec 4 annual camp. he was sitting next to me! (but i never knew it was him until i recognised the mustache when we got into 6D)

(Does no. 1 - Chun Kang - have any pets?)
haha just a lot of his beloved fishes.

(Is no. 7 - Peizhi - the sexiest person in the world?)
haha no comments

ahh. that's the end of it. and ytd bbq was fun! i love simply sitting in a circle and chatting haha. I LOVE 06S6D!!!!!!! =D =D =D ok random comment lol.

2007-08-12T17:14:00.002+08:00

just finished reading the 5th of the books (or rather the incomplete ones) on the website that wenjie sent many ppl via email some time ago. the first, I Believe You kinda caught my attention, so i went on reading the rest. on to Destiny's Cries, then Journey, then A Photogenic Life, and lastly You are Here, which i spent 2 hours reading the 31 free chapters despite waking up at crazy hours of 3pm (i dunno wads wrong with me. i didnt exactly sleep very late last night).

and there's chem test tml. so basically im quite screwed yeah. with less than 6 hours left for anything and everything.

but in any case, had a really enjoyable time reading those stories over the span of the past month or so, and it's proven to be really fulfilling. ok ppl may find the stories cheesy or lame or wad, chanel handbags but to me they are good stories, so that's that. so others can go abt being cynical and not enjoying the stories, but as long as i do when i read them, it's a good read. yep haha.

posting the link here to whoever might be interested. and thx wj for telling me abt it! (despite some other personal reasons =P)

http://www.goodybooks.com/books_yah.htm

plus the singapore context makes it all a more enjoyable read. kinda got me hooked to local fiction now haha. makes the whole story closer to u i guess.

yup. thou/thy/thee shall begin thou/thy/thee work now.

2007-08-10T23:45:00.001+08:00

AH. haven't got the chance to blog for agessssssssssssss. and mostly cos i nth to blog. but haha within this short span of <1 week, had a quite happening time. hmm let's begin with last sat. was stoning at home with nth do. havent gone out for 2-3 wks bah i guess. then wj asked on msn to go out eat sushi. of cos jumped at the chance lol. so met up with wensi cheejia yushan peishan wenjie at tanjong pagar for teatime sushi buffet and sakae. was ultra late cos of some weird reason or another, mrt trains leaving from boon lay heading to pasir ris was totally packed and full by the time it reached clementi where i boarded. which meant abt wad... 4 stops? strange. anyway haha had vouchers! so paid quite little for a buffet =) will burn a mega hole in my pocket without the vouchers. ordered loads of salmon sushi, side orders like hotate, kakiage, chawanmushi, pan fried dumplings, handrolls, fried tofu etcetc. haha ate so much until it kinda covered my lunch+dinner liao lol. mega filling. after that headed to bugis to shop at bugis village! haha contrary to the weird situation with clementi mrt, this time is weird cos there was quite little human traffic for a wkend. so had quite a pleasant shopping trip. the girls aimed to get something red to wear for ndp, but in the end no one really bought much haha. i think only yushan got a tee and wensi collected her bag. after that went back to bugis junction to buy sweet talk and walk around. then slowly, wensi left for her other appointments, and yushan and cheejia went back as they were tired. so just left me wj and ps. went arcade to play for a while. wj got tempted by the machines there! haha, i mean the kind where u scoop sweets and use the sweets to push stuff into ur pocket. there was this one which the jackpot was very close, so wj gave it a try haha. but it guess it's damn hard de la. oh btw, it was a mushroom plushie! so i guess wj doesnt hate mushrooms that much? lolz. after that got glued to ppl playing the game right at the entrance of the arcade - *drumroll* Manic- Panic- Ghosts! haha it's basically this quite interesting game where u got this "wand" which u can use for various functions like turn wheels, drag stuff, hit bad ghosts, and shake to charge it up. so 2 players can play to pass 6 rounds before defeating the boss, then every round u get 2-choose-1. so u can take ur pick out of the 2 which one u'll prefer. we took turns to play, and it's super tiring haha. 3 ppl already liddat. can u imagine just 2 ppl throughout. by round 4 will die liao haha. but in any case quite fun la lol. tue after school went with wenjie peishan dunjie limyuan kevin ruiyuan to plaza sing to catch simpsons movie. haha at first didnt want to watch cos totally dunno anythnig abt simpsons since i never ever caught them on tv before. but it turned out to be quite good! haha. very dumb yet funny lol. not bad la i guess =) bought chao duo food before going in lol. went daiso to get caramel corn (super nice! limyuan has been bringing that to school for us to tou1 chi1 during lecture =D but i dunno what happened to the packet that i brought back. i strongly suspect it has been devoured by someone in my family lol), then went carrefour for drinks, and lastly to breadtalk for bread. bought this 10 items mini-pastries things and shared with wenjie and limyuan. wed had nat day celebrations, louis vuitton handbags followed by going east coast park after that. haha a very successful class outing i must say. grand total of 18 ppl went! plus kevin who joined us for lunch at marine parade food centre but had something on after that. so after taking 48 from adam food centre and a longlong while later, we finally alighted at parkway parade/marine parade food centre. lol new territory for me, hardly been to the east side before. split into 2 groups for lunch, some at parkway foodcourt and some at marine parade food centre. after that headed for the underpass which brought us to ecp. joined up with those who weren't with us earlier, leading to our 18 strong cycling squad haha. zhiyong deren chunkang yushan cheejia puayhian wensheu peishan yongxian ruiyuan wenjie weechern me kwangguan pengsing weichung yida wensi. as i STILL dunno how to ride a bike, took double bike with chunkang. wenjie double biked with peishan and yushan double biked with cheejia. all the rest took singles. haha cycling was as fun as usual. being at the back that is. me and ck encountered some problems with our speed due to some gearing problems, and the chain came off like 2-3 times even. so we were at the back in the beginning. but slowly we got our momentum going and kinda knew how to double bike together liao. haha so slowly got to catch up. haha i think we were really quite hiong la haha. rented the bikes for abt 4hrs and we were abt half an hour late in returning. so our whole journey was 4.5 hrs long, with breaks, rests, and of cos not to forget, picture taking moments lol. felt some sense of achievement i must say. cycled from one end of ecp to the other end, then out onto the main road along the changi airport runway, and on to changi village. and chionged all the way back. haha at the end of it everyone butt chao pain lol. my bag was quite black (so was yushan's hello kitty on her bag), our water supply wasnt sufficient and we doubled that by refilling our 4 big mineral bottles with tap water, me ck and all those who helped us in the beginning had grease on their hands due to putting the chain back in place, and my shoes got a hole in them when my foot grazed against some net with metal bars underneath. not to forget turning red and a little sunburnt. but yeah! a fun experience. super exciting lol, but felt dangerous, cos on the road there werent cemented paths, so we had to cycle on the road and the 18 of us, although forming a straight line, kinda took up the whole lane lol. so some inconsiderate vehicles actually came rather near. and there was this part when ck couldnt swerve in time onto the pavement at a turn and for abt 1 min we were against traffic lah! omg. so all the cars were zooming towards us. totally o.O haha. but ck is quite a steady cyclist la lol, after all he's a 70km bike hike veteran ma (or so he claims =P). so quite enjoyed the whole cycling journey. it's pretty fun to sing along together when we got nth to do on the way haha. all the 1,2,3,go whenever we stopped and were abt to restart. and taking turns to pedal harder. saw quite a few planes take off too! haha. super loud. oh how can we all forget the monitor lizard! haha. SUPER DUA. after the tiring and long journey yet feeling a sense of achievement, went to the beach to feel the sea breeze. all i can say is, i finally felt it. dunno when was the last time i've been to the seaside, with the wind blowing and sea splashing. pity we didnt have more time, or we could sit around even. or take off our shoes and get into the water. ahh. should learn to cycle. pretty fun. but i think double bikes are really more fun haha. minus the fun from the speeding and tricks, but add lots of fun with the chatting along the way, as well as the singing! haha. thu was nat day! woke up late and not really knowing wad to do. parents just saw my bt2 results, and i was out for the whole day on wed, so wasnt really ready to ask to go out for the whole day at yushan's house. so decided to join ruiyuan zhiyong kwangguan wenjie peishan pengsing dunjie yida to go watch fireworks near marina. couldnt leave too early cos of the results issue, so was quite late when i got to city hall. was supposed to meet kg at citylink mall and going to join the rest who were already there. but the crowd was imba. i think it's more than twice the number of ppl in citylink mall on a weekend (that's sat + sun). so after sometime met up and headed for esplanade admist the imba crowd. finally got to taste my first breath of fresh air after coming up from the esplanade exit to be hit by another wave of ppl. crowds and crowds of ppl on the padang with a big screen and djs from 88.3 and power 98. crowds of ppl with mats and food (akin to a picnic) in esplanade park. tons of ppl hanging around on the sides of the bridges and highways. even more along the way to our destination, which was originally merlion park, but shifted to beside one fullerton cos merlion park was so full until it was barricaded. and me and kg walked a good 45 min before we reached opposite of our destination. but the police blocked off the way to cross to the other side. so had to squeeze in the crowd further down before making a u-turn back on the opposite side of the road. climbed to the 2nd level of hitachi tower thinking there could be a overhead bridge to bring us across, but it was futile. continued on our way down hitachi tower and walked on. a crowd of ppl disobeyed the traffic police and ran across the road at a bend instead of at a traffic light further down and we just followed lol. finally got to the other side of the road before we realised we should get our own food before heading there. so ironically, we went back to the same side of the road we've been earlier via the traffic light we were supposed to cross at. walked on further down to lau pat sat to get some dinner before finally (and i mean FINALLY), reaching our final destination, area next to one fullerton. by that time it was also barricaded off. but thanks to those who were inside already, the police let me kg pengsing zhiyong in. to the protests of many who have been waiting there lol. i didnt stay there for long, but pengsing said apparently the ppl there were so agitated and frustrated that they were scolding ppl for pushing and all. so finally got in and had a quite nice spot to sit. had dinner and played heart attack. chatted and took quite a lot of random pix haha. stood up to look when helicopters and planes flew past, as part of the ndp performance. it was quite a good view, could see the floating platform. oh yeah, saw this bunch of ships with floating "jellyfishes" which lighted up as they headed towards the floating platform. they just went by where we were haha. at last, the finale and wad we were there for came. FIREWORKS! and wah they were super nice. and really really close haha. really pretty. and colourful haha. though the smoke in the air after that a bit imba lol. hard to use words to describe haha, but they are just really really nice. left the area after the fireworks (1st and 2nd round), and walked along singapore river. came upon minds cafe, and we just spontaneously decided to go in and play! haha. so yup, took the 2 hr package that came with food and drinks. the food not bad haha, got popcorn, black pepper crackers, drumlets, cheese morsels, calamari rings, wedges. and i ordered coffee float for my drink which like lasted me till 5am last night! hahaha. played quite a lot of group funny games haha. like one which had to do with making animal noises, gift trap, banana slap, monkeys and sticks which have to be drawn out, and i cant rmb liao haha. ended abt 11. headed to clarke quay mrt and i took the same way i did that time i was lost after the grand seniors outing. i have to figure out how the 174 and 961 there work so can devise more ways to get home lol. haha time really flies. more than half of the nat day long weekend gone liao. left with the wkend. must try to make do with it! nth else to look forward to till teacher's day. and im so not going to look forward to that cos it's when prelims begin >.<

been blogging for super long liao, so i lazy to put up pix. mebbe tml bah haha. meanwhile u could see them on the class blog link. alright i just blogged for 2 hrs haha. blogging seriously takes up a lot of time lol.

2007-08-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

an old song by kenji wu. but only got to listen to it recently. i find it pretty nice.

吴克群 - 圣诞分手节

我的手搭着你的肩
你的心愈来愈远
背对着背
分手那一天
记得是圣诞节

你的笑现在面对谁
脑子里重覆画面
嘴角上扬甜蜜的曲线
能够将人撕裂

我一个人向前
又后退再一遍
像跳舞般
旋转着自己的眼泪
我被分解
圣诞节不是我的节
是分手节

我的脚走到你门前
手知道按铃不对
眼看时间跨过你门前
又到了圣诞节

我的手放在我胸前
心在跳痛有一点
想念时针一点
多一点它逼着我后退

我一个人向前
又后退再一遍
像跳舞般
旋转着自己的眼泪
我被分解
圣诞节不是我的节

街上的人成双
又成对走直线
一个人在回忆里
想着你绕圈
我被撕裂
一个人不过圣诞节

圣诞节分手节
一个人过圣诞
怎么快乐
我过我的分手节~

我一个人向前
又后退再一遍
像跳舞般
旋转着自己的眼泪
我被分解
圣诞节不是我的节

街上的人成双
又成对走直线
一个人在回忆里
想着你绕圈
我被撕裂
一个人不过圣诞节
过分手节

i think it's pretty cool. a sad song with a happy melody. helps to account for sometimes where u get mixed emotions yeah?

2007-07-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

林俊杰 - 大男人小女孩

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
水也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

也许大男人没那么男人
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

2007-07-31T20:40:00.001+08:00

haha life after qing gong yan has been rather boring. so dont really have much to say la. btw, prelims are just around the corner, so i guess it's time to start mugging.

soon.

recently i have no idea why, but on some classmates' blogs and class blogs there have been tags on miss each other. haha cos of that i cant help but think, our jc lives are really coming to an end le. yes, although there are like a few more months to go, with 2 more major (and i really mean MAJOR) exams to handle and mug for, but the time to really have fun and enjoy our times together as one class is really coming to an end le.

haha i don't want it to end so soon! 2 years fly by like anything. and i really mean fly. in the blink of an eye, it's coming to an end le. at the back of my mind, i still have vivid images of the numerous outings we had, from movie outings to house visits to parties haha. 06S6D was a whole lot of fun. indeed.

but let's not all get teary-eyed so soon! there's still some time left haha. so we must cherish wadeva time we have left as a class, going from lectures to tutorials, then to lectures, and to more tutorials. staying after school, stoning at the class benches. chanel handbags all these things that used to be mundane and boring to us, somehow makes me so tempted to go through the whole routine once again. how i wish time can turn back haha.

but yeah, must make good use of the remaining days we have together (lol sounds like we gonna leave each other for good liddat). in the face of prelims, hopefully we can have one last really nice/fun outing during the national day week. hopefully everyone dont pangseh and go for this one outing we can have before the mugging and studying occupies our time 24/7.

so yeah, everyone dont emo yet! lol. enjoy the remaining one month we have! =))

2007-07-22T23:46:00.001+08:00

there. after holding it back like 3 times in the past two weeks, i can't control it anymore. and just let it go. seriously, i dunno why i havent done it the first time. all the wrong times perhaps. and now is the right time. mebbe thats why.

and i thought i was ok. apparently not. and although i tell myself it seems to get better day after day, i think in actual fact it is getting worse and worse. thought to myself that i found out all the reasons causing my unhappiness, but seems that i havent found them all. feeling ups and downs, but not knowing the reason why. this time i'm totally clueless.

need some quiet time to myself and be alone bah i guess. need a break from all the efforts to smile and trying to pretend everything's alright. i know im not a good actor at all, but i do try. but i doubt i can continue tml. hopefully i still do.

but really amidst all these, yesterday's hcco qing gong yan really made me feel very happy. and i really enjoyed myself. though it may seem like a simple gathering of hcco members, the seniors and juniors, and just turning the whole place into a gambling den liddat (lol), the meaning behind it, at least to me, is great.

haha thanks to tanbo juniors for ur nice gifts, with that very huggable cushion and set of messages from all of u. was reading them on the bus on the way back and felt very gan dong haha. YOU GUYS ROCK! =) hope u like the cds we prepared for u all!

farewell to szuan zhiguang peizhi koymin michelle jielun yanzhi shixian kengwei weishi tingjun. you have been a real fun junior batch and i really enjoyed ur company for these 7 months. time always seem to fly when u are enjoying urself, and goodbye seems to be the hardest word. but still, it has to be said. CYA juniors! MAY THE LEGACY OF HORNY UNITED LAST FOREVER AND EVER!

as for fellow batchmates, u have been a wonderful bunch as well, with quite a number i've known all the way since sec 1. esp tanbo peeps. u all been wonderfully fun to have and i'm gonna miss all the tanbo outings and fun we've had. chanel handbags lionel yuting samuel shouhao chuanhan stella weiquian marilyn zhangxin siewching jiani. u all are really the most ZAI bunch of ppl and i'm really glad to have known you all =D we'll get to come together someday de, i'm sure. hahas.

here's a song from way back since i was in pri sch and we used it for our p6 farewell party. but the lines just seem so apt for this occasion, so here i am writing it out again.

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever)

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[Chorus]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat Chorus]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat Chorus (3x)]

and i was telling myself not to emo abt leaving hcco. lol.

We will still be,
Friends Forever.

goodbye,
HCCO.

2007-07-19T00:25:00.001+08:00

hmm decided to abandon my work and come and blog. had to do something to replace that emo post previously haha.

abt wad i was stressed abt, thought it thru liao. if they dont show concern for u, find ppl who will. if u feel ignored, just go tok to ppl who will talk to u. if life feels meaningless to u, find something to liven it up. i dont think im someone who's hated by loads of ppl (or at least i hope), so im sure ill be able to find ppl i can fall back on even if some friendships dont work out. and it's not that i've fallen out with them or anything, so i have no right to feel upset over it. just... retreat as wad ive done for the 2nd or 3rd time in these 2 years and get on with life with others. i dont want to feel like a parasite anymore. yup, so i guess it's another smart decision gone underway. why torture urself when u cant continue with it. just let go and other friends will be there for u. argh, why do i always get affected over this kind of rubbish. insignificant somemore. it pisses me off when i get so easily influenced by such small matters.

as for the other matter, also felt better abt it liao. if i failed to do it this time, and i know it is to a large extent my own fault, then i have no reason to blame anyone else for it and bear the consequences myself loh. i can always try again when the next opportunity comes along. i shouldnt feel sore abt it just cos others seem to succeed and ride on the skies while im just crawling on the ground like some slow tortoise. they have put in a lot of effort to get their achievements i guess. so i have no rights to complain if i havent felt that i worked hard enough for it. but, it's just scary that there arent many more chances left for me to work hard for.

ah just forget it. i feel better now and let's just leave it at that.

anyway last sat went for grand seniors outing at clarke quay. j1s had jielun shixian szuan and michelle, j2s had lionel shouhao samuel tan and me. seniors had quite a lot, weijie grace luoling xiquan jingyi jiawen weizhi nicholas kaixiang, ranging from 01-07 in total. 6 years of snrs/jnrs. kewl haha. so we went fisherman's wharf for dinner. basically they only sold fish and chips, with several kinds of fishes and 2 types of chips, chips or fries haha. we ordered the cheapest one la, and it tasted gd enough already. nt bad, i would say. might go back again. the ambience also quite nice la, whirring fans, wooden tables and chairs, and a huge oil painting of fishermen fishing on the walls as wallpaper.

after that we wanted to go tcc to just chill out and chat, but it was full, so we went to the riverside and sat down in a circle while we waited for tcc's call to inform us of any available seats. shouhao brought his guitar, so we were like listening to him play and form dumb lyrics haha. songs on quite a lot of us la haha, louis vuitton handbags so we kinda got our own song thx to shouhao's ingenious lyric composing. haha. but then again, he kinda showed us how easy it is to make a pop song lol. makes me all the more motivated to learn some guitar man! how cool will that be if i managed to come up with some proper lyrics and with suitable guitar progressions, it'll become a song!

there are quite a lot of pubs around there and one of them had a very good live singer! we walked past that pub quite a lot of times and seriously, all the songs he sing are very nice haha. relaxing too. and there was this pub with tv screens showing lame jokes haha. supposedly dirty, but i didnt understand like half of them. so defeats the purpose lol.

anyway quite a lot of us ordered beverages at tcc. wanted to order some mint frappe, but somehow it never came, so aiya just forget it and save the money. jielun ordered the same thing, so at least i got to try it la haha. tastes kinda good. anyway we were playing zong ji mi ma (somehow our 3rd most fav game following bridge and gei wo tempo, mebbe 4th due to chop chilli), and the forfeits began from truth or dare to simple dare or dare haha. heng i never tio la, didnt know the seniors so hiong haha, was hearing them say how their forfeits included prank calling someone and never telling the person it was a prank. omg that must have been super malu. but thankfully we didnt have that. but the seniors really good sports la haha, like how kaixiang and xiquan passed a small cookie by mouth with like 7-8 phones taking their videos. then we will have this 5 min interval between each forfeit where we will be bluetoothing each other the better quality videos. haha. the forfeits even included kissing lah! haha samuel should know wad i mean =P.

anyway it was quite late and i didnt know how to get back cos weirdly, i saw 961 to kallang on one side of the bus stop, but when i went over to the other side, no 961 in the list of buses >.<. so i totally tikum my way home, by taking some bus that will supposedly bring me to litle india station, 166 or 851. so i boarded 851. but along the way, i saw 166 turn in another direction la! so i was like omg, the bus routes not accurate one. but thankfully 851 went by bugis and stopped at the bus stop i always take from bugis! and i took wad i think is the last or 2nd last 170 cos it was 12am and the last bus was supposedly at 12:10. yeah so super tyco. i thot i had to spend the $$ i saved from not drinking the mint frappe on taxi home la. whew.

***

the class is somehow quite tense recently. lots of things happening and all. so much so that i dunno wad exactly is going on and wad i can do abt it anymore. just hope the tension can ease and things can go back to normal (to some extent). looking back at how much fun our class had last year, i really wish that time can turn backwards and we can all go back to how we were like last year, all the fun and laughter. simply enjoying life haha. but i guess that's impossible.

things can never go back to the way it used to be.

still i hope everything will turn out ok. hate to see the class in such a state.

2007-07-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucking stressed out i dunno how to handle it anymore.

and it's damn irritating, cos im just getting frustrated over a bunch of the most insignificant things. the most trivial and minor ones.

but somehow they combine to have such a big impact on me.

i hate that.

and everyday i just hang around like a zombie. no mood for anything.

wtf.

i dunno how long more i can last.

wadever man, just take it one step at a time.

and if just one day, i snap, then i guess that's too bad.

it's just too bad.

2007-07-13T22:10:00.001+08:00

havent blogged for some time. shall do so since it's the wkend haha.

hmm mon was the last prac for CO le. my last prac for hcco. haha after that the whole bunch of us went to kap for CO dinner. omg la i think there were like 40 ppl min? cool lol. i never had such a big bunch of ppl storming in to kap b4 lol. sat with quite a gd mix of jnrs and batch mates haha, koymin jielun shixian chuanhan stella weixin jiangchuan etcetc. we practically like open gambling den liddat, abt 3-4 tables of bridge haha, until they stopped us and chased us out. sian-ed.

then tue was the syf showcase. went with sam stella chuanhan to chuanhan's house to get her performance attire before going bukit batok kopitiam for lunch and buy cake for peizhi's bdae. omg la i ate CHAO duo. crazy one. plate of cai4 fan4, curry puff, prima deli waffle, fried rice (for dinner) and the cake that day. imba =.= all samuel tan's fault for tempting me lol.

after that went to SCH. had a fun time listening to yanzhi's ipod and all his chn songs. now then i know he was such an avid chn song listener! lol. shall ask him for all the new songs liao. he knows like songs that i have never heard b4 lah haha. then hurried to the tuning room cos we were late, prac a bit there, then somehow after lots of rushing up and downstairs, we were suddenly at the foyer waiting to go in liao. they like making a fool out of us liddat, keepy making us go up and down. anyway after the 1st 2 performances, our turn le loh.

i thought the song went fine. we always seem to be able to do it. screw up all the way until the actual thing, where everything will go ok and we will shine on stage haha. i think the last note of that night will always be embedded in my heart. the resounding gong which we didnt get to use during syf cos of time limit. so whoever who was at the syf showcase that night, i think u all got a treat haha. cos it was damn shiok to end the song with that note. a note that signifies the end of the song, the end of our participation in syf, the end of our membership of hcco and "promoting" to alumni, and for quite a lot of us, the END OF CO IN OUR LIVES.

so i would say it's a damn gd note to end our co life with. the long resounding echo of the gong ringing in the concert hall after we have played our last note, signifying that even though we've stopped being in CO physically, our passion and love for it will be like the resounding echo, always continuing and lasting. haha ok im getting a bit carried away here. anyway, went back to mph via the bus and quite nice to see all the pipa ppl coming together to play a song haha. i think it's really super nice, like so united and having fun playing together liddat. a bit regret ruan didnt do that also haha. stoned super long outside mph cos the key was with andrea who was in the combined CO performance. but might as well, cos quite a lot of us took a lot of photos, as perfect memories to take away with us in this last HCCO performance we will be involved with. then after that went in and packed and ppl started leaving. so we had to say our last goodbyes to MPH haha. somewhere where i spent my 4 sec sch years in, followed by another year in j2 when we moved over from lt3. somewhere we can really call our home cos we can never feel this sense of belonging if we were to stay in lt3.

CO life. coming to a hiatus at least, if not the end for quite a lot of us liao. hopefully i'll pick it up again thru some avenue or another, and not let all my efforts spent in this 9 years go to waste. it's hard to let go of something u've been with since p4. and i think for some even longer than that. gdbye to HCCO haha. but shall only say our last goodbyes during qing gong yan, which is really the last event we'll take part as hcco members.

thur had ns checkup. went with sam and ryan. went there early only to find out it only promptly starts at 1 -.-. so had to stone at reception area. just chat and tok cok loh lol. waited super long at the medicial examination also. like the number to see the doctor permanently wont change one la. we knew cos we were 2nd 3rd and 4th, then even the 1st guy havent go in. the comp test really take super long. chanel handbags and i think i totally fail lol, didnt complete a lot of sections. haha but got something damn funny. i was doing the speed test (which was damn easy and quite fun la haha), when some guy a few comps away from me suddenly ask, "u ALSO anyhow press one ah?" lol. and apparently he really anyhow press la cos he started later than me and he completed when i was at the 5th-6th test? lmao.

after that went to botak jones with sam while ryan went for caregrp. haha apparently he finds it nice too, cos we both finished our food lol =D. but felt mega full after that haha. so decided to exercise lol. rest awhile at his house before going to play badminton. haha my skills now cmi liao. i like damn weak la, hardly get it across to the other side of the court. and now my left arm hurts lawl. like pain when i clench my fist. >.<

today went with wenjie peishan pengsing dunjie to plaza sing to watch transformers (ok la a bit lag, but at least we caught it can?). haha wad can i say, it's just super nice lah. way way way better than i expected it to be. and the robots look really genuine haha. and the transforming animation super cool. it's just a v nice movie la, totally dont regret watching it. kk now harry potter is next up on the list...

more results coming back. guess bt2 results are quite fixed liao la. around there le. nth much i can do abt it anymore. just gotta buck up for prelims i guess.

2007-07-05T23:08:00.000+08:00

vexed.

actually i also dont really have any idea why so. just feeling down cos of these few days. cos of sch reopening? cos of having showcase and not feeling like catching up with school work after going home late each night? or cos of results? i dont even have an idea.

guess sad song therapy's up for tuning in to tonight.

my mum is already like asking me abt getting ready for prelims. after i told her how badly im going to screw up for this block test. why dont i feel any sense of urgency? and now due to having cca everyday, i just slack the night away after coming back. just lack the motivation to do any work. totally.

i know it's stupid to blog abt this. but i have like no other avenues to rant liao. then as i look back at my jc life, i think i practically have no achievements these 2 years. just this plain ordinary guy. any tom dick harry u can pick in hwachong. oh scratch that, i bet anyone u pick in the school will have like more achievements than me.

and looking at that, i wonder wad use will i be of if i screw up my results even. then ill be like nothing at all. this useless failure. and hey u know wad? i am screwing up very badly for blocks. like seriously dead.

and at the end of these 2 years. ill like have totally nothing. nothing like in records or anything official. plus a screwed A-level cert. hah. that'll be me. someone who totally screwed up his jc life by not working hard or attempting to participate in more stuff.

oh crap. im starting to rant like rubbish. this is a stupid post. just pretend u have never read it. i think ill take it off after i feel better.

(i think it's just a case of zibei-ing over my results. i prepared to see none of my subjects having more than 20 percentile.)

btw, listening to this song recently. quite nice to listen to tonight.

王力宏-落叶归根

举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走

日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾

命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底

喔～远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

举头望无尽灰云
那季节叫做寂寞
背包塞满了家用
路就这样开始走

日不见太阳的暖
夜不见月光的蓝
不得不选择寒冷的开始
留下只拥有遗憾

命运的安排
遵守自然的逻辑
谁都无法揭谜底

喔～远离家乡不甚唏嘘
幻化成秋夜
而我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

但愿陪你找回
所遗失的永恒
当我开口你却沈默
只剩一场梦

我却像落叶归根
坠在你心间
几分忧郁几分孤单
都心甘情愿
我的爱像落叶归根
家唯独在你身边

2007-06-30T21:33:00.001+08:00

havent been blogging for sometime liaoz. too many things have happened in the course of 2 wks, so shall cut it short bah haha.

celebrated ryan's bdae at sentosa on the 15th. wah i think it was really fun haha. bought some june holiday deal, so got to visit some attractions at a discounted price. like 4d magix theatre, my first time there haha. quite interesting la, not only with 3-d effects visually, it also enhances ur enjoyment of the short film with sense of hearing and touch. like can actually feel the wind, and water splashes, and rustling at ur feet when surrounded by "crabs". the carlsberg tower, although nothing much in terms of enjoyment, allows u to view the whole of sentosa top down, and even some parts of mainland singapore. it's a nice scenic ride where u can have a gd chat with ur frens i guess haha. also, went to visit the butterfly park. initally thot it will be very boring and nth to do, but when we got in, haha we got all excited by the different kind of butterflies flying above our head la. the butterflies are super tame, and samuel got to take a lot of their pix close up. and they fly really close to u haha.

also, got to ride a double bike with ryan in the afternoon, while sam rode the single one. lol although in the end i still cant ride a bike by myself, im a super cooperative double biker lol. ryan and samuel tried to double bike but they just couldnt get it lol. but when i got on the double bike with either one of them, can liao. haha. but still, i promise myself i shall learn how to ride a bike someday! it's really nice to ride a bike along the cycling routes in sentosa, especially those along the beaches. then just rest the bikes at one corner, look at the sea. haha.

after all the attractions, at night went to watch songs of the sea. wah that one imba nice. it's seriously the thing that made the day. like this uber cool water/light/fire display following a simple plot. i really dunno how to describe loh lol. shall post some pix when sam sends me. then u all can see for urself liao. louis vuitton handbags super nice. then went back to mainland and went plaza sing to eat cafe cartel. lol i addicted to cafe cartel. start to like it a lot now. haha.

hmm, and that followed by study camp at yushan's house from sun to thur lol. at first just wanted to stay for 2 nights, then became 3, then became 4. haha. but it was really really fun. thanks to yushan who let us stay there!! haha had loads of fun with puayhian, yongxian, deren, wensi, yushan, weichung, and wensheu who joined us for 1 day.

eating at all sorts of places at serangoon gardens, from chomp chomp (nice chicken wings, and hokkien mee on the first night!) to roti prata, to chicken rice, to some boursh restaurant, even to sushi tei which yushan has so kindly treated us! haha my first time to sushi tei la, then got to try all the new kinds of food haha, like unagi don, hotate, soba. then also got sushi, sashimi. for dessert, we tried different kinds, like strawberry (icecream stuffed in frozen strawberries) , mochi (green tea flavour i think), and we were all making fun of weichung's ice balls (super colourful one haha).

rented movies like music and lyrics (the soundtracks are really nice haha. pop goes my heart is stuck in my head liao >.<), accepted (abt a high school student who could not get accepted into any college forming one of his own and accidentally enrolling a whole bunch of new freshmen. now he really has to run this fake school), and take the lead (a classical dance teacher heads to a school full of delinquents and attempts to teach this group of students who are prone to their hip-hop dancing, and eventually taking them to take part in the annual ballroom competition). out of the 3, i thought music and lyrics was the best haha. abt a has-been pop star getting the chance to duet a song with the hottest pop star around now and needing to come out with a song, and having to find a suitable lyricist to complete the song. happy ending in the end =D playing bastard daidee, 2 tables of bridge the day all 8 of us were around, dota/audition on the comp. having nice chats and random tok cok sessions. taking turns to try the massage chair rofl. eating loads of sweets and tidbits. playing with muffin and richter (yushan's super guai dogs) and of cos the main agenda (but it didnt really prove to be so lmao), MUGGING. seriously, "FUN" cannot describe how i enjoyed those 4 days =)) STUDY CAMP ROCKS!!! yeah, back to reality. blocks is almost over, abt 80-90%. as expected, i think i screwed it big time. as in seriously. i may really do worse than last yr's blocks (which was horrendous). like getting E S S U U this time. omggg i really hope i get at least S for all my subjects >.<. now left with one more physics paper 3 to go. but i seriously not in the mood to mug for it leh. already chao holiday/post-blocks mood liao. reality check 2. im sick. as in literally >.<>.< then today see doc, feeling better liao. gonna have an early rest and hopefully will full recover by tml. yupyup. urgh, worst time to fall sick la. sick until cannot study for phy paper 3, then have to go take cos ill have recovered by then. wad the hell =.= (but then again, it's not like ill really go mug so soon for it. haha.) yeah that's all. i finally updated >.

2007-06-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett - Way Back Into Love (Music and Lyrics Soundtrack)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh

watched this movie at yushan's house during the mega long stayover. shall blog abt it soon. it's a super nice show! haha =D makes the song a lot more nicer and meaningful i think hehe.

2007-06-14T22:44:00.001+08:00

wahaha ok im like a html genius lol. i finally got my blog fixed! woohoo haha. not pixel pixel kind somemore haha. damn proud of myself lol.

ok anyway havent blogged for like super long, cos have been going out nonstop >.< gg lahh. anyway sun went klunch with wensi sam ph and wensi's friend dorothy at marina square. for 5 ppl, we got a huge room! lol. the first time i actually need to use the mike haha. so can properly echo around the room! haha quite fun i would say. esp the spamming of all the duets! lol. sang jian ao for like the first time haha. then still got lian ai ping lv, i still believe, liang shan bo yu zhu li ye, shan hu hai, bei feng chui guo de xia tian, ai de zhu xuan lv, dui ni you gan jue, even the imba shin and dai ai ling's qian nian zhi lian. rofl. after that went to play around in marina square arcade. bishi-bashing as usual haha. but this time have to keep up the reputation a bit, cos bishibashi god and goddess aka sam and wensi are around! lol. but the machine was on imba hard mode, even my best game insatiable appetite only won by like 0.7 sec. 6.74 vs 7.48 i think. then met kg deren at wisma atria with puayhian. decided to go food republic to eat. had the famous hokkien mee that amk hub has also. the one that kg and ruiyuan ate at amk hub that day. then wensheu joined us, before going to eat teppanyaki with pengsing over another corner of food republic. so the 6 headed for barnone at marriott hotel for the charity event some ppl from the school organised. thereafter, yongxian weichung yushan, wensi and her friends all came along too. haha like mini class outing like that, but with more different ppl for a change i guess haha. the event wasnt too bad, at least for the lucky few (including us) who got seats. i mean apparently the pub can hold capacity of 300, and 600 were printed. then when we finally got to see it for ourselves, the only way to get 300 in there is when like nobody can move an inch. lol. so it's no wonder how crowded it was. anyway since we were the last few to get seats, had to camp quite near the stage. which isnt exactly a good thing. cos the music was IMBA loud, and from my seat, i could only see the lead singer. i think i was sitting right next to the speaker >.< some bands were quite nice i think. and quite cool to have drinks and listen to bands perform, just chill out for one night. there was a 1-for-1 offer for some alcoholic drinks, so we went to buy haha. crazy prices la, if it wasnt 1-for-1. $19 for a martini. =.= me and deren shared one lychee martini, so only had to pay 1/4 the price haha. tastes pretty nice too, not so strong alcohol taste. and other times, we were just sipping coke or sprite from these mini straws lol. it's so small that when u drink from it, the soft drink makes ur throat hurt lol. like directly hit the back of ur throat liddat. after the barnone thing, we got this crazy idea to stay over at yushan's house! omg it was mega impromptu and random. seriously hor, i can never doubt the spontaneity of our class la >.< say go then really go liao hahaha. wensi went to stay over with her friends, pengsing went off early. then the rest of us went to the thomson roti prata house for supper before kg and wensheu left and the rest of us went yushan's house. aka yongxian weichung puayhian deren me. and of cos yushan lol. louis vuitton handbags camped at the tv there wanted to watch some movie, then didnt find any show nice. deren wanted to watch inconvenient truth, so we and yongxian went to play audi hahaa. after the show ended, deren yushan puayhian came over to play dota, then me weichung yongxian played bridge with whoever of the 3 was not playing at that time. just round after round after round of bridge lol. i guess we played 30 games mebbe. lol. then play until like 5+ we already like not alert liao lol, just anyhow zam and win sets. not caring who is whose partner liao lol. 6+, yushan's neighbour's rooster start to crow liao lol. went sofa slept for a while before waking up for breakfast, washup a bit, and off to stj. monday morning liao. reached city hall chao early, only to realise that instead of the 12.15 written on the blog, it was booked at 1 >.<>.< rofl. ate some roasted chicken with penne and mushrooms, peishan ate the same, wensi and cheejia both took pasta, yushan ate some bacon and sausages, and wenjie's was some ribs with bbq sauce. haha looked super big, but nth compared to the cafe cartel one lol. the only good thing abt it was the wedges haha. not bad. as for my food, thought it was so-so la, but the creaminess really can make ppl bloated. for dessert, wenjie ordered mud pie with icecream and i got a bite haha. i think quite nice la, esp when the warm mudpie mix with the cold icecream. reminds me of the hot-cold combo with swensen's banana crumble.

oh yeah, there's this candy floss machine there lah! i never knew and noticed the numerous times i walked by the place. quite cool lol, so we were all like queuing up and taking the floss with sticks. green apple flavour de haha. wensi got a giant candy floss la! lol. hanged around at marina square's arcade (AGAIN lol) and watch some of them bowl after that. then me ruiyuan peishan and chunkang, who all werent bowling, decided to go suntec carrefour to buy drinks. but along the way, ended up seeing furniture. btw i was the last one standing among the 6 who stayover lah haha. all went back to rest liao. but im no superman, so was quite tired myself. so everytime we stopped, i chiong to the nearest sofa and sat down lol. there was this imba soft sofa haha, we were all saying cannot mug on that sofa one, if not CONFIRM fall asleep lol. once u sit down, dont feel like standing up liao lol.

finally we made our way to carrefour and bought this cheap bottled drink haha. 3 for $1.75. some pear white tea thingy. then the brand was 茶字典. get the pun right? haha. with 查字典. so we were all like lol-ing. then went to the pastry section and we saw cheap cheesecake! haha $2.95 for one whole cake. i went to buy one too. but eat finish liao lol. after that wenjie came to join us after his bowling. seems that kg clarence and sam went to eat dinner back up north haha. ruiyuan went back by bus, and the remaining 4 of us walked back to marina square via millenia walk and i left for the esplanade bus stop while they went back mrt thru citylink. the shuttle service at suntec there was too long queue liao. so took a super long 171 ride. i think got 1+ hr. just meng sleep lol. was chao tired.

tue had kbox (AGAIN lol). but this time was kstudent with juniors! haha. interesting combo of ppl this time round, had huanzi clarence peizhi xinying sam cara benwu kevin jinlei and me. chao interesting lol, even sam cara and kevin who listen more of english songs came too! haha. so got new songs this time round, with quite a number of english ones. but some of the mv really cmi haha. looks like we should really stick to chn songs in kbox. experienced benwu's imbaness as usual, esp with his zhang xue you songs. and guess my jideai with clarence wasnt that bad hahaha. a pity kelvin didnt come though, cos he had harmoc.

my finances draining to the very last drop liao lah. had to squeeze out that last few drops to go for ocip outing on wed at holland v settler's cafe. quite a lot went la haha, so not bad quite fun. had peishan xinyi elaine yuntian xinwei yushan maodun algernon mingren jianmin kaiern and me. when i arrived, they were already playing something, but i didnt catch wad it was lol, abt geniuses and idiots de haha. followed by taboo, which i think was not bad la. then as some ppl's food came, the gaming came to a stop, and those who didnt eat (yet) played monopoly. elaine xinwei yuntian yushan me. but haha stomachs start growling liao, so we ordered lunch too, and we were playing taboo over lunch haha. i thot that was really fun haha. elaine and yushan describing, me yuntian guessing, then switchover. i think we guessed abt 80 words?

while the 4 of us were playing, the other 8 were playing other games after their lunch too. but one i could rmb the clearest was jurassic rumble, which i played b4 with class ppl the other time we went. tihnk it was with ruiyuan wenjie cheejia peishan etc. haha damn fun game haha. but we werent playing that. instead played niagara falls, with gems and canoes and disks which will fall off the falls to signify flowing water down the waterfall. if the canoe goes down, then gg to the boat haha. have to spend gems to get it back on shore. then still got weather to affect the flow of the water. something along those lines la. then ended the day with jungle speed which everyone played. haha something abt shape matching and other cards to influence the gameplay, like colour mode, everyone put down at the same time instead of one by one, or all grabbing the stick in the middle to put their discard pile underneath. then haha damn funny for those who never see the pic properly and anyhow grab the stick in the middle. cos the penalty was to take all the cards on the table lmao. so mingren and maodun had like super thick deck of cards haha. then those who finished even offered to help them finish the cards. hahaha. but quite fun la i thot. this kind of brainless game. but not THAT dumb de la.

hmm been playing A LOT A LOT A LOT this hols. really time to settle down and properly mug liao. yushan's family going overseas, so she'll be alone at home. then quite a lot of ppl expressed interest in going her house for study camp lol. deren, puayhian, yongxian etc. haha sounds fun but i doubt i will be able to stay. mebbe can just go in the day bah..

meanwhile, I MUST START TO MUG LIAOOOOOO!

2007-06-07T02:41:00.002+08:00

NODAME CANTABILE.

ahhhh. i truly truly love this show. such a pity that i've finished watching it le =(. why must it be only 11 episodes! but still, every second i've spent watching that 11 episodes have not been wasted! it's really super nice. especially how everyone has their own differences and characteristics and yet come together to perform for the passion for music. mebbe it shares some similarities to CO, thus i feel for this show haha. cool.

cut-and-paste sypnosis:
Based on the hit comic book by Tomoko Ninomiya, this is a fun-filled quirky romantic story of 2 very opposite people.
Megumi Noda, or “Nodame” is a piano student at Momogaoka College of Music. An extremely talented pianist who wants to be a kindergarten teacher, she prefers playing by ear rather than reading the music score. She is messy and disorganized, chanel handbags takes baths several days apart and loves to eat, sometimes stealing her friend’s lunchbox when it is filled with delicacies.
Shinichi Chiaki, is Momogaoka’s top student. Born into a musical family, he is talented in piano and violin and has secret ambitions to become a conductor. An arrogant multi-lingual perfectionist who once lived abroad in the music capitals of the world as a young boy, he feels mired in Japan because of a childhood phobia.
They meet by accident. Nodame quickly falls in love, but it takes much longer for Chiaki to even begin to appreciate Nodame’s unusual qualities. Their relationship causes them both to develop and grow. Because of Nodame, Chiaki transfers into the Conductor Division, leads a student orchestra and begins to have a broader appreciation of people's musical abilities. Because of Chiaki, Nodame faces her fears and enters a piano competition. Opportunities open up as both begin taking risks, stretching themselves far more than they ever thought possible.

nodame, chiaki, ryu, masumi, kiyora. S orchestra, A orchestra and Rising Star Orchestra. it's really a super nice show haha. let me learn a lot more abt western classical pieces too haha. beethoven, chopin, mozart, etc. thanks ruiyuan for letting me watch this! only one word to describe this show:

BRAVO! (haha ppl who watched will understand =D)

p.s. screwed up template lol. but aiya wadever, the pics matter more haha.

2007-06-07T02:14:00.001+08:00

it's been a while. slacking non-stop, that's what i've been doing. argh gg liao lahss. omg as im typing now, even blogger is tracking my wrong words >.< oh man when can this world escape from microsoft word. before u know it, msn may be checking for ur typing errors too! gg. heck care abt that. anyway went for get high on fri, guitar on sat and harmoc on mon. hmm get high was better than i expected, i almost didnt want to go after seeing the rehearsals. but hmm i must say, they have really put in a lot of effort into it. so yup, gd job! but the goodie bag hor... would be better if there were nicer stuff >.< guitar was quite interesting haha. went to watch after having dinner with clarence peizhi xinying and dingjia at pizza hut. interesting concept of making a guitar concert into a musical / play / drama kinda thing, with acting and singing involved. haha so good effort! i thought the drama was entertaining enough, hearing laughter at appropriate times. haha not bad. oh and i loved the part when we chained "go weechern!" like 7 times haha. from wenjie, limyuan, me, juniors, and his volleyball mates. super funny i tell u. haha. just chain all the way =D went macs at serene after that for supper with wenjie and limyuan before going back. harmoc was cool too haha. i thought they got interesting emcees. although sometimes the jokes a bit leng, but quite funny haha. the harmoc concert also very cute lol, lots of interesting props, from flowers to balloons to scarves to the shrek headband u can buy at macs now! haha and the big harmoc which plays the bass and chords are super cute la lol. make a very funny sound haha. quite interesting. weiye's duet and kelvin's duet were quite too haha. and they played quite a lot more songs that i knew compared to guitar haha, more chinese i guess. watched with wenjie peishan weechern limyuan's bro clarence huanzi and alvin who was sitting with his bball frens. lim yuan came to join us later too, cos she not performing. haha later wj ps me limyuan and limheem went serence macs (AGAIN) for supper. lol. 2 nights in 3 days. chao unhealthy. >.< tue went mrs leo's house! haha. at sembawang. basically just chilled out at her house, with food drinks and cards lol. a pity the dvd player spoilt, louis vuitton handbags so couldnt watch just follow law. but still we chatted and play cards. oh yeah i was playing daidee with deren sam and max then they got chao fedup with me lol, cos i like won 5 times straight hahaha. imba luck. but yeah my winning streak gone after that. must be because i knew the pizza coming, so let them win de la :P:P:P haha kidding. after that a bunch of us took lessons from teacher xu wei ye, in origami. making roses. wah i tell u is super duper hard. at first still ok, then got cheemer and cheemer. then so many steps somemore. we were all like.. "how long more? why totally dont look like rose de." lol. but finally we did it la haha. so weiye got a lot more roses to her collection! haha. but i like clean forgotten the steps liao. ahh nvm. i will never do such a hard origami also lol. cheemology. after that was dinner at amk hub. we were all totally convinced by ck's wonderful convincing skills to go tiong bahru (where he stays) and were all ready to head there until reality struck us directly when we saw the map. lol! from sembawang to tiong bahru. that's like travel half the red line and CHANGE train to take the green line. a bit inconvenient ah. so we settled for something like more practical, aka amk hub. lawl. 2 times in 2 wks. hohoho. deren ph wensheu weichung ate pepper lunch while wenjie yongxian wenjie weiye me went b2 to buy random food. donuts, veggiecrisps, durian pancakes etc. almost wanted to buy sweettalk also haha. went to join the rest back at pepper lunch b4 going home. today stoning at home most of the day. attempting to play some ruan songs. argh grade 9 is imba hard. why such a big leap in skill de >.< sianzor. somemore my skills like fall way below 8 liaoz. nvm slowly prac. uh yeah ryan asked me out in the afternoon. went funan to collect the free gift for the mp3 player i just bought recently (samsung k3). FINALLY! no worries abt not being able to make it before 10 june (redemption date ends). after that went with him to buy new slippers. firstly went to raffles city, then take mrt to orchard to pacific plaza, then cross the road to far east plaza, before final destination at heeren. haha in the end i bought too. ahhh poor wallet. still, new slippers! lolz. then we went plaza sing's cafe cartel to eat dinner. MY POOR WALLETTTTTTT. but yeah i must admit, u can get full at cafe cartel lol. i ate until i was full lol. nice big portions. i like hoho. had st louis ribs while ryan had black pepper ribs. hmm both are quite nice haha. shiok ah! haha quite nice lah. i seem to forget abt the existence of stj. gg. i need my allowance in advance le lah >.< been slacking for damn long. i also seem to have forgotten abt the existence of blocks >.<

grr. i better get started soon, unless i wanna get myself screwed so badly for bt2.

and i mean really really badly.

argh.

2007-06-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

Spiral -Suiri no Kizuna-. an anime that had been with me for the past week. haha life in the past week was just go out, tv, audition, and spiral! now that it's over, i actually feel a sense of emptiness. the ending also didnt reveal much!

i still have no idea where kiyotaka-san has gone to, or why kanone decided to give up resisting the fate of the Blade Children. kousuke, ryoko, rio, eyes-kun, ayumu, hiyono, madoka. ahhh. im missing the show now already.

anyway what u are hearing now is the ending theme song of the show haha. means i heard it 25 times myself (there's only 25 episodes. mega little. compared to like dunno wad naruto, onepiece, bleach or what-not)! haha. enjoy.

Hysteric Blue - Kakuteru (Cocktail)

kawaita nodo ni nagashi konda amai kaori
kokoro ga tsugi kara tsugi e to afuredasu

sakkaa booru wo zutto oikaketeru you na
ano koro to onaji hitomi de mitsume naide
sannen me no ofisu wa tokku ni nare kitte
kawari ni atashi wa nanika wo nakushitano

kekkon wo bastugeemu mitai ni iu otonatachi
sonnan ja yume sae mirenai kodomo dashi
atashi ga suki ni natta kurai no hito dakara
anata ga eranda kanojo wa kitto suteki

nandatte iiatteta tooi hi no futari
chotto gikochinakatta koi no soudan mo
ima dewa chanto dekiru toshi ni natta

minna shiawase dato iina negau hodo
danna to futari totta hagaki fuete kuru
gonen mae kokoro no soko kara hoshikatta
anata no kodomo ni atashi no omokage wa nai

koi datte yume datte takusan arunoni
kyou datte ato hito oshi ga dekitereba
katei you na iiwake ga muda ni fueta

tsurai koto kanashii koto wo nigetakute
amai kakuteru ni oboretai yoru wa iranai
tsurai koto kanashii koto ni mukiatta
nagai kakutou ni atashi wa mata nigeru

ichinichi ga konna ni nagaku kanjiru no ni
ichinen ga konna ni hayaku sugiteshimau
ichinen wo konna ni hayaku kanjirunoni
isshou wa donna umaku ikirareru deshou

english translation:

the sweet scent that showered my dry throat
my feelings begin to overflow continuously

just like following a soccer ball
don't look at me with that same gaze
I've already gotten used to the third year in office
but what did I lose instead?

the adults who consider marriage as a penalty
and the children who can never dream due to that
because you're someone that I have fallen in love with,
that girl that you have chosen is surely wonderful

the past where we were able to argue about anything
even the slightly uncomfortable discussion of love
can be done properly now, at this age

the more I wish for everyone to be happy
the number of postcards taken with my husband increases
the child that I wanted with you five years ago
has no resemblance of me

I have many love and dreams but
if I could have stepped up a little more
more useless household-like complaints would have been made

wanting to run away from painful and melancholy things
I don't need nights where I must drown in sweet cocktails
facing the painful and melancholy things
I run away once again from the long battle

one day seems to feel very long but
one year passes by very quickly
one year seems to feel very quick but
how well will I be able to live my life?

japanese iris - "the happiness of the believer" in flower language.

"the music of logic will never fail to sing the melody of truth."

spiral roxx.

2007-05-30T23:47:00.001+08:00

haha having a "happening" week so far. after a super boring wkend of just staying at home and zuo bo-ing (ok la, got watch spiral which is damn nice haha. too bad i left with 2 episodes only. so short! i swiped 16 episodes in the weekend i think. thats how bored i was), got to go out continuously for the week so far.

but my finances are facing a horrible crisis now can. >.< wallet burnt a super duper uber big hole liao. broke like anything. i think i wont be able to pay for stj liao. gg. monday had PAE. wah how "fun" 36+33+60+185 mcqs spread across 4 tests. thats um... 314 mcqs? wth lol. i thot the time limit was super tight la, couldnt really finish. but one most interesting thing that struck me was the no. of options lol. i was totally unconvinced when the morning session ppl told me the maths test had options A-P lol. omg la thats like 16 options per question haha. imba mad. but it's seriously true. the 185 qns personality test too. lol. seriously i dunno what are they going to do with all these test results. after that met sam and his classmate li ru to go watch acjc choir. haha at first was qin pei going de, but she couldnt make it. so im taking her place to go haha. it was at esplanade, so not bad haha. quite cool. been a long time since ive been to a concert at esplanade. took 171 to plaza sing for dinner. met jieyee and clarence on the bus too. haha jieyee was damn high la rofl. kept laughing when i asked her abt the 2 tchrs leaving them after term 2, ralph and alwyn. she kept laughing non-stop haha. i shant elaborate why rofl. hahahaha. went ajisen to eat (my poor wallet). hmm i havent really been there often haha, so it was a "new" experience of sorts. ordered the set thing, where a single price for ramen + side + drink. ate terriyaki chicken ramen and soft shell crab. sam ordered some ton toro ramen and almond prawn. li ru ordered paiku ramen and white fish. i thought the food wasnt bad haha, just that my wallet suffered heavy damages after that. if i had the money i wont mind going there again, louis vuitton handbags it's quite nice. so on the acjc choir concert. haha the first choir concert ive watched, and apparently they were quite prestigous. overall i think they were quite good, and sang super well. the conductor damn zai la, the whole course of close to 20 songs thruout the concert, she knows exactly how to conduct and no need to consult any main scores de la! superb memory can. haha i thought those songs that were more interactive were nicer, like those with clapping and stamping, and songs we are more familiar with haha. cos a giant portion of them are either european or japanese, so totally couldnt understand anything. but i guess thats how choirs work, choosing songs of that genre. the programme booklet was nicely made too, its cover has this section where will have some cubish patterns after reflecting light. so it's like can see/can't see liddat. like those changing holograms or something liddat. personally i seriously think the esplanade concert hall damn zai lahs, super nice. i wonder how much it costs to book it for one night. but the turn out was like super good la. as i sat in the circle row, could look down, and seriously, it was rather packed. haha looks like their reputation is really not bad de loh =)) gd job haha. after that went macs in marina square to stone and eat some stuff before sam's dad brought us home haha. tue was dunjie's strings concert at vch. went bugis around afternoon, supposedly to meet yongxian and peishan. but they were up at peishan's house cos she went back to bathe and change after shopping. so i stoned around and waited for puayhian to come. haha then we went arcard and watch ppl play KOF while waiting for deren. b4 deren came, met peishan and yongxian at foodcourt. had dinner when deren came and chiong to vch. cos the flowers at bugis too ex liao, so went to raffles city to buy. while deren and yx went to buy, me ph and ps approached by someone who was an ex-convict. so he was like sharing his story and we bought charity pens from him la. i think it's quite sincere loh, to have these ppl really come out to the streets and help spread the message around. he was still reminding us never to do bad things and end up in his plight when we got to leave. by the time we got to vch, already quite late haha. cos vch a distance away from city hall, and the girls were wearing heels. haha they damn poor thing la, cos had to walk very fast there. basically really chionging, they hurt their feet in the process. yongxian's heels were even bleeding a bit can. from the friction with the shoe. wah we look also know is pain le la. met wenjie who was waiting for us at the gate and went in after the 1st song. i thought the concert was again quite nice la, but the last song a bit long lol. but i loved last round! haha. their syf piece. super zai kind. cos require tons of grp dynamics and unity to bring out that piece well, otherwise it will just be really messy and then not nice le. when done well, i think the effect was chao cool. they didnt play so well the first time, but when they replayed during the encore, haha could feel the effect then liao. damn nice haha. got mesmerised the first time i heard in the audi during best of syf concert. after that went to 7-11 at city link to buy plasters to ease the pain on the girl's feet. then we got this random idea to go starbucks and drink coffee! haha. so we just went to the suntec one and got this really nice and comfy sofa that seated us 6 very nicely lol. deren and yx drank choc cream chip, puayhian had ice mocha. both tasted really nice haha. then wenjie went to try exotic flavour lol, banana de. then it was um... haha. just one comment: dont ever buy it. lmao. just not that nice lah. so we stoned there for some time haha, thinking that it's a really nice place to mug la. nice seats, nice ambience, nice aroma also =D wahhh. and deren like suddenly get high on caffine liddat lol, suddenly uttering weird stuff haha. must keep him away from coffee lol. look totally like he drunk la hahas. like suddenly change tone liddat. a different person altogether haha. anyway uh starbucks is really nice lol. again, if only i had the $$$... after that went back home with deren and puay hian. haha my trusty buddies to go home with everytime lol. today had core module la. woke up super early. almost couldnt wake up haha. cos previous day quite tiring. but at least managed to survive thru the module. hmm i think it's actually quite ok la, just the tiredness from the previous days, and the rather long hours stuck in the classroom haha. other than that, not bad la :D the instructors were nice ppl. and they werent too boring lol. after that stoned with ruiyuan and peishan in school while the rest went home/kick soccer. cos was waiting for the soccer ppl. after they finally kicked finish (actually not they kick finish, is we use peer pressure rofl), went to amk hub to take a look lol. cos never been there before, go see see. so me wj ps ry kg ck went. wah it's quite a nice place lah, once u are inside, u actually forget that it's situated in a residential area la haha. the interior is quite cool de loh. i think ever more "high-class" than west mall haha. wait, then again west mall also situated in residential area. ok nvm >.<

went to buy sweetalk, before heading to the foodcourt for lunch. under recommendation by kg, ck and i went to try out the grilled chicken. haha it's really nice! comparable to the one at plaza sing where the queue is imba during peak hours. kg and ruiyuan went to eat the hokkien mee, which is another recommendation by kg haha. looks good too. wj ate jap food and ps ate fried fish bee hoon. near the foodcourt got this bakery which sell a lot of piah, like tau sah piah, lao po bing, lao gong bing etc. they also got sell a cute-shaped honey bum haha.

after lunch went to walk around. random browsing haha. the shops there not bad de loh, saw spade, which had another outlet at bugis there. and a bag shop which sells a brand ink with designs MEGA similar to wenjie's zinc bag. ink and zinc. lol. the uncanny resemblance. and quite a lot more haha. oh yeah the basement is like food haven lol. went to try out the cai4 bing3 (under kg's recommendation again haha, intro a lot of hao3 liao4), think it's quite nice, only a bit too oily. but nice.

after a while more everyone going back le, i went to the basement to want to buy 1 more cai bing (some happyveg or something like that), but it was sold out and waiting to be cooked. so i was thinking if fresh from the wok confirm super oily. so went the shop next to it selling donuts and tried an interesting flavour.

HONEYDEW CHOCOLATE DONUT.

super interesting la lol. never eaten honeydew flavoured donut before. so the top was like green la haha (like duh). quite unique i would say lol. anyway after that began my long bus ride home liao.

tml vesak day. another day of stuff to do. aka temples to go pray and all. hais. this week seriously packed can.

and i seriously need to save up some money. if not totally ggfied. still got stuff on fri sat. mebbe even sun. omg holy gg le la. sighs. can start to pray for block test results to be somewhat decent liao. totally no time/motivation. argh.

p.s. hmm good idea, i shall go do that tml when i visit the temples.

2007-05-27T23:29:00.001+08:00

havent really been blogging cos there wasnt much to blog abt anyway. but haha glad that hols are finally here. would like to quote hongfei's nick, that "it's the start of the HOLYdays". lol how apt.

so yeah, everyone's going abt saying how this hols is just mug mug mug and mug nonstop. well on one hand of cos i know i need to study real hard, cos there isnt much time left, but on the other hand i do want to enjoy this hols a little (at the very least). i dunno lah, perhaps i cant even find ppl to go out with this hols, since everyone's mugging and all. hmm.

my friend's bdae passed yesterday, but i dont seem to feel anything at all. ironically, i spent the whole weekend at home doing nth. meaning i havent stepped out of my house since fri 3pm. >.< so i was like thinking to myself, mourning cos i dont get to celebrate my fren's bdae? lol. i look at ck and sam and sometimes just feel happy for them haha, everything's working out fine and all =). mebbe i should just listen to wensi and only care abt this kinda stuff after NS bah =D. after all it's still a long way to go before my life ends (or i hope at least). listening to the song wensi sent me sometime back, it's on her blog too haha. my wish by rascal flatts. imba nice. the lyrics are really meaningful too. "My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish." so yup, it's best to keep this kind of relationship. actually it's quite nice la isn't it, staying as good friends who occasionally meets up for a movie or a meal. extra gifts on bdaes and vdae as well! haha. so why bother caring so much =). yepp. the more u care, the more u mind, the more u feel ignored. but looking at another angle, it's fate that keeps us together for so many years. as friends that is =). so must learn to appreciate. hahas. treasure and cherish every friend you have. cos they dont come easy. my last interact session with the kids at fei yue bukit batok ended on tue. haha now looking back, it's been one and a half years le. although i ponned lots of times, it's been at least 30 times. multiply that by 2hrs each week, it'll be 60 hours with the kids. louis vuitton handbags haha it's been a really fun experience i would say. although each week i'll feel reluctant to make the trip all the way down there, but once i drag myself there, it's just pure fun lah haha. makes u feel young all again (omg i sound old lol). but in fact being with them, u just feel old suddenly somehow haha. like that day i was getting msn addresses from them, then i saw 1995 in their email. then i stoned for a while thinking why on earth there's a 1995 there, cos no one would have emails at such a young age. then i realised it's the year they were born la >.< 1995 just feels recent somehow haha, though it's 12 years back le. looks like time really flies when u are a student. so yep, wont be going back again le. though hopefully they'll do well in their PSLE this year and we continue to chat on msn! haha. farewell to lee chew, eng liang, lee soon, xiong jing, edwin. and all those i've talked to and taught before! it's weird isnt it haha, totally didnt feel anything on tue but going to start to miss going for comm serve next term, i bet. (that's if i have the time to feel that way) haha had quite a long chat witk ck after comm serve on tue. i think we chatted for like an hour just outside the mrt station. but yup learnt a lot from him. haha really funny right, all the truly meaningful stuff will only come with the last comm serve session. the last time we'll both make a trip down to bukit batok and tok cok. just lame around. haha. so i must say it was a nice ending to the whole comm serve thing. as for wad i learnt, shan't bother to elaborate, but it makes total sense to me. impt lessons of life. i hope i dont forget them in a hurry. btw thanks ck for being there during comm serve haha. made it a lot more interesting i guess. and it's nice to have ppl accompanying me to go there in the first place. guess there's no more chance after that le. still, it had been a fun time. treasure and cherish. impt two words to know how to appreciate ppl around u.

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

2007-05-20T17:04:00.001+08:00

had a rather packed weekend i would say haha. went with some class ppl (yx, ps, kg, ph, zhiyong to be exact) to SIM for lunch after school on fri before heading back home to watch kindaichi 3. haha im recently so hooked to it. chiong thru the 9 episodes (including loading time) over the course of a totally test-packed week. and just finished a special movie not long ago. abt vampires. and im off to backtrack to kindaichi 2 if i dont get to watch nodame which ruiyuan burned for me soon.

guess i was too tired, so fell asleep and woke up abt 7+. was supposed to go for the tanbo seniors stayover and meet at 8 for dinner but i overslept haha. gg. so hurriedly rushed there. by the time i reached city hall and to magic wok where they were eating, they just finished dinner haha. good timing on my part lol. after dinner, we walked to smu which was to be our "home" for the night =).

at first headed to a bar/pub kinda place in smu campus. i forgot the name haha. but it was quite cool going to such places for the first time, even though it's a small one. there i got formally introduced to the seniors haha. there was xiquan (also known as boss/uncle as wad sam calls him lol) from '02 batch, weijie (xiquan calls her auntie haha, cos she's a year older) from '01 batch, zongsheng from '00 batch (a doctor now le la haha. cool.), kaixiang from '02 (in med fac. another doctor to be haha.), wenjie and nicholas from '04 batch (our pipa seniors during sec 2 syf haha). and from our batch had sam shouhao and me. basically i was like the only non-pipa guy around lol. cos it started off as a pipa stayover. until juniors jielun zhiguang and michelle came haha. so rise the % of non-pipa ppl up by a bit.

so yup, got to know them better and chatted around haha. me and sam got off the hook by faking we were 18 already (but aiya it's a matter of months anyway. and for sam days can), and got to order beer to drink haha. hmm my first taste of wad life will be like after this year haha. literally taste =) the seniors ordered their own faves from the long list on the menu on the table, and recommended tuborg for us to drink. so sam shouhao and me shared 2 bottles among ourselves. and continue to tok cok until the jnrs came from dance night. zongsheng went back after that haha. i think he could have work the following day.

we hanged out around the big steps in smu in the end cos xiquan said we couldnt stay in where we originally planned to cos no visitors after 12. so yup haha we stayed around the big steps. but it was really cosy la haha, and the night wasnt too humid. so bridge (it's really starting to be a culture already) became the highlight for the night, so much so that we didnt even touch the mahjong cards sam brought along haha. the power of bridge. so while some were playing, louis vuitton handbags the other pipa seniors were chatting and catching up on each other, and shouhao michelle jielun zhiguang and me were playing around with the guitar that zhiguang brought along. wah marriage d amour is seriously imba lol. i gave up after learning the first page at snail's pace. and we sang to songs on the guitar, like when u say nth at all, qing tian, wake me up when sep ends, even peng you and singapore town! hahas.

after that some went to a nearby 7-11 to get coke and whiskey/scotch to mix haha. so the rest started to play rounds of zong ji mi ma to drink the concoction while me jielun zhiguang and michelle just randomly tok cok. and occasionally asking for one of the concoctions and took turns to sip. haha the smell is quite strong, and nice warm feeling after it goes down ur throat. lol. soon the jnrs were tired after a long day in school, and we left them to take a rest (and they actually slept all the way till next morning haha!) while we went out to have some supper. we wanted to go for some pizza but it was closing already (supposedly to close at 4am leh, and when we went there it was only like 2). so went to a nearby kopitiam to have some food. thanks to xiquan's kopitiam card, got 20% off the food we bought lol! quite some seniors ate ban mian while me and sam shared among ourselves some dim sum. carrot cake, prawn dumpling, chee cheong fun and siew mai. yumyum.

so yep, went back only to find the juniors all fast asleep le haha. chatted abit and slowly more and more went to sleep. sam was on xiquan's laptop playing his dbi thru wireless while weijie nicholas xiquan and i started bridge. was quite cool cos xiquan brought speakers along, so he plugged to a nearby powerpoint (other than the one used for the laptop), and we had music playing, eng, chn, all sorts. so played round after round until sam came to join us cos the laptop didnt have numpad which brought inconvenience to the game haha. so we took turns to play until nic went to slp too. so it was down to sam xiquan weijie and me. after some more games, even sam went to take a break too. weijie xiquan and me became the remaining survivors! we actually randomed and took a pic with weijie's phone! lol. haha i strongly suspect i could stay up for so long cos of the tiny nap i had in the afternoon la. so with 3 ppl left, cant really play cards le. so we decided to have a little tour around smu and enjoy the 5am breeze haha.

the trip was kinda nice haha, basically walking the length off the long underpass than linked the buildings together. and lots of shops on the way as well, ranging from bookshops to photocopying shops to the cafeteria to banks to clinics to cosmetic product shops. we walked back thru the central garden of smu and saw that kaixiang had awoken haha. as we chatted and all, weijie started to doze off too haha. it was almost dawn by that time le, with the first rays of sunlight lighting up the sky. quite interesting la, we could start to hear the first buses passing by and birds start to chirp and all le. xiquan sent kaixiang off as he had another appointment later that day, so going back to rest first. by 6.30 i had to go slp too haha, couldnt take it le.

woke up at 8 by szuan! haha. wad a pleasant surprise. she had dental appointment around there later in the morning. oh yea she actually called xiquan who diverted his call to weijie as his phone had no more batt at 5+/6 lah!! haha. at the time where only the 3 survivors remained. so yup, it was early morning by that time le, and slowly we all woke up =). after everyone packed up, we went to the coffeshop next to nafa and had prata for breakfast (lol the coincidence, cos the class wanted to go eat prata actually). after that everyone was tired out from the stayover, so they decided to go back home earlier (they wanted to have lunch together initially). cos i was supposed to meet class ppl at bugis for lunch, so called peishan and she agreed to meet me earlier haha. planning to go nat library. so while waiting for her at bugis mrt, went to walk around parco haha. i actually went to loop in cold storage lol, looking at the staff putting new goods onto the shelves and checking stocks. the roasted chicken section smelt heavenly. i must really try out the honey glazed/black pepper chicken someday. btw stoned around the wine section and looking at the brands haha. some familiar names from last night caught my attention. haha die liao, the stayover got me a little interested in the wine section liao lols.

anyway, met peishan at the library after that cos i decided to head there first. took some books off the shelves to read but after several chapters i was so tired i actually lied down on the seats haha. so paiseh, having ppl look as they walk by. but haha managed to borrow some books. to tank while i wait for sam's next set of shaman king. met ruiyuan back at bugis at 12.30 and went to scout for good food haha. decided against anywhere in parco cos me and peishan went to check the prices before that and they were quite ex. but haha, in the end the place we chose wasnt exactly cheap either lol. but that later.

walking one round around 2 rows of shophouses near icon, we saw one that suited our liking. went back and met up with wenjie and wensi before deciding to go and try the food out. it's some restaurant which i cant exactly rmb the name, but it had quite an impressive set lunch of soup salad drink maincourse and dessert for $12.90. ok lah the price burned a big hole in my pocket, but it was quite worth it i would say? soup was minestrone and dessert was creme brulee. as for main course, wenjie had chicken breast with mushroom sauce, peishan had pork chop while wensi ruiyuan and i had pan-fried dory. i thot the food wasnt bad =). might try to go back again when i can afford it next time.

after lunch went to icon to shop around a bit. havent been there before, so thought it was quite a nice place haha, which was supposed to mimic the hongkong style of shopping. lots of small shops, so it was quite quaint and cosy i'd say. wensi found something she liked there and bought it haha. a yellow dress with a black belt. nice catch for the day =) and i think the shopkeepers there are quite nice ppl. after that went back to parco's topman to have a look. haha it was ruiyuan's heaven la. he changed into quite a few clothes there, and even made wenjie and i both try the same one he was trying! lol. i thought it looked nice, but super ex haha. $79! ill never be able to afford it, not at the moment at least. it looked nicest on wenjie among the 3 of us haha. but ruiyuan found a pair of skinny jeans he liked. so he going to ask his sis to help him get it i think. oh and a long sleeved brown shirt as well.

wensi went off to meet her mum (for more shopping! lmao) and the remaining 4 of us ventured into bugis village. haha the imba place with tons of ppl. i can never navigate myself in there ever i think >.< so by basically following peishan around, we seriously did some shopping haha. my legs totally ached after that haha. i seriously not cut out for long term shopping hahaha. i think we shopped for like 4hrs straight ever since we left the restaurant? so thats like the whole time standing or walking. but haha quite fun i guess. saw a couple of shirts that suited wenjie (recommended by peishan =D) but in the end all didnt buy cos they were too big. haha. then ruiyuan didnt really like wad he saw, preferring the topman kind more. i tried to look out for some horizontal striped ones, but didnt really bother to check prices unless i liked it quite a lot, cos it would be a hassle trying to find my size =(( but in the end i went to buy one haha. hopefully it looks nice and is durable lol. as for peishan she bought a quite nice red/white top haha.

after shopping we went to simlim to eat the famous bar chor mee there. haha it's really nice! esp the dumplings. wanna go again next time hehe. and ruiyuan's fav popiah =D very nice also. i love the popiah skin. so as we split our ways to go home (ps wj one direction, me and ry another), ruiyuan went with me to check the prices of the samsung mp3 player. haha plus after today's online reviews abt it and clarence's comments (he bought it too!), i think i might just get it haha. looks nice also.

after that went home imba tired. i almost missed my stop. lol.

a fun weekend would u say? i would say so haha. now waiting to be able to add the seniors on msn =)

btw my mum went out to shop as well at orchard yesterday and got me a new bag haha. ok something random. i think this is one of the longest posts since a long long time ago haha. quite proud of it. blogger better let me post it up on my blog! haha i shall go do some work soon, if not gg liao. i took like an hour on this lol. blogging is seriously time consuming haha. especially something of this length. hahaha.

p.s. omg i went to paste this post on microsoft word in case blogger really screws up and it turned out to be 3 1/2 pages long! seriously. rofl.

2007-05-17T22:56:00.001+08:00

finally testmania is over for this week. chem test on mon, maths test on wed, econs test on thurs. can breathe a great sigh of relief. just econs tut and gp essay tml before i embrace the weekend.

hmm i dunno why but i just feel a bit emo tonight haha. the tingling sensation kind, not the mega emo-ness and throw tantrums or cry like crazy kinda emo. just this tiny sense of emptiness and envyness of ppl around me.

it's a strange feeling i would say. i mean on one hand u are happy for all the good things that are happening around ppl, yet on the other hand u are a tad disappointed cos those things are not happening to u. chanel handbags mean yeah, it should be quite selfish or bad for me to even think of that, but hey, we are all human after all. who wouldnt want some good in their lives? so i wouldnt put it across as jealousy.

but envy, yes, envy.

what a funny thing haha. here i am trying to indulge myself in this emo-ness, blogging and listening to songs wensi just sent me (which her fellow emocake sent her haha), yet im reaching out for my milo and some kueh my mum asked me to finish. so i guess that's a failed attempt to feel emo yeah? haha. guess it's too early for it. the tv was just on 10 min ago beside me.

hmm random.

talking abt random, i suddenly feel like doing something just like that. i wanna make a trip to somewhere where there are hardly anyone, be it the beach, top floor of some high-rise building, or some nice park. just hang around there and look at wads around. the sea. the greenery. the concrete jungle. the sky. anything. mebbe i should really do that some day. during the hol perhaps. if there's even time. with ccas and remedials and mugging for blocks.

BLOCK TEST 2. urgh. i shudder just thinking of it.

anyway back to the being envious thing. yup i should just stop doing that. someday i will find out that im actually better off than loads of ppl, and i should live to be optimistic and happy and cheerful and blah blah. haha but not now i guess. soon soon. so yup, i must say again the dominant portion is still happy and glad that ppl around me are living well. so yeah, appreciate wad u got and cherish them well! they don't come easy...

so yeah. i gotta be happy.

but that doesn't stop me for being emo for just one night...

2007-05-16T04:35:00.000+08:00

lol just a random post. look at the time im posting this. the price u have to pay for being uber tired and falling asleep when there's a test tml. i missed my 9pm show. damn.

苏打绿 - 小情歌

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热

脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

a bit lag, but i only found out abt this song recently haha. nice =D su da lv imba can! sounds totally like a gal.

吴克群 - 老子说

不是在教室里
不跟你讲道理
外面的路崎岖
撞得满头真理
春秋百家争鸣
大家抄来抄去
到底谁有道理
谁的比较高明
人法地地法天天法道道法自然
真理在音符里无为畅快
人法地地法天天法道道法自然
我自然的 high

老子说前方的路太多
走过的路不走
我们找到了一种自我
老子说要不然换你说
你不懂老子说
输和赢其实都差不多
老子说

电视里太啰唆
七嘴八舌的说
每个人说一种
只是要我点头
大人们的学说
太深我搞不懂
为你为谁为我
老子般的自我
人法地地法天天法道道法自然
真理在音符里无为畅快
人法地地法天天法道道法自然
我不停的转

老子说前方的路太多
走过的路不走
我们拍出了一种自我
老子说要不然换你说
你不懂老子说
世界在老子手中转动
老子说

全部的耳朵听我
全部的眼睛看我
都框在我的镜头
音乐是我的祖宗
全部的耳朵听我
全部的眼睛看我
都框在我的镜头
音乐是我的祖宗

omg haha. this song damn lame lol. as in the melody. and the lyrics haha. i shall try to learn this after testmania over this week haha! ok kinda dumb :D

urgh. shall go back to my maths. barely begun. ggfied hehe. whee.

2007-05-13T21:47:00.001+08:00

Augustana - Boston

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

2007-05-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

we took the stage with confidence.

we did our thing.

we showed them what we were capable of.

we proved to them what we were made of.

we rocked the stage.

and we got what we deserved.

GWH. =D =D =D

good job HCCO! we all rock, seriously. bwahahaha. *ego*

2007-05-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

THIS IS IT. THE COUNTDOWN IS OVER. THE TIME HAS COME.

SYF IS HERE!!!!

jiayou jiayou jiayou to hcco! we can do it.

complete pwnage.

we will leave SCH tml with delightful smiles on our faces.

all the best HCCO.

show the rest what we are capable of.

show them what we are made of.

WE ROCK HCCO!!!

2007-05-07T20:31:00.001+08:00

syf is just another 3 days away. u could practically count the number of hours to the moment when we take the stage. hmm but i feel totally unprepared. not myself, but my section. problems still lie everywhere, but there just isnt enough time left. even my very last attempt to have sectionals tml is being dashed by orchestra extra practice. i really dunno wad to do. maybe i should really just give up trying to organise sectionals. timetables clash and orchestra practices take up a huge portion of the time. all i ask is just 2-3 hrs where everyone in my section can make it. but apparently it's just that impossible.

argh nvm. ill just have to make do with whatever i can now. i really dont want my section to be the one that screws hcco up. i want to make the chances of that to drop to like... <1%? but now with this limited time i have, i doubt it will be less than 20%. on the happy side, had a super packed but fun wkend! sat had rehearsal at audi from 8am-5pm. quite tiring, but i thought that day's prac was rather productive la.. as in like i felt ppl did try to focus to some extent. after that had to zao punctually at 5 to meet kelvin and head to tjc for lv4 yuan2 zhi1 ye4 2007 (temasek nite). went to support her production haha, she directed one of the 3 plays put up. quite nice la i thot haha, though im still a bit blur abt the exact themes and messages being conveyed thru some portions of the plays. louis vuitton handbags but thought that overall, it was quite nice =). hopefully can meet up soon and discuss abt the plays haha. it's been ages since we met up anyway. oh yeah, thx kelvin for coming along lol. if not the 1+hr each long bus ride from school to bedok and back again home is owning de la, if u were to take alone. will totally sian diao haha. then sun was tanbo outing! woohoo haha damn fun. went kbox with michelle sam yuting shixian at cck lot 1. k lunch. wahaha the crispy fish is nice la!! totally regret ordering the chicken set, mega horrible. damn nan2 chi1. and had a fun time too =D=D after that went to szuan's house where she booked a function room for us to hang out! haha so nice of her =) bought loads of tidbits and drinks from lot 1 and brought it over haha. like party liddat =) and as usual, cards occupied our time there haha. bridge is an indispensible part of hcco tanbo man. totally :D played other games such as cheat and slapjack and some new game called jim rummy (dunno how to spell lol, jielun intro de) had a nice dinner of canadian pizza and side orders of cheeseballs and wedges. and continued our games with indian poker, which was the "highlight" of the night! hahaha. omg imba fun lahhhh. the stupid things we had to do when we lost. seriously lahhhh. haha shall not elaborate too much, so paiseh lol. but haha im sure everyone had loads of fun :D:D:D ended the super fun day with grp photos haha. upload them soon! i wanna take a look! haha. tanbo outings are just that fun lah. ill seriously miss hcco tanbo after we retire from hcco. but before that, total focus on syf! so yup, zhiguang szuan lionel yuting shouhao samuel chuanhan koymin weiquian jielun shixian michelle, hope u had as much fun as i did! (im sure u did lol.) **but then hor, im totally totally totally broke liao >.< must start to save up soon, if not stj gg-fied liao.

**oh great, the school is totally outing to murder us. maths chem and econs tests all on the same day. oh wow. how fun. whee. =.= (bastards.)

2007-05-02T20:48:00.001+08:00

had a super fun but super burn-hole-in-pocket labour day. which is known as kbox! wah seriously i learnt my lesson la. NEVER EVER EVER EVER go kbox on a public holiday. the prices can kill. literally. my eyes immediately turned O.O and mouth turned jaw-drops-and-saying-wtf mode. PAIN SIA!!! damn exxxxx. but still it was damn good fun haha :D:D:D thanks clarence kelvin peizhi cheejia for a fun-filled day! hehe.

as long as u dont go on a public holiday.

looking forward to the tank concert tml haha. quite cool la, hwachong never had this kind of stuff b4 for free. keyword being FOR FREE =). lol. haha just kidding la. but nevertheless i think it will be a nice concert? haha.

umm, had CO today. practised overtime, and shouhao came up to say certain stuff la. actually not much. but im sure we can all understand how he feels. im in no particular position to say much, but all i wanna say is hopefully the CO and come together and chiong for the last wk! it's only 7 days left, excluding today since practice is over for today le. exactly one week.

ahh time really is short. and syf is just mercilessly stepping closer and closer to us. wad can we do? well for one, we could just wait for it to come devour us and screw up in syf. but alternatively, we could fight it bravely and in order to do so,chanel handbags prepare ourselves well prior to that so we can fight a worthy battle! i'm sure thats wad we all want, to do our best and get something we truly deserve, rather than slacking off and not focusing, ending up getting something we'll regret forever, cos we dont get a second chance le. this is the one and only SYF for our batch, both j1s and j2s.

so it's either make it or break it. simple as that.

so as a final note, hopefully HCCO can work hard and focus totally on SYF for the next week. just survive thru this period of time and enjoy the fruits of our labour on 10th may! we reap wad we sow. so jiayou jiayou jiayou HCCO! WE CAN DO IT!!!!

im absolutely sure. *GWH*

2007-04-29T20:39:00.000+08:00

as usual. lyricssss. the first is a song i think quite nice haha. second is a song im attempting to learn. but it's damn gay.

卓文萱+黄鸿升 - 愛的主旋律

男：是你在那个雨季走进我生命
带着一点任性和温柔的表情
女：是你在那个雨季赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容换我仅有的甜蜜
男：天上一万颗星星我却只看见你
你说这是幸运还是不可思议
女：身边有太多风景我却停在这里
说我傻的可以还不是因为你
男：是你的声音
女：带给我勇气
男：恋爱的频率
女：直到我心底
男：如果你愿意
女：是的我愿意
合：带着我幸福的主旋律
男：从前的实际
女：现在我相信
男：天空会放晴
女：爱会更甜蜜
男：如果你愿意
女：是我的愿意
合：爱的主旋律

蔡旻佑 - 我想要说

看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送
默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说
表情才不难过
我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后
整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我
在这一切

2007-04-29T20:07:00.001+08:00

haha so as it is. my plan to go out today failed. sighs. nvm. had a super duper stony day nevertheless. never do any work, then just stone stone slack slack sleep sleep. come to think of it, it's frigging wasted la >.< argh forget it. anyway went to support hctt finals at toa payoh sports hall after handing in a doomed to get level 2 mock phy spa skill A. the match was chao exciting. lost first singles and first doubles, then won back the first singles and doubles. then the last singles, won first set, lost second and third set, then won back fourth set to result in a 2-2 score. but sadly, we missed by just that little bit, losing the last set 9-11. damn close can. but in any case, i thought hctt girls were damn pro haha. zai diao. the cheering was quite fun too, especially towards the back when we were cheering for yushan and daphne, as well as bowen. we were like screaming our lungs out la, everytime they scored a point. and both of the games were 5-setters. so can imagine how long and how many times we cheered. chanel handbags when the match ended we were like all screwed up voices le haha. then we still go at eat botak jones to screw up our throats further lol. but i tell u, i totally never regret going can. it rockkkkks. took 157 from the interchange to this ulu looking industrial area to eat botak jones. haha i seriously think they got a problem with venues la lol. their outlets are like in tpy and amk industrial areas, clementi kopitiam and TUAS. seriously damn random. lmao. lemme try to recall... kg zhiyong ruiyuan dunjie wenjie and me ate cajun chicken, while yongxian and peishan ate fish and chips. ph was chao ownage, ate this U-CRAZY-WHAT?! which was 3 huge slices of 150gm beef patties covered with cheese. haha. damn zai la. ruiyuan took a pic of it haha.
now u know wad i mean by OWNAGE.

haha i must say the portion damn zai haha. i actually felt rather full after finishing my plate lol. now u can estimate how much they give le. can see from the pic also la haha. totally spam fries la!! damn nice also can =). shiokkkk!

feel super satisfied. juniors wanna consider here for stj? =))

tml sports meet. by right should be a happy slack day. BUT THERE'S CO TML! ARGH ARGH ARGH. 1pm-7pm somemore. omigosh la. siannn. any plans to go out with class, go kbox with juniors, or tanbo ppl all dashed and gone liao. sian diao... but ah wells, syf coming ma, had to meng loh i guess.

sighs im damn disappointed. haizz. takers to go out on tue? (lol im getting despo.)

2007-04-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

you know sometimes u can cry so badly that ur tears flow uncontrollably and ur face screws all up in distortion. u have a hard time trying to catch ur breath, suffocating even.

but the amazing thing is, u feel loads better after that.

***

i really really want to go out on sunday. i need a break from all these. will anyone want to follow?

2007-04-26T23:02:00.000+08:00

having a very emotionless week. as in the week feels especially long to me. then things just revolve around me and time just passes by. it's seriously damn boring. napfa this week. total disaster. i dun really want to talk abt it either. just one conclusion. i better get started on some training routine, if i dont want myself to suffer for two whole years >.<

finally the long awaited wkend is coming soon. and i emphasise soon, not now, cos tml still got two hurdles to ram thru. i got no energy to jump across it le. gp essay outline, and phy mock spa. grr. dunno if ill collapse tml. doubt so though. how i wished i could. then could escape this kind of life for that few hours i faint.

i wonder if it's the impending and gradual building up of stress over syf. the worry over wad we can get from it? i dont really know. i think CO ppl are getting into the mood le la, so hopefully we'll turn out fine. jiayou hcco!

but i think wads bothering me more is smth else. i dunno how to elaborate, and dont wish to either. argh, that impending doom feeling is coming again. haizzz. dunno why i just cant seem to get out of this quicksand sucking me in. this bottomless pit im falling in. this labyrinth of pitch dark caves.

parasitism. i hate it.

on top of the syf pieces we played in SCH for our rehearsal last sunday, been looping this song. dunno la, somehow i just like it quite a lot.

孙燕姿 - 逆光

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀
很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
我以为无路后退
反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑
忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗
才发现你就是光芒!
有一束光
那瞬间
是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解
为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光
那力量
我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
光芒
你是光芒

forgot abt my promise to myself to look happy. k shall rmb it from tml onwards! smile smile smile. im damn happy!!

lol. the irony of this being an emo(tionless) week.

2007-04-22T02:09:00.001+08:00

having a screwed up bio clock this wk. every night fall asleep at 9+ while watching the homecoming on chn 8 (shi2 san1 bian1). then wake up at weird hours, like 2+, 3+, 4+, 5+ to chiong hmk. seriously screwed. like today, came back after CO and slept not long after. had my dinner at 12+ just now >.< 5 hours old noodles. yucks.

tue went with dj yx wj ps deren to novena united square to queue for ben and jerry's icecream! haha. so lame =). and the queue was super long can.. but quite fun la haha, at least we got to have super nice icecream as a good reward! queued 2 times haha, so got to eat strawberry cheesecake and sweet cream with cookies. pity no phish food haha. it's chao nice. but still, nice icecream hehe.

after went to walk around the shopping centre and even went velocity to take a look. haha deren got his nail painted at the face shop! rofl. pink somemore hahaha. ok random lol. totally la. then also got go body shop look see and smell the nice aromas haha. ok we very random. serious.

i think CO is finally settling down le. thought that we were rather seriously today. towards the end of the practice la. hmm... 18 more days to syf. hopefully we can make it haha. then later in the day going SCH to rehearse. gonna dig out my performance attire soon, if not later gg.

oh yea, had a plesant surprise today lol. now we got our own customised chairs in mph! wahaha. every one of the 80 of us got our own chairs lol, with our special stickers =). was kinda surprised when i went for CO today haha. so now i got a nicely-designed "d0tz" stuck to the chair im sitting on! lmao. =D and the mph is simulated to represent the stage area, chanel handbags with the shape and lengths made to reproduce the SCH stage as much as possible. so the guan yue ppl quite scary haha, got to sit on a platform made up of tables and instrument cases. haha, hopefully nothing wrong happens in the next 18 days. *touch wood touch wood*

hmm CO marathon day 1 over. day 2 today at SCH, and day 3 tml aka our usual mon practice. and i havent begun with any work at all. esp studying for the maths test tml. ggfied totally. omg. then furthermore i really dont have the mood for it. grrr. must force myself to go read soon.

TIREDDDDDD. but i cant slp, cos i slept so much just now.

argh, the agony.

2007-04-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

was listening to tank's songs after coming back from CO today... i think these two songs are nice.

Tank - 非你莫属

懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成

整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走

爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰

爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
哦我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚

爱我非你莫属
我只愿守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我非你莫属
也许会笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

那个人是你所以
不怕苦~~

我不怕苦~~

Tank - 岚

还记得那夜
清晨最初一眼
眼前的世界
看起来快毁灭

你在我身边
看着屋檐
像末日的雨天
假如雨越大一些
是否靠近一点

你没有察觉
心跳特别强烈
太疯狂沉默
却熄了一整夜

明明有感觉
可惜时间流出了我指间
回头却看的见
满地回忆的碎片

那爱一直到今天
才在我心中浮现
爱情真出现那一瞬间
我们都没发现

那雨是一直到今天
爱下在我心里面
淋湿了双眼
湿过今天
才清晰的看见
你的脸

后来那几年
当然也有雨天
我开始学会
等雨后的晴天

谁在我身边
度过长夜
任雨点在倾泄
却再也找不回
当时心动感觉

你是否偶尔
像我静静怀念
那一样的爱
倾盆的那一年
如果那场雨再度席卷
总熄在里面
我一定抱住你
绝对不让你走远

那爱一直到今天
才在我心中浮现
爱情真出现那一瞬间
我们都没发现

那雨是一直到今天
爱下在我心里面
淋湿了双眼
湿过今天
才清晰的看见
你的脸

2007-04-14T21:32:00.001+08:00

hmm, havent blogged for a while. this wk has been a tad more interesting compared to last wk i guess haha. considering there were no public holidays.

THURSDAY

haha so lets start with thu. took the bus from school to cheung cheng to support table tennis haha. went with wenjie peishan cheejia deren puayhian. lol. haha it amazingly turned out to be quite fun! lolx.

so yeah, when we reached cheung cheng we were like xia dao lol. cos their main office building exterior look totally cheena haha. we were like calling it tian an men. -.- rofl. but yeah the school structure quite chinese haha. kinda cool. lol, this coming from the bunch of us from chinese high lol. the irony :D

but haha, i must say, their school compound is quite nice. for starters, their canteen own us can! in terms of prices. it's like the food there ranges abt um... 80 cents to $1.50 max? and got carrot cake somemore lahh. one of my fav food lol. oh yeah, we were like spamming the jap stall, who sold stuff like takoyaki, sushi, and california rolls haha. chao shiok lol. then also got desserts, and one stall which sold quite a lot of snacks. sigh, compare it with our canteen...

oh yeah, and their lake totally rocksssss. i mean like, there's this place in the school, which is sheltered and has a number of benches, faces the damn nice lake with big fishes (koi i presume) and tortoises, then got one piano nearby where ppl playing ballads on it, and a slight drizzle raining down. woah... i tell u. it's super nice lol. deren was commenting it's meant to promote BGRs lolz. it's just super nice o.O oh yeah, i suspect the lake can spray water like musical fountains loh lol. with sprinklers in the middle of the lake and spot lights as well. a pity raining, so the sprinklers werent on.

so yeah we were exploring around the whole school haha. mini adventure lol. cheejia wasnt with us though. hmm... somewhere else lahhs =P=P=P *wink*. oh yeah, i totally forgot abt the TT match rofl. hahaha. well i think quite exciting haha, esp the singles. damn nice to watch. esp the kind when the ball pass from one end to another continuously. very nice haha. and the doubles rock! =) gd job to yushan and daphne haha..

after that the TT team took cab to go eat while us supporters slowly walked out of the school (which is super ulu by the way, hidden in the midst of private housing), all the way to the main road. IN THE RAIN. haha, so wj and ps shared an umbrella, me and cj shared my umbrella, and deren took cover with his towel from swimming. oh yeah, puay hian is the total ultimate lol!! the moment he put on wenjie's jacket and wore the hood, immediately our first reaction. "TOURIST!" hahaha. it's seriously damn xiang4. then somemore when he tried to take a photo of us at tian an men (the cheena building), he looked the ultimate tourist lol. the hood, jacket, sling a bag, then holding out the camera to try to take a pic. CLASSIC i tell u haha.

anyway haha, went to old airport road to eat gd food haha. wah the food there apparently v gd la, very few stalls will have one that is laden with certs and awards lah. quite a lot of us spammed wanton mee lol. cos got the channel U award recommendation thing. then i ate the rojak also, wah wenjie counted 11 different awards haha. chanel handbags recommendation, makansutra, best rojak award, etcetc la. and lots of newspaper cuttings too. haha. quite interesting la. and yup i must admit. the food is gd there haha. hao3 chi1!! =) if only it wasnt so far from my house, if not i confirm go there often to eat de lah.

oh yeah smth interesting happened while we were eating. but it's kinda hard to describe, so ill do it briefly. basically it's just this lorry carrying full of gas tanks having its front wheel into the road. as they were paving the road, that portion is only soil/sand, so the wheel kinda sunk in la haha. so there was this small excavator named "bobcat" that tried to save it. then v funny, cos it couldnt do anything much to help after going all the way to the lorry. then it just turned back and drove away lol. then after that a bigger crane/excavator came to help the lorry. haha we were like joking the small bobcat cannot solve the problem, so ask his big bro (the bigger excavator) to come settle lol. then even though the bobcat cant do anything, it followed his big bro to the lorry, so though to help him to jiayou. lolx. yeah, so basically, after quite some time, they finally got the wheel out of the sand. i call this "operation quicksand". haha. cos deren was saying the soil/sand was like quicksand, suck the wheel in.

ok so much for a brief description. anyway, took the bus to bugis before taking 170 home. tiring day.

FRIDAY

friday was actually quite boring la haha. had phy spa though. anyway after sch had to stay back cos pw results release. so went dj's strings room to play. i played noob version chinese chess with peishan while the rest played risk. (the real board game haha. finally, after so many nights of online risk.) haha it's seriously noob version can, after a super long time, wad we've eaten were like 2 pawns each haha. anyway, the pros took over and the game kinda left our hands. oh wells haha. i seriously cmi at chess >.< after pw results, went to venezia to eat icecream (class outing/"celebrate" pw over). got wenjie peishan ruiyuan puayhian wensheu kwangguan zhiyong deren yushan cheejia yongxian. hopefully i didnt leave anyone out haha. anyway yeah, ate nice icecream and randomly chatted. i tried dark choc and biscotti. haha peishan says the dark choc tastes like royce. =D it's nice! anyway um... we were mostly occupied by trying to figure out the whereabouts of someone (let's not delve into that =D), but the next most interesting thing was a lesson by teacher yushan on pingpong haha. seriously, i didnt know there was so much to table tennis lah. all the flip sides, top spin, side spin, back spin. wad side with wad spin will return wad spin. if wrong spin, then will hit net, hit out etc. and all the signals and hand signs haha. super interesting. i mean, like all amateurs, our aim is just to get the ball to the other side ma lol. when did we care abt all this stuff haha. hmm, so this provided a new perspective to TT to me haha. anyway after that went to cold storage to "shop" haha. actually just wanted to see see. then came upon this area with clearance sale. so they were selling stuff at half price. arnotts chocs for like $2+ when usual price $4+, twisties international for $0.85 when usually is $1.70 etc. haha. regretted not bringing more money la. then came upon interesting products haha, like some scalloped potatoes, spiderman cereal (-.-), and instant cup pasta etc. lol. deren like really shopping haha, bought a lot of stuff =D. after that everyone went home liao. then haiz damn unlucky to take bus at that time. cos it was 5+, peak hour. so buses crowded like siao. but the most irritating this was i can take 4 buses, but the first bus i could take appeared like after mebbe... 25-35 min of waiting? wth la. then somemore it was so crowded it didnt stop... >.< um, just one conclusion. just go shop a while more if u want to take 67 170 170 or 961 along bukit timah road at 5.30pm on a friday afternoon. or just take a random bus to somewhere else where u can take other buses. seriously la haha. i reached home abt 6.40pm.

it's like the first time im appreciating CO ending super duper late on mon and wed.

talking abt CO, now they extended the sat pracs from 11am-3pm to 10am-4pm liao. omg.... nvm, i dont mind if we were to really do well and grab that GWH from SYF... jiayou jiayou. 2+ wks more to go only...

2007-04-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

haha... suddenly feeling a bit down tonight. dunno if it's cos the long weekend is over? lol. or im piling unnecessary stress upon myself? or mebbe it's just cos i think too much.

hmm my sad song therapy hasnt come to play for quite a long time le. i guess i was still quite happy the past few weeks bah. haha.. but good things do come to an end. well at least it lasted for a month or so lol.

erm, i dont really know how to put it, and don't really want to put it down explicitly. actually then again, i cant really put it into words. it's just this feeling that i have loh..

seasons change, tides rise and fall, time passes every moment. i think it's time to make some changes to my life le bah.

a pity though, i really thought it could last for very long haha... like a lot longer. chanel handbags but apparently it didnt and wouldnt last bah. but well, u can't blame anyone for it. it's just the way of life i guess.

i dont want to act like some parasite, moving on once my host has found its immunity against me. but just like a parasite, i cant survive without a host. argh, im totally contradicting myself =.=

dunno wad to do la. totally unanticipated. i have no idea wad direction to head towards next. the seemingly impregnable fortress has finally collapsed on me. and now, i've got nowhere to run, nowhere to hide. totally lost. so must i wander aimlessly in this mass of nothingness?

i wish for someone to give me the light, and lead me in the right direction. but then again, i dont want to allow anyone inside this barren land with me. i dont think i want to involve anyone. i dont want to give others a worse impression than what they already have of me le.

so i guess ill just have to trudge on myself. slowly trek through all this mess. trying to bear as much hope as i can that i can find another host who will embrace me and allow me to survive again. before i totally die off.

hah, actually hoping for someone to accept a parasite like me...

tomorrow will be the start of a new week. and ill try my best to mask all these. continue to dwell in the nice memories i had. continue to pretend to be happy, and cheerful bah. hide behind in the shield im trying so hard to maintain.

nah. im telling myself now. i shall not appear to be emo. so, happy cheerful smiles all the way!

i hope i'll be able to do it. lol. =D...

2007-04-07T20:08:00.001+08:00

hmm havent blogged for abt a wk. well as usual, reason is cos of the boring life im leading now. just go school, attend lessons, on some days got cca (comm serve and CO), and that's abt it.

hmm some results are back liao. well i think so far im not terribly disappointed with my results, but im dreading those that are coming back, like chem section B and econs essay >.< hopefully ill do decently, considering the amount of effort i put in for this blocks. i really hope for my efforts to pay off loh, seriously. well yesterday the class went bowling, but i didnt go haha, cos i dunno how to bowl ma. nevertheless i had a lot of fun yesterday! =) went with juniors to kbox at clementi. got clarence jieyee peizhi jianting shentong and ben wu. haha i seriously think i want to clementi kbox next time liao. it's like better than the one at cine can.. mikes and stuff. and we got a big room! (cos got 7 ppl ma) haha so was kinda nice. hmm took the k student. was kinda ex la, after all it was public holiday >.<

haha i thought all who went all sang quite well haha. at least all of us are spontaneous la, like all willing to sing =)) even jianting la haha, i never thought he will be the kind who will go kbox :D hmm in any case, simply one conclusion from the kbox session:

BEN WU IS IMBA. SERIOUSLY. TOTALLY PWNAGE. CAN GO ZIBEI LIAO.

ya... i could continue, but u get the idea. it's just zai. JAI. seriously ill want to go with him again despite feeling zibei, just to hear him sing haha. it's oh-my-tian-de-nice. and his falsetto own me wahaha. cool la, i damn long never hear imba ppl sing liao. somemore he was feeling sick yesterday. cannot imagine when he's in top form. =.=

it was an enjoyment to be there yesterday, seriously. shen tong also damn zai haha, was owning until ben wu came. his feng was super nice, and his tian tian also. really shiok to listen.

clarence also sang v nice =) jieyee and peizhi also haha, sing many fish leong songs. even duet liang shan bo yu zhu li ye. haha... we were damn high during lian ai-ing la, dunno who ah, go jump non stop on the sofa hahahahaaaaa. (*wink* dunno who ah...) haha... and a lot of fun raps lol, like bu de bu ai, kuai le chong bai, get high. hahas. jianting chose a lot of wu ke qun songs haha. i like =D esp jiang jun ling. haha damn fun to sing lol.

then after kbox ben wu jianting peizhi went off, while shentong jieyee clarence and me went to eat lo. clarence didnt eat, cos he going back then eat. yupp. so had quite a fast dinner, then went back home liao haha. i havent enjoyed kbox so much for so long le haha.

ok i contradicting myself lol. cos last time too many guys during sec 4 then hardly hear girl songs. so i was like complaining like no girl songs de. then now is very long never have so many guys singing together le haha. so kinda miss the times. louis vuitton handbags really thought it was very nice when clarence benwu shentong and me sang jacky cheung's ting hai together. haha sounded very um... man. LOL. ok i dunno how to describe la, just very shiok la, to hear loud and solid voice kinda thing. oh ya ben wu also sing quite loud haha =D quite long since i found ppl who sing as loud as i do, or at least close to. rofl.

yeah, then today had the saturday gang lunch after CO as usual haha. with kelvin peizhi and xinying. xinying had team lunch, so she came later. went west mall today and ate at food court haha. then just chatted a lot la lol. attempted to gossip but sians, i dunno a lot of it lol. hmm, still had some shou1 huo4 la wahaha. =P

after that kelvin had to go, so we went to buy bubble tea at sweet talk. then slowly walked to bus stop and went back haha.

oh yes, sam tan's MAR has finally arrived lol. back to my reading spree. those days where the books weren't around i was like suffering from withdrawal symptoms lmao. but now they are finally here! haha. shall go read them after blogging =))

ok random, and very lagg, but ive been looping rainie yang's zuo3 bian1 the whole duration ive been typing this post haha. the song rox. totally. go get the song if u havent heard it b4!

2007-04-01T05:43:00.002+08:00

ahh it's the wkend le haha. didnt blog last night cos was too tired haha. and slept early last night too. damn early. thats why im awake here at 5am. lol.

hmm today going to sao mu... so wont be home for most of the day i guess. yeah... anyway, happy april's fools day to everyone haha. let's just pray there wont be anyone tricking me, cos i already sensed some... :P

anyway, fri had council elections. hmm i thought the videos in front were not bad, then it got worse and worse >.< in any case, junior class nominees must jiayou! go jai! =)) haha after that stoned in school for a whole 2 hours (i really know how to waste time >.<) with clarence, jieyee, peizhi, jieyee they all. cos they were going out for class dinner, but the rest had cca. so yeah, waiting till 6+ loh. was listening to songs on clarence's mp3 and peizhi's phone. they were playing chinese chess haha. got to know that a lot of ppl in jnr class like to go kbox! whee. haha. got new kbox kakis to ask along next time liao. (oh tokking abt that, mebbe today going as well! haha) and our jnr class seems like got ppl can sing quite well de haha. looking forward to hear them! oh ya, kg and zhiyong came and joined us after their tkd training as well. yeah anyway, after most of the ppl gathered, went 6th ave to eat. ate at this tze char stall after walking a little into 6th ave. louis vuitton handbags split into 2 tables of 8 each. my table had kg clarence kelvin sam cara peizhi huanzi. haha they despise me la, my food (curry pork rice, then i was thinking why like no curry chicken) was like the last to arrive. and lagged very long after the 2nd last (sam's black pepper pork or smth liddat). and haha they were like testing each other's reaction by throwing the jai ball across the table rofl. "_______, think fast!" (then throw liao lolx.) haha damn fun. but didnt throw after food came la, if not land on ur plate then gg liao. oh yeah, there got CHAO DUO insects lol. they were ambushing us one by one haha. first kelvin kenna, like got some fly or wad invade his hor fun, then attacked sam. then we were like joking haha, cos he order black pepper ma, so even if got fly in the food also cant tell lol. then came to invade the rest as well lol. kg went to trap one under his root beer can haha. revenge! after that, some went home while the rest went to venezia for icecream. haha it's damn nice lah! i must go again some time. 6d go next time leh! lol. um me and clarence had crunchy choc nut, sam had choc mint, kelvin's was tiramisu, peizhi's was strawberry and choc i think, and huanzi's was choc mint and something else (lol bad memory). dingfang's was hazelnut, haha that i can rmb. forgot abt jiehan joseph and the rest le. oops. so yea, had quite nice icecream to eat =D. since a long time since i went to eat gd icecream le. the last time was ben and jerry's with samuel and ryan on my bdae hehe. hmm yea, so went back home with those taking the same side of the road as me lo. went back and slp damn early liao haha. immapig. =.= then sat went for co as usual. haha today a lot of ppl's bdae la! shouhao (on fri but we celebrated belated), siheng and yeejiunn. lol just nice la, one tanbo, one xianyue and one chuida haha. then during co meng eat haha. cos tanbo, chuida and xianyue all got their own food, then we were meng passing around and eating rofl. chips sweets etc la. damn funny haha. then cos ruan a bit distance away from rest of tanbo, michelle became our messenger haha. keep leaving her seat to take the food from liuqin or pipa ppl lol. ok seriously i think we ate a lot :P haha after that cos tanbo going to watch mr bean, which i already watched, so um yeah didnt go loh haha. hope they had fun though! mr bean is funny =) anyway, tagged along with peizhi to meet kelvin and jieyee in school for lunch. went to pizza hut at bukit timah plaza to eat. wahh the renovation kinda zai lol. nice :D the ambience just not bad la haha, but gone is that mega long table we always sat when i went. kinda like all 5 times i went la, cos always got big grp of ppl going (class, co, tanbo etc), so had to make use of that table haha. now no more liao. all nice nice cosy areas haha. then the table cloth feels like leather la! lolx. and our iced water, below now got this interesting paper coaster designed not to seep thru de. seats also quite comfy. omg haha why am i like advertising for pizza hut. but of cos there's this increase in quality, there's of cos a corresponding increase in the prices of food >.< shi ex de. all the pasta and baked rice 9.20 liao -.- anyway, peizhi had curry baked rice, jieyee and minestrone soup and pasta (haha i forgot the name, surfer's choice or something), kelvin had heavenly desire (haha it's just the name of some icecream, but somehow very amusing after we ordered our food, then "can i have one... heavenly desire?" hahaha.) and i had salad with roasted chicken. haha very funny to have lunch with 2 zi-high queens lol.. meng laugh non-stop lol. then uh yea lo, ate finish still continue toktoktok haha. oh yea after that at the bus stop we met xinying! or rather, she came down from the bus to change bus cos she saw us on the overhead bridge haha. so not that coincidental la >.< haha then they got dunno wad girl's talk. super secretive lol. so kelvin and i were like stoning. hmm then buses came and went home lo.

and seriously i went to slp after a light dinner AGAIN. seriously dunno wads wrong with me. keep feeling very tired for no reason.. and results back next wk. hmm all the best to everyone and myself bah. sianz.

k nth much to say le lol. shall go listen music and stone. wait for my parents to wake up bah. which should be soon i think.

2007-03-27T23:15:00.001+08:00

w00t. blocks are over. time to celebrate i guess haha.

and had fun i did man. thx to wenjie, our class and jnr class now on some monopoly streak, and we play every night haha. tonight's my best game so far! (though i kind of like became bankrupt 2nd and needed help from kelvin lol) at least my luck was way better than previously (though still quite lousy). as in like for once i managed to build hotels =.= finally see some red to my name liao.

2ndly, stumbled upon a game myth war since the hols when i saw the ad while playing miniclip (mugging period is very no life one). so took note of it and finally got to play ytd hahas. hmm so far so gd, the typical kind of mmorpg, and graphics are not bad i guess. and it's unique, cos the battle style is ATB, means go into another screen and attack turn based. kinda like FF liddat. haha cool. then still got pets to train and fight with u. the only complaint i have is the skills very simple and little! mebbe cos im a borg la, dunno. skill super boring. all buffs nia... was looking forward to some giant cannon thingy rofl.

3rdly, came totally unexpected. sam tan came my house yesterday, and started to intro me to MUD games. i also not sure how to explain la haha, they are just text based games that are quite fun la, i would say, though i think ill get sian after a while lol. but before that i must gain enough PL (power level) to transform or something! if not play so much just to learn meditate meh? =.= abit the fei if i stop liddat.

haha 4thly, audition as usual, though i havent played for some time liao.

hmm seems that i having a lot of fun hor? but not for long. results coming back liao... and just saw my econs drq results and roughly guildlines on how to answer essay. only one conclusion: totally GG for econs. and the most irritating thing is not i never study loh, i totally focused myself and mugged hard the last 3 days before blocks for econs. then come out all the answers is i know how to do one loh, then i just have to forget abt it and leave it out. major stuff somemore. i wont be surprised if my crappy essay failed -.- grrr.

damn sian la... i consider tried to study quite hard for this blocks le loh. but the results arent going to be satisfying at all la. mega sianzzzz. esp phy. i put in quite a lot of effort this time round la, but i know leaving 10 marks blank in the data analysis will kill me no matter how. so yeah, i kinda resigned to my fate la. chanel handbags phy doomed to screw up, no matter how hard i try >.< maths also. i put in the most effort for it la, then come out tons and tons of careless mistakes. frig. sian. k nvm, for now i shall have as fun fun as i can before the term gets busier (it has already started actually lol, just that i dao my hmk: chem prac =[). this sun going to sao mu... sian, dunno how have to choose sun of all days T.T there goes any chances of hanging out in the wkend liao laa. hopefully ill be able to make it for kbox >.< though chances are 50-50 i guess...

but no matter wad, looking forward to the wkend!! (still got half the wk to strive thru. jyjy.)

2007-03-25T05:04:00.000+08:00

holy it's 5am again.

2007-03-25T03:39:00.001+08:00

3.40 am and i barely finished thermal. and mind u, i like skimmed thru all the topics only la. ARGH. do i seriously want to fail phy.

cos ytd slept at like 5 (dont ask me why so late lol. i also dunno. definitely not mugging >.<), so today woke up at 12+. abit like half the day gone liao. then wasted today la, do waves and thermal nia >.< and still got EM and EMI and most imptly, PRACTICE QUESTIONS. it just occurred to me it's sunday liao le la. oh my tian. anyway, im really on an archive streak lol. was reading some archived posts from last year. then just now got this random inspiration to find back the previous blog i had, so was typing all sorts of random names i think i would have put in then. and ta-dah! i finally found it haha. it's as blue and black as before (i rmb how i used to make fun of my blog with that pun. >.<) argh being sec 2. rofl. haha i can finally trace all the way back to when i started blogging liao. 25/3/2003. haha it looks like it's a whole another year ago lol. i seem to have some very bloggy intentions when it comes to march hor lol. starting to blog, then restarting with my new "identity" d0tz, then this yr archiving and going to find back my roots lol. i seriously like finding ancestors liddat, try to trace and trace. hahas. it's funny where my interests laid in the past haha. damn funny to go back now and think of all the things i did when i was in sec 2 and 3. and how wu liao i was haha. looking at all these is really satisfying loh. u wont regret blogging at all la. totally. imagine if i hadn't blogged all these down, then i wont be able to recollect all these memories liao haha. louis vuitton handbags wont even rmb wad i did for sec 2 MAF. and it's amazing la haha. reading my previous blog, i actually was in the same group as yuting and jasline for MAF2004! totally had to recollections la haha. and now we are sitting in the same CO, yuting in my section somemore lol. ahh blogging seriously rocks haha. i think ive been advocating this since my sec 2 blogging days le. quoting my sec 2 posts: "hey blog, you must know that i am sacrificing sleeping time leh!!! juz to blog you! must gan3 ji1 (be grateful to) me ok??? i very noble and wei3 da4 leh!!!" "well, that's all for today's blog, not too interesting lah... but still, they are the events that happened today lah! so must illustrate it....right here in my blog!" "so that's all lah, blog... nice time digesting all i have enjoyed today! MAF ROX!!!" hahaha. im sure u are also laughing at my naviety and all last time. i got a gd laugh at myself when reading too haha. seriously, to trace back to sec 2 days... *wanders off down memory lane* seriously hor, i also dunno why im so bloggish these few days lol. ever since i started to archive my past posts. mebbe this blogskin got weird effects. must be staring too much at the skeleton voodoo doll. hahas. i also didnt know i used to be so close to junyu! lol. this is really strange la haha. a strange but amazing feeling. i cant exactly describe it. for long-time bloggers, u should go do this when u got the time lol. i bet u'll feel this interesting feeling too haha. *switching to sec 2 mode*

ok blog, i going off liao. nth else to say le haha... but don't worry! i'll be back soon de! with more things to tell u! haha. byebye blog! i go slp le..."

2007-03-23T12:40:00.001+08:00

finally it's all ready! wahaha.

if u are reading this means u are facing a brand new blogskin lolx. (like duh.)

ok yeah haha, in any case, i finally got my blog a new skin =D thought it was pretty cool. took me the whole morning la haha. with all the choosing, then reselecting, and putting on my blog to see if it suited. etc la haha. oh the changing of tagboard colour damn troublesome, like couldnt find a nice match de >.< im damn proud of the poem thing i made in the homepage haha. ok i dont how others think la, it may look like some pri sch work or wad i dont care la, i like wad i wrote can le lol. hmm it's fri le, i successfully wasted one day to mug phy! yay. now another half day gone due to this blog. but i thought it was worthwhile haha. k should get started soon. unless i really want to get a U for phy. (not that the chances of getting U will fall even after i studied >.<)

oh yes, i finally included an archive section haha. havent been archiving for damn long. the past 3 blogskins i think, all didnt have archives. actually this skin didnt have either, but while going thru the other blog templates i realised something called archiving still existed, so specially went to put it in haha.

wah seriously hor, blogging brings u tons of memories... i was like randomly reading some posts from my past years since sec 3, then haha. damn nice to read them all over again sometimes. shall go reread everything again after blocks lol. chanel handbags then i realised how noob i sounded in sec 3 rofl. very like uh... dumb loh lol. (actually it's quite similar to now la haha. but aiya heck, that's how i am. noob then noob bah lol.) hmm also realised i kinda made my blog die quite a no. of times. i think this time is the longest i've kept my blog running lo. lol. got 1 yr plus le i think. let's hope my passion to blog continues admist this crazy schedule in school =D

haha btw finally got it clear that i began this blog on 2/3/2004 lol. (although i think i blogged b4 that on some other site. i cant rmb liao.) so technically, it has been 3+ years! lol. nice. too bad my blog's bdae passed liao. by abt 20+ days. nevertheless, happy belated bdae d0tz! (omg im going bonkers liao.)

thats all bah, hope everyone finds the new skin nice lol. cyaz.

2007-03-22T19:57:00.001+08:00

yoyo back again. seriously serious hor, this chem test is made for u to fail de la -.- totally didnt have time to do finish, then of all things to give a 20 mark qn on, they tested proteins =.= which i hardly touched. argh. i feel like giving up liao. work so hard, mug so much for wad. apparently it's not paying off loh. econs liddat, maths liddat, now chem also liddat. feel like just daoing phy and getting a U la.

though i know of cos i wont do it =.=

ytd stoned whole day at home and attempted to study chem. quite failure i would say. only got myself started abt 1. then by the time i slack and finish organic chem it was 9.30. reaction kinetics too another 2 hrs. so i hardly finished my energetics la. so forced myself to wake up at 3+ to continue. then laglaglag, by the time i was awake enough to start, it was abt 5 le bah. lol, no wonder i screwed the test up.

then today after the screwed chem test, went to bukit timah food centre to eat lunch with class ppl. haha tried the western food, not bad :D. can go eat the baked rice next time haha. after that went to west mall to watch movie. cos most of them wanted 300, then ruiyuan and i didnt feel like watching, so ended up watching mr bean's holiday haha. wanted to choose something light hearted and relax a bit from this irritating blocks haha. and it did quite achieve its effect =)

i thought the show was really quite funny haha. as in dumb but not totally idiotic. like funny but not brainless. i think lol. the kid act quite well also haha, complemented mr bean really well. i love the scene where they act out the song they played from a speaker haha. very funny. and esp all the applause and money louis vuitton handbags got after that :D. and all the calls they made haha, to so many random ppl lol. damn funny. ruiyuan and i were laughing nonstop at the clay clarkson's film at the end also lol. "a clay clarkson film.... directed by clay clarkson... by clay clarkson studios... starring clay clarkson... featuring..." ya u get the idea lol. and the effect when the title is playback time and then we see the tape rewinds and replay again. mind u we keep looking at his face non-stop haha. totally narcissist :D and the end haha, when all his narcissist and attempts-to-be-emo-and-knowledgeable-but-failing-to-do-so comments fit the images mr bean was playing so well la!~ totally apt. meng laugh :D:D:D:D

haha i dont mind "spoiling" cos it's really the kind of show where u cant just know the plot. must watch it for urself for the effects lol. so yeah, it's not that waste of money la, i think. to me at least. so can go watch if u are feeling stressed up or sad of some sort. will liven up ur spirits de! =D

hmm today really no mood to mug for phy. lol i think i really lost the motivation liao. hopefully i wont like continue to slack my way to mon lol. then gg liao. meanwhile, happy wkend to geoggers, and "happy" wkend to phy ppl =) sigh.

i want to relieve stress.

2007-03-20T17:09:00.000+08:00

haha havent blogged for real long. since tml no paper, shall spend some time to update this quite dead blog lol. seriously, j2 is damn boring la. so sian until i got nth much to blog about at all.

hmm blocks so far have been quite screwed. seems that the effort i put in like not paying off de loh =.= argh screwed results for sure.

i cant wait for blocks to be over la. i want to go kbox! vent frustration! just sing my lungs out man. seriously. then go watch movies or something. this yr so deprived until i only watched 2 movies la =.= totally pathetic. so yes, finding ppl to hang out with once next mon gets over and done with.

lol i dreaming abt post blocks when only half of it has passed. but nvm, one must have goals to motivate themselves isnt it? =D

hmm i think it's time for a new look (i think i said that b4 the new year, but nvm lol). shall go about looking for something new after blocks. that shall be another motivation too wahaha.

oh great i ran out of things to say le. k nvm haha. thats all bah.

wad a crappy post.

2007-03-14T17:39:00.001+08:00

ahh studying is so sian. seriously la. every 15 min i will feel like slacking off le. im so terribly behind schedule can. and all the chem i studied like never study at all. i think i forgotten everything le >.< wth. anyway, ytd went kelvin's house to mug. haha quite fun lol. was listening to songs on his laptop and studying in his room. haha now got quite a lot of nice songs waiting for him to send me. like li sheng jie and some other random songs lol. oh yea, he showed me pictures of his family overseas holidays. super nice can!! esp new zealand. although i went nz during sec 4 annual camp, but hor, i see all the things his family did, haha chao envious. like bungee jumping, visiting winery, climbing glaciers, sitting on this super fast speedboat, and not to forget all the uber cool scenery!! haha i seriously have to see all that for myself, if not ill like die with regrets lol. (ok a bit kua zhang.) itching for a holiday liao hahas. oh yea, louis vuitton handbags went downstairs to the clubhouse to gym and play squash somewhere in the afternoon. haha cos kelvin lemme use the zai racket, thats why i can be a lot less noob than wad i originally supposed to be. but hey, i thinking my serving improve a lot la haha. i still rmb i started off like forever miss the ball liddat. like some serious problem with hand eye coordination. u know, like that kind of cmi one haha. but now i think i can serve a lot better le la! but the playing is still quite noob la haha. aiya must practice more i think. went back bathed, then continue to mug and listen to songs haha. after that went home le. i seriously think im going to fall sick or something. other than this stupid sore throat irritating me, i sometimes feel a bit dizzy and my head like pounding, like all the blood flow to my head liddat. and my whole body aches from ytd lol. sian, chao weak. kk back to uber sianness of studying... >.<

*half-dead and signing off...

2007-03-13T08:45:00.001+08:00

haha havent blogged for ages. mostly cos there's seriously nth to blog abt sch. damn sian. >.<

anyway, went to smu open house on sun with ruiyuan wenjie peishan. haha i thot it's quite interesting, and the talk let me gain some knowledge abt business and stuff i guess. quite fun hahas. after the talk, went to bk at raffles city to eat, then went back to walk walk again lol. wanted to take some free hippo ride at 3, and we waited, then it got postponed -.- so we gave up and left lol.

oh ya the campus is pretty cool haha, the underground passage linking all the buildings together got this very cooling feel, like airport liddat. then got a lot of shops, just that they were all closed, since it was a sunday la. haha im surprised at the shops they have la. bookshops, cosmetics, foodcourt, cafes, banks, and even a clinic and dental centre. haha but quite an enjoyable walk thru the passageway =). oh yea, theres this big steps place, very cool to take pix, but cos when we wanted to take, there got ppl, so attempt failed. but haha it's a nice place, i think for watching performances or something de.

after smu open house, we walked ALL THE WAY, to somerset (i think we quite zai lol) and met juniors to play pool at cine. cos they had huang cheng at night. got kevin kelvin clarence huanzi huijie hanlin joseph. haha dunno it's some coincidence or wad, chanel handbags almost everyone wore polo haha. got some telepathy i think :D haha quite fun la, played 1 game with ruiyuan. i was as noob as ever, and i only won cos ruiyuan help me get in 3 balls la. and i took forever to the get the black ball in -.- seriously, i could do with some practice. a lot of it i think.

after that wj ps and ry left, and i had dinner with some juniors. huijie, clarence, kelvin, huanzi. haha not really have dinner with them la, since i didnt eat. but cos i really didnt want to go back home and face all my notes, so decided to loiter around outside for a longer time. haha.

and block test seriously sucks. i need to mug everyday like it's A levels liao liddat =.=. my mum nags non stop. i think if i screw up this block test, i next term gg liao. cannot go out le i think. and im totally behind schedule cann. i probably havent done wad i was supposed to do 2 days ago. argh, sian diao. and mugging seriously drains energy la. i dunno fell asleep on my sofa how many times in a day. read read read then eyes start to close and then, zzz liao. then worse thing is when i wake up, i cant seem to rmb wad i had read b4 i slept la. argh gg-fied.

all i hope now is i wont screw up as badly as my promos bah. im trying to mug liao. trying being the keyword. sianzz. jyjh jyjh jyjh jyjh jyjh!! lol.

2007-03-05T23:56:00.001+08:00

had a busy wkend. cos of A level results, today is a school holiday. but before i get into that proper, i wanna thank everyone who have tagged on my tagboard, and those who spoke to me on msn. really thanks a lot. but till now i still dunno whether wad im doing is the right thing or not loh, but ill just try to keep it like it was loh. trying to get over it. as long as i still have gd friends, i suppose ill just have to give up on those who dont appreciate my company. cos it's then not totally my fault wad.

arigato to everyone hor =). feeling much better after emo-ing that night till abt 3+.

anyway sat had CO from 11am - 3pm. alighted opposite hcjc and walked towards the out gate of chinese high and wanted to enter thru that to go to mph. but it was closed =.=. then i thot the hcjc side gate always closed one, so walked all the way to the chinese high in gate and backtracked after im in the campus to mph. damn far can. i think i got walk 1+ km la... sian diao.

after CO met up with xinying and kelvin together with peizhi. the 2 had ccas in the morning. then we went to al ahzar to eat. xinying and peizhi ate murtabak special, kelvin ate pratas and i ate chicken murtabak. with a milo dino each haha. late lunch/early dinner was quite nice la haha, gossip a lot of random stuff lol. then xinying played with us "this is where it all begins" haha. shant describe much abt the game la, but basically i got it after a while cos it was similar to one i played b4, but kelvin and peizhi i think till now also havent geddit yet haha.

after that went back school to change. peizhi and xinying went to bathe. then prepared for talentime! haha. quite a lot of jnrs and snrs went i think, cos support wensi cheejia and yijing ma. uh then most of class were at yushan's house making banner, so they were late. we went to book 3 whole rows haha, to reserve seats for both class ppl. oh ya, me and kg bought one rose each at the network booth to give wensi and cheejia haha.

shant go abt describing (that'll take ages), but basically it was not bad la haha. wensi and cheejia sang very well la, dunno why the judges didnt let them win champs. im very sure it's not the voting loh, since wenjie say he voted like 500+. and he said yongxian voted more than him lol. totally imba. im amazed they didnt win the most smses sent. omg i cant imagine how many smses the winner sent. 1000+ perhaps? =.= rich guy sia. but still 2nd is still very qiang haha. then yijing's dance also quite zai haha, with all the frogleaps and cartwheels. very entertaining also. =) gd job on geting 2nd for creative category!

the guest performers were gd too =) very nice. haha diya very lame lol. or rather i should say the emcees very lame. hahaha, their convo is just very amusing. "happy!" "diya you're very humourous" hehe.

after talentime went with some jnr and snr class ppl to eat at kap, till abt 12, then went home le.

then today since it's a sch hol, so decided to hold jts today. and the turn out was gd! i think 24 snrs and 23 jnrs went. thats a lot la haha. nice one =) went to dragon gate restaurant at harbour front centre to eat dimsum buffet.

but the night b4, discussed with kelvin on going there, then so coincidental both of us wanted to cut hair tgt! lol. damn qiao. so met up at 9.30 to go bukit timah plaza to cut hair lo. cos it was too early i think, so monsoon which kelvin usually goes not open. then we ended up going up to soh to cut our hair loh. but cos it was too early, cecilia not there yet. she always cut my hair one. so bo bian, let the 2 ppl present there cut. haha i a bit dui bu qi kelvin, dunno whether his hair is ok. cos mine's like quite disastrous. um actually i also dunno la, cant really tell. just... feels different loh. sighs. nvm. shall console myself it will grow back soon and i can go get it cut by cecilia again...

haha anyway after the haircut took 61 and met alvin at the harbourfront bus stop. then wj brought us into restaurant. had to enter from the carpark de, so weird. but the place was quite big la, then the food also not bad haha. sat with dj yx weiye benwu kevin jinlei and alvin. the rest like eat quite little lol, only alvin and i there polishing the food haha. louis vuitton handbags feel so bad, like the food come we koup koup koup then no more le. paiseh haha. then we meng order la haha, it's like eat finish the food on the table, then me and alvin will look at each other and say "wad's next?" then start scrolling the dimsum list lol. hmm not bad place for dimsum i think :D. got cha shao su, siewmai, xia jiao, fried wanton, char siew pau, shrimp dumpling, sausage, fruit dimsum even. aiya just a lot la. also got dessert, honeydew sago haha. then after eating, our table went to play gei wo tempo ready go and the hands game haha. the hands game chao difficult la, the one with the tap - continue, taptap - reverse, pound - skip. ben wu like quite zai haha, always last till near the end :D. then i think the other tables also play stupid games haha, like meng laugh and make a lot of noise haha. =)

after jts went vivo to shop around, went topman/topshop and some went to adidas shop to play foozball. lol their addiction is seriously... serious. ok no laming intending in the previously sentence. then decided to watch movie. budden cos of deciding on wad movie and blahs, then the grp split into 3. one grp of ppl went to watch protege (including me), another grp wanted hannibal rising, and the last grp didnt want to watch movie and went to town to play pool i think. the hannibal rising grp were all snrs then the pool ppl all jnrs. only the protege grp a bit of mixture. but sigh, a bit sad to split up like that.

haha protege was quite nice i think. just a bit er in some parts. to me la. haha... kelvin was just telling me in the morning that horror movies can scare him de. applies for me too. so i was looking elsewhere when the blood was oozing out from andy lau's wound when he died lol. and the hand =.=. seriously. i would have been xia dao if it wasnt so fake.

after that dinner with kg kelvin alvin at seah im foodcentre. then took 963 back to bukit timah and changed bus back.

sorry abt the lack of details lol. but ive seemed to lost my touch for blogging again. this post feels weird. and uh for duh reasons like tml got sch and im quite tired from today. yawn.

and i know i very slow, but recently then got hooked to step up soundtracks. (yes yes i know it's very long ago liao) but still they are nice wahaha. wenjie lend me!!

2007-03-03T01:16:00.001+08:00

HYPOCRITE.
this word has been ringing in my head for years. sometimes i cant help but think, why do certain ppl call me that? is it really so that my way of making friends with ppl, my way of networking, my way of socialising, my way of dealing with interpersonal issues have been wrong through and through?

i really dunno. totally lost. i forgot abt the time when i first got to learn abt that word, but i really got to feel the impact of having someone call u that in sec 2. and once in sec 4. and now it's happened again.

is it some continuous cycle? am i fated to meet ppl who i try to be close to but end up labelling as a hypocrite and ending a friendship like that? i really dunno. does the fault really lie so deep in me? so much so that after a span of 4 years, and 2 incidents, and i still cannot learn from my mistakes? am i just born to be a hypocrite or something? im clueless.

it's not a nice feeling to have this term haunting u for 4 years. but it's really not within my character to be straightforward and direct to ppl. i just cant say it straight out like, "ok yes. u suck. chanel handbags totally. just go to hell." wad else could i do other than just keeping silent when some things ppl do or say is directed at others. im not the kind who'll go "you dont say this abt him/her. u are the one that is at fault." and when ppl start to find out that u are after all not siding with him/her, u get labelled as a hypocrite. thats the main reason why ppl call me that, cos i try not to make any enemies on any side.

so i get my retribution by ending up making enemies on both sides?

that's just me wad. if there can be ppl so straightfoward they are practically aiming daggers at ppl, there can also be ppl who tries to shield everyone, and not choosing to take either side strongly. why do these ppl have to be labelled as hypocrites? is it any wrong just to keep silent and maintain the peace being withheld now? will it be any better if u sided with someone and totally break off all connections with the other side?

so im a hypocrite. does that mean u all are asking me to be direct and cutting and hurt ppl in the process? why cant i just be the middleman and not disrupt the peace?

i really dunno la. if im apparently a hypocrite, then there's nth u can do. cos there's nth i can do either. maybe im just doomed to be labelled as that forever. maybe im really one.

so many maybes... but there's one thing for certain. i HATE the word. TOTALLY.

i may lose a friend in the near future. but i dunno wad to do either. hopefully, it'll never happen. it never ceases to amaze me how impt friendships are to me. but wad can i do? frowns and tears are not going to solve any matters.

i dont want anyone to hate me. i seriously dont...

2007-02-21T20:24:00.001+08:00

haha it's been a busy cny haha. so tired last night that i totally couldnt blog and went to sleep instead. today was practically dozing off during phy lecture >.< day one (sunday)

the usual stuff as before, went to some houses to bai nian before having lunch at my grandma's house. after that went home and waited for my dad's side relatives to come over. was quite antisocial lol, didnt really know wad to say. so just kept playing audition >.< oh i realised some of my cousins play as well! haha. but we didnt exchange much words throughout the whole afternoon. was quite awkward, as always. at night went to my auntie's house to visit and got to talk a little more with my older cousins haha. they kinda agreed with me loh, that i just cant seem to click with certain cousins. perhaps they are older, and closer to my siblings, so i can join in the convo more easily. whereas for other cousins i gotta initiate myself, which is like totally awkward and stuff. yeah. day two (monday)

went to my first auntie's house after going temple to bai bai. this yr is not a gd yr for snakes, cos we chong2 tai4 sui4. actually i dont really know wad it means la, basically is just not a gd yr for the pigs (cos it's their yr), and the snakes. the tigers and monkeys also not that good, but not as worse off as us.

after that nothing on liao, cos my sis friends coming over later, so had to um... get prepared. so i called sam and went to his house form novena haha. havent been to his house for really really long lo. quite nice to see his mum, aunt, sis and grandma again =) had a fun time chatting and talking about random stuff in school and council and blah blah.

then after ryan came, sam's sis ordered pizza for dinner and we played some childhood games lol. at least thats wad sam's mum said, all the games were sam's favourite before 10. haha. first we played this table hockey thingy, mini version. it's the one in the arcade with paddles and pucks to aim to the opponent's goals. u know, the one with the 3 puck play and stuff. haha damn fun =) esp when we came out with our own 3 puck play lol. just meng zamm.

then went to play monopoly haha. seriously, i havent played that for eons liao la... i wonder if i've even played before using the board. haha according to my memory, i only played it on comp before >.< gao1 ke1 ji4 (quoting sam tan) haha. wah seriously my luck is either bad or horrible la, i missed the collect $200 at the go cos i ended up on the pay $200 tax just a couple of squares away from the go for about 6-7 times. seriously i mean it. had to forfeit my $200 loh. and my dice rolls were cmi. it's like while they rolled 8-12 and lots of doubles which got them re-rolls, i got tons of 1+2 = 3 or 2+3 = 5 that kinda lous dice rolls. so lagged behind in all the pruchasing of property until i was totally ggfied lol. ah but it's was fun nevertheless, esp very funny when super dao mei things happen. like someone just got out of jail only to get back in next turn, or chance cards that made ppl advance to unlucky squares, like those with a lot of houses, so had to pay a lot haha. after playing, went all the way to marina square to meet class ppl at the arcade haha. louis vuitton handbags went there for dinner. got cj yushan weichung kg ph wensheu wensi pengsing ruiyuan and me. they were playing shooting games and jurassic park haha. looked quite fun. after that i went to try out the only game i could play in arcade >.< - bishi bashi. then haha, cos inside got a mini game called saturday night dancers, with black ppl having afro hairstyles that grew bigger and bigger if u got the rhythm correct, then kg and weichung started to irritate wensheu with the rhythm beats haha. then all of us got into it la haha. now wensheu claims the thing is stuck in his head lol. *wing wing wingwingwing* lol oh, then we had late night icecream at swensens lol. quite random lol, cos we were like deciding where to go next, then just suddenly decided on eating icecream haha. weichung ordered a milkshake, wensheu and cj ordered one frosted chocolate malt each, ruiyuan ordered cookie summit, me and kg shared banana crumble, yushan ate double scoop sundae, and wensi, ph, pengsing ate earthquake wahaha. little interesting stuff happened lol. um for instance, wensi spilled her ice water haha, cos she tried to sip the water with only her mouth to support the glass, then it toppled over and spilled lol. when the earthquake came, the middle portion was dried ice ma, so it was "smoking". then we were all like, wah so cool! haha. quite lame lol. oh and after weichung kouped wensheu's chocolate-coated cherry on top of the frosted chocolate malt, he fell in love with it haha, actually went to ask the waitress if they got sell it individually. then the waitress really went to bring him one! haha. at first we all thought it was so nice of her to give weichung a cherry, then it turned out in the bill that it cost 50 cents. ji scam money >.< lastly before we left, we were playing with the salt and pepper bottles haha. quite evil of us la lol, went to unscrew the caps of the bottles, so that when someone wanted to add some salt and pepper, and overturn the bottle to get the salt and pepper out, the cap will fall off and... yeah haha, ur whole food gg liao. all salty or peppery haha. oh no quite evil of us lol. but i think we screwed it back la lol. THINK being the keyword haha. btw banana crumble is pretty nice haha! nice combo of hot and cold =) damn cool if u eat some icecream with some crumble. yummy =) btw after that it was getting late le, so went home with puay hian and peng sing via 171 outside esplanade. haha fun day. day three (tuesday)

haha seriously yesterday beat all the other days of cny this year =) SUPER DUPER UBER FUN LA!!! was supposed to meet tanbo ppl at sengkang mrt at 9.30, but cos i was dilly-dallying. and meng lagging at home, i only got out of my house at abt 9.05. so had to take taxi to chiong there >.< haha. the taxi fare was like 15 bucks la... T.T anyway, slowly more and more ppl. got szu an, michelle, jielun, shixian, koymin, shouhao, zhiguang, and kengwei, weiquian, samuel who came later. so we set off for zhiguang's house haha. at rumbia via lrt. haha seriously we were behaving like a bunch of noobs at taking lrt lol, cos we all were like pretend to be wow-ed by the automated lrt haha. and after samuel came, he was practically on a gao ke ji mode lol, using malaysian accent and exclaiming at stuff like lrt, the fogging ability with the bukit panjang lrt, all the lifts we took (this is a gao ke ji box man, can open and fit us in, and can bring us up to where we want to go! omg!), the security gates at some condos (gao ke ji door sia! u put ur wallet at the black black thing, then got a "beep" sound and the gate can open liao! omg!) haha basically acting lame, but very fun haha, cos we were all very high. wah i shant go into too many details, cos we went to a total of 8 houses all over singapore, so if i were to say wad we did at every house, that'll take me forever. just some random trivia here and there. basically, after we did all the usual " xin nian kuai le!" thing, we chiong to everyone's room to try to discover their deepest and darkest secrets lol. and we managed to unravel quite a lot heh heh :P:P:P but shant say too much here haha. and for the first two houses, we were addicted to ban-luck la haha, took a lot of our time so much so that we kept lagging and went to the west side pretty late lol. it's like: zhiguang's house 10.00 - 11.30 shouhao's house 11.45 - 12.45 jielun's house 1.30 - 3.00 koy min's house 3.45 - 5.00 michelle's house 6.00 - 7.00 my house 8.00 - 9.00 shixian's house 9.30 - 10.45 szu an's house 11.15 - 12.10 haha seriously i think we were damn meng lol. spent abt 6 bucks on transport i think haha. and super exhausting and tiring. but super duper fun!!! so yea anyway, was playing guitar, keyboard, piano, and banluck at zhiguang's house, then ps2 (racing) and banluck at shouhao's house. shouhao had a neighbour, this small boy called aandith haha. cool name right. i didnt typo error hor. so me and koymin were playing racing with him haha. very funny boy =) after that we realised ban luck was taking too much of our time, so we stopped playing it haha. at jielun's house, it was lunch time haha. had a nice lunch of beehoon and other dishes there, and the most memorable thing at jielun's house (im sure it applies to all the rest who went) was the muah chee!!! haha seriously. cos after lunch, jielun's mum served us a plate of muah chee. then after we finished it, came another plate. and another. and another. and another lol. seriously i think we ate A LOT of muah chee lol =)) koymin's house i think we played the most stupid games haha. dunno why we just randomed and started to play "gei wo tempo, ready go", a game from a taiwan show haha. play until damn shuang la haha, cos super high and we kept laughing nonstop. then even more dumb was "chop chilli chop chilli chop chop chop" haha. i think we got take a video of it. super funny haha =) then kengwei can come out with super funny actions de la haha. shi xian got a lot of act cute poses also :P:P it's a super lame but highly self-entertaining game hahaha. oh btw, tanbo addicted to these games liao lol, esp gei wo tempo ready go, was playing it just now before dazu haha. michelle's house and my house were mainly more of chatting and hanging around, cos i think everyone getting hungry and waiting to go shixian's house for dinner lol. got to know some secrets abt michelle eh... haha. juz kidding :P oh ya, michelle's dog is super cute haha, then we evilly went to trap her and made her face the hamster, then the dog was very scared of the hamster haha, kept moving backwards and barking at the hamster lol. shixian's house is super big haha, cos he and his family members altogether occupy 3 units side by side on the same floor lol. pity that cannot tear down the walls in between, if not the overall unit will be totally GIGANTIC la haha. had a nice dinner of rice with curry, veggies, chicken etc haha. oh ya, his house got this family portrait which consists of all his relatives la haha. like 30 ppl in the pic. kinda zai =) oh, and there's this super noisy and loud firecracker sounding thing. mega loud la haha. we were all like saying later the police come up lol. lastly at szu an's house, i think we all exhausted le la haha. reached at 11+ lol. but still had a very nice time at the badminton court area playing with sparklers. it's been a while since i played, cos i dont usually get to play it much when i was young, and the last i played it was with the class outside puay hian's house there during maf. haha really quite fun. then we used the sparklers to make lionel's horns (cos he's horny captain). lol, we even got a pic la haha. damn stupid :D haha after that most of us took cab home (esp the ppl living in the east and north). kengwei's parents sent me back haha. v nice of them =) if not although bukit panjang quite near my house, i wouldnt know how to get back home la. haha took lots of pics. esp the group photos (which we kept forgetting until we reached downstairs and had to get the security guard to take for us haha), and the pictures of everyone's rooms =). looking forward to all the pictures haha :D seriously, it was a damn fun day. totally worth it despite me about to die of exhaustion today in school. on a side note, cos i totally daoed my hmk during cny, have to make it up for it now. omg mega sian. cant slp early >.< ok i took like 1+ hr to blog. but it was worth it, seeing it's like so much la. super long post k! happy reading to whoever who comes around. a pity i too lazy to describe much abt yesterday. i just have to say again it was really fun to be with my tanbo mates, and going from one place to another all over singapore :D

2007-02-18T08:01:00.001+08:00

ZOMGGG. i just realised i totally daoed friday's happening stuff. lol. ok not so happening actually.

in any case, cos my bro say if we leave at the normal time we left we will be jammed like siao cos of the rgps girlgirl's papa and mama's cars. and somemore cny celebration, so no morning and afternoon sessions, so it's like x2 no. of cars? zohmy.

so anyway, left like super early and i reached school abt 6.40? the whole school like dead liddat. except for the central plaza with the council ppl prepraing for cny. hmm the decors look really nice i though. got that super long 15 word chun lian, then cloths hanging all above the central plaza. and of cos the nice class banners all around the central plaza on the 2nd floor. so yeah, just stoned around and look at the councilors brief abt wads happening later. >.< stone stone stone. anyway finally aaron came, and we went to random lol. cos he wanted to prac the apollo fac dance with his jacket, so i went with him and watched him haha, nth to do at class bench also. totally zero ppl. oh btw he got munchkins for his bdae!! haha im so going to play it manz. (that reminds me, needa get a present for him haha. mebbe treat him to kbox or something. oh no, it's become my favourite bdae present to give ppl liaoz.) then ppl started coming (like finally), and i got asked like 10000 times why i wasnt wearing the class tee. then i had to explain 10000 times i had CO performance so had to wear red. but sigh sad, didnt get to wear in the end, cos after CO then changed to fac shirt and prepare for fac dance. nvm, will have chance de! hehe. anyway CO moving back to MPH le!! whee. although a bit far from hcjc campus, but finally we got our own home le loh. needed to go about moving the instruments from the lt2 storeroom nonstop there haha. i didnt know we had so many ruans. louis vuitton handbags like mebbe 8-10 zhongruans. and 3 daruans. after that joined 6d ppl (both snr and jnr) at the street soccer court. haha they were playing. a whole sea of black and blue lol. then they got form some noob team haha. reminds me of the floorball noob team i was in last yr. then towards the end, cos this bunch of qian bian ppl coming over to kaobei us. seriously la. the street soccer court is not theirs, you bi yao sound like they own it. and make it absolute that they should play it. ah nvm, irritating ppl. went back to central plaza and visit jnr class's stall. haha it's something abt throwing chapteh thru cardboard boards. then got point system and stuff. yeah. dj and wj both won something for yx and ps haha. awww so sweet. lol. after that i dunno where did all the jnrs zao, but we went to kap for lunch, before going dj's house to play. wanted to catch a movie, but cos nobody wanted to spend $$, so yeah it was cancelled. i didnt watch cos i thought sat will watch another one, but turned out that i didnt either haha. the sweettalk at clementi is apparently v popular. cos me wensi and yx wanted to queue and buy something from there but it took so long >.< so long until the rest missed one bus cos of us. paiseh paiseh!

did the usual stuff at dj's house. my 2nd time here and i still havent touched the foozball table at all. never got the chance to. sighs. but nvm, soon soon i hope. still audition was fun as usual, and playing heroes on xbox with wenjie was too! haha. i seriously cmi at it la, i kinda die like 3 times, so changed from the v useless elf wizard which cannot aim her wind and magic missle properly de (lol), to the cleric that could only heal himself and until the 2nd time i revived the cleric did i save up enough pts in heal to heal wj also. but heal him v little haha. i love that part with the big boss where we had to lure it to the sharp spikes so that it will turn vulnerable for us to hit it. if not it was invulnerable. but i died there haha. nvm nvm. in any case, made a pact with wj liao, shall play it again the next time we go there! [need a raise dead amulet?]

played a bit of pool too, but seriously cmi, so i gave up. mebbe i shall go up myself alone and try. i totally HATE teaming with other ppl, cos like i dont really get the chance to practise, and ill end up causing the team to lose (which happened to me and ruiyuan against wj and ps). ah inferiority complex in pool.

haha ate packed dinner of charsiew rice and watched hana kimi as well. too bad i missed happily ever after cos we left abt 9. haha thats abt it!

2007-02-18T07:20:00.001+08:00

heyoooooo! this is kinda late, but in any case, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! hope that everyone will get lots of ang pow wor! and eat lots of nice cny goodies. happy bainian-ing. in any case, just have a happening cny =).

yesterday went to east coast park to meet my fren. met and bedok and walked all the way to east coast park haha. quite far if u walking alone, but it's a lot better if u got someone to chat with haha. kept talking non-stop =). amazed at the no. and kind of topics we can come out with lol.

so yea, went to east coast to enjoy the sun, the sand, the sea and the hunks and babes! or rather, cancel out the hunks and babes part. but yea, went to soak feet in the sea haha, chao nice feeling. cos the water super cold despite the scorching sun. but heng ah, it just rained, so the weather wasnt too terrible. then the sand also, warm and very nice to play around with =). like stroking a dog's fur liddat. anyway we went about collecting seashells haha. and some nice looking pebbles. also got a bottle to collect the nice sand :D haha v fun.

then sat down and ate the remaining cookies i've left from tue's baking. thankfully they werent crushed in my bag lol. i think it's really a very very nice feeling to sit on the beach, looking at the big big ships far away, louis vuitton handbags feeling the warm sand, and squinting far ahead to see the blue sky and green sea. ah... i think it's a very special way to spend the afternoon, esp it's on cny eve. a pity we had to go home for reunion dinner, if not can watch the sunset like wad kelvin did haha. sounds cool la, to be able to slowly see the sky turn into a myriad of colours and slowly becoming darker and darker, until the moon and stars come up. =) shall try it when i have the chance next time.

after eating the cookies, we collected our seashells into a plastic bag and left. another long walk haha, but this time in another direction to take a bus. in the end i took a bus with my fren to amk, b4 changing to buses that could lead me home. haha the bus ride brought back lots of memories. cos amk used to be my hometown, the place where i spent my childhood times. looking at the oh-so-familiar road that leads into the old rosyth school in the parry area, passing by the blocks of flats that i used to play so often at the void decks, kicking ball and playing badminton, watching kids play at the playground that i used to play abt 8 years back? climbing the stairs to play the slide, swing on the swings, and playing fire and ice with the colours on the ground. ahh. memories are sweet. i want to come by here again and take a walk further into the neightbourhood when i get the chance to next time...

reunion dinner was quite nice haha. didnt go out to eat, cos my parents say will have lots of ppl, then dont want to go squeeze with them and stuff. so basically just had a homecooked meal. but quite nice la haha, considering ever since ive gone up to jc, been eating dinner quite seldom at home liaoz. im sure the same applies for the siblings as well, cos they hardly are free enough to come back for dinner de. yummy! =)

anyway last night too tired after going out, i frigging fell asleep >.< chao chao chao pissed now. argh. nvm nvm ill try to make use of wadeva is left of this yr's cny. yup. so everyone, go enjoy ur cny man! grab all the angpows u can (lol i sound evil) and we all shall be a tad richer after cny to go out and stuff =)) looking forward to a mp3 player (thats if i get enough money for it >.<).

ciaoz!